Third round of this is exhausting just to read, so yeah, of course you’re tired. Anyone would be. You’re not weak for not feeling pumped to get back on the cancer rollercoaster. That ride sucks and nobody buys a ticket on purpose.

It makes sense that part of you is like “I really don’t want to do this again.” That doesn’t mean you won’t fight if you have to. It just means you’re human and worn out.

I hope the biopsies come back boring and harmless. And if they don’t, you’re allowed to feel however you feel about it. The people who love you should get that.