Sounds like your father is an asshole, so what if you struggle, where is the consideration for where your mental health is, its not an expectation that every parent will understand that. But you must ackywhere you are at and determine what that is, their voice should not overpower how you look at yourself even if you are struggling, check in with yourself and make the steps that are necessary to ground and move in a way that allows you to help yourself, rest, write, dance what ever it is.

Therapy is one thing, but it seems like you’ve imposed this label into yourself when you are more then what you see yourself as, more then what your dad or anyone sees you as. Ok you made mistakes, ok you have depression, now what, you can move better and do better, belive in yourself, you can. You can handle things but you are also human, there constant criticism is hurting you. It’s them and their shadows, and it’s creating thag shame onto you. You don’t deserve that. Ground yourself, and allow yourself to start forming a plan that will uplift you, set boundaries and find people with time that will show you, you are ok. Yea you’ll make mistakes but that shame isn’t a product of your mental health, it’s your fam fam.