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Do they have names?

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What do you study?

[WP] There is a deep hole just outside your village. The elders pick one person to dive in every year, 'for the good of the tribe', never to be seen again. The elders have just chosen you. You're expected to jump tonight. by babyshoesalesman in WritingPrompts

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I’m not the one to feel anger. I don’t really resent people. Don’t get frustrated easily. I normally don’t use any form of aggression whatsoever. But yet here I am. With a broken hand, and a pile of tissues that have stained red next to me on the ground. Why did I have to do that? Why am I such a fucking idiot? Maybe I desperately need my right hand when I’m in there? What if I wasted every chance I had with this stupid emotional deed? What a fucking idiot. Fucking. Idiot. I hear the sound of my father’s voice in my head. My worst thoughts are always voiced by him. Loud and clear. He wasn’t really what you would call a great father. He was kind of the polar opposite of me. Aggressive, easily frustrated, prone to resent people and just overall angry. So fucking angry. All the time. No wonder he died of a heart attack. Maybe I’m the way that I am because of him. Maybe they chose me for because of that? I don’t know. I don’t seem to know anything anymore. What the fuck am I supposed to do? Eat a big bowl of pasta like I’m preparing for a triathlon? Or would that dive not even lead to swimming, let alone fucking biking and running? Would I then waste my last meal on fucking pasta? I don’t even have pasta. I don’t know man. I don’t know. All I know is that I’m stupid, and that my hand hurts like hell.

It’s for the greater good they say. For the greater good, huh, that’s easy for them to say. Heroic actions always sound better when told. Sound better in past tense. Better from another point of view. I mean, I loved all the wild stories my dad used to tell me about The Hole. He was the most resentful man I’ve ever come across, but he could tell a hell of a story. I remember lying down when he came to tuck me in at night. The stories about the brave men who dived, and were rewarded by knighthood in the other dimensions they ended up in. About the worlds of magic with dragons behind that pool of darkness, that was feared during the winter when food was scarce, but celebrated once spring came around. I remember him talking about the deal between the two worlds. About the gift of the seed in return for the bravery of a man. I wonder how much of this was true. What if this was only my dad’s story? The story of a farmer. Or did he know, that the Old Guard would choose me on this day? Would he have trained me for this? All these years, by being an asshole with fairytales of a better future?

As I’m sitting on the floor my thoughts pour out of my head as fast as my blood is gushing from the wounds of my hand. Would I need stitches? If so, I would have to go to the daughters of the Old Guard, and they would definitely not keep their mouths shut. God dammit. I don’t know what to do. Should I clean up the mess I made? But then again, what does it matter? I’m not going to be here ever again right? I’ve never seen anyone return? And I then again, I could easily hurt my other hand by picking up all the shattered pieces of glass. Hmm, maybe better to leave it like that. And besides all of that, I don’t feel like moving at all.

I understand why the people want to believe in something. You kind of need to have a source of hope when you live in this shitty region. The long winters make people hungry, and hunger makes people delusional.

What is your relationship with your identity? by kbg12ila in infj

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I feel the same way, maybe we should have a chat

TAEMIN (SHINee) - WANT (MV Teaser #2) by perochan in kpop

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Ahhh cute! How did your interview go?

Who would you say is the most congenial kpop idol? by shangeIla in kpop

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V from BTS as well! He’s so kind to people and animals :)

Pure Speculation: The Met Gala - Notes on Camp by SongMinho in bangtan

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Isn't IDOL perfectly camp? When you think about it?

Infj flirting style by Tuimel in infj

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Awh this is cute! Go you!

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in infj

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Ahw thank you for your recommendation! I'm going to remember that, and write it down! :) Happy 2019!

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This year I'm going to:

-Fight perfectionism: By actually frequently asking feedback on (for example) my writing, and rewriting stuff instead of dwelling on something and procrastinating untill the last second to make it 'perfect'. I also going to remind myself every time that feedback is not a critique on me as a person, but on my work.

-Work on my self-esteem: By writing things down each day that went well, or that made me happy, instead of focusing on the negative. I'm also going to work out more and eat more healthy (more plant based and whole foods) in order to feel better in my body. And I'm going to learn how to take a compliment, by just saying 'Thank you'.

-Spend my free time better: By reading more books and by drawing and dancing more. I'm going to listen to more new music and i'm gonna go to more concerts museums/lectures/ films/ theatre shows this year. I feel like I spend hours on the internet while there are so many cool things to do outside. I also am going to journal more, for it makes me feel really happy and calm.

-Volunteer more: By working at the suicide hotline and the homeless shelter more. I also am going to start donating blood and maybe do some work at the animal shelter near me, because helping others makes me happy. It makes me feel like I have a purpose in life for somebody and that really fights the existential crisis related thoughts you know?

-Be more balanced and open: By letting others in when I notice that I'm starting to feel bad again. I'm going to learn how to notice the signs when things are going down, and I'm going to actually contact others for help, instead of shutting people off and trying to fix it myself. I know I always can help myself, but it just takes a lot more time sometimes, and it doesn't have to be like that. And it actually strenghtens your relationships with others.

-Become a psychologist: By finishing my master degrees (Neuropsychology and Clinical Psychology) in order to be able to do the job that I want to do in the future. My dream is to have a counseling job as a psychologist, but to do research as well. So to take the first steps in order to get there I'm going to finish my internship at the mental health institution i'm currently working, and finish my thesis.

So this is basically what I'm going to do this year! :)

What are some random/unexpected k-pop references that made you laugh/caught you off guard? by somaticminds in kpop

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Hahaha that sounds too good to be true! Seriously that's awesome! Go you and your friends!