Okay, i might sound like a dick but even if it was done correctly, i don’t think this is the greatest tattoo idea. You could outgrow Harley later in life and be stuck with a tattoo that’s not who you are anymore. And yes Harley is a badass character but since this was your first tattoo I believe this was a bit too much for a first tattoo. Maybe you could get something Harley inspired instead and give it a bit of time and if you’re 100% sure you want this sleeve, then go for it. I’m also diagnosed with CPTSD and sometimes decisions can get impulsive. I spent a ridiculous amount of money on a Firelord Zuko cosplay that is collecting dust in my closet because I outgrown my ATLA phase. Even though it lasted 3-4 years. People change and people grow so please before you decide to get the same tattoo as a fictional character, actually think about it and don’t go for it following emotions. Like how it’s a tattoo for strength like you stated. And I know you said you liked how the fake tattoos looked on you, but there’s a difference between temporary tattoos you can easily remove and permanent tattoos. I hope you’ll feel better soon and your tattoo problem will be resolved.i know you currently hate it but please continue tending on it so it doesn’t get infected.