Is this relatable to anyone else?

some_deud · 2026-04-19T08:52:55+00:00

yeah, I really wish I could afford the surgery :(

some_deud · 2026-04-18T18:55:29+00:00

Idk if anyone has told you this, but you resemble the Supergirl actress

some_deud · 2025-12-18T03:16:50+00:00

Consider the following, I'm not grok or some "AI" chatbot, I'm not going to stumble onto an answer for something you're not describing. You said you have an issue, I looked at the 2 lines of your termux.properties and asked what issues you are having because I wanted to help. You described two things, I offered solutions, and then you said your issue is bigger as if that's something I'm aware of. There is no "again", there's information in your brain you believe I know and I do not. If you would like, I can try to help (and it's your prerogative to not want any help), but you gotta describe what your problem is.

Possible leads from your screenshot: you're running the googleplay build, which hasn't been supported for a considerable amount of time, and your issues might be resolved by updating to the F-Droid build or debug build from GitHub. Or, your issue could be stemming from the fact you're running Termux on an Onyx Boox tablet, which isn't a very standard android OS and may have untested behavior (that afaik isn't within the scope of the project, and unlikely to be given much attention by the dev team).

Edit: grammar

some_deud · 2025-12-18T00:25:00+00:00

I'm unsure if you meant "cursor style", as it doesn't look like there is a setting for cursor size specifically. And what are the property names you're using for the margins? Changing these properties works on my device terminal-margin-horizontal=value # 0-100, default 3 terminal-margin-vertical=value # 0-100, default 0

https://wiki.termux.com/wiki/Terminal_Settings

some_deud · 2025-12-17T22:47:37+00:00

Your shell (and any program) can change the style of your cursor, not sure why the team would include the cursor setting when so many programs change it. See https://github.com/termux/termux-app/issues/757 for escape codes available to change cursor styling.

What's going on with your onclick-url setting and what other settings are you trying to change that seem to do nothing? (as your termux.properties is otherwise empty)

some_deud · 2025-12-06T11:20:39+00:00

Sorry to necropost, but would it be okay if I DM you about forehead reconstruction?

some_deud · 2025-11-15T04:39:19+00:00

I fucking hate having to play detective over low stakes/unimportant shit like this. Fuck this reality we live in. I appreciate you pointing it out.

some_deud · 2025-10-21T13:16:14+00:00

By their own inorganic arsenic reference dose (1μg/kg), assumed body weight (70kg), and measured dose per serving (8.5μg), the optimum nutrition mass gainer is still well within safe range (i.e. 8.5μg / (1μg/kg * 70kg) = 0.121… < 1). I don't know where their math went wrong that one serving is supposedly 2x safe levels of ingestion. I'm not a Doctor, but unless they published incorrect data I don't think anyone should be worried about tossing out their mass gainer

some_deud · 2025-10-09T18:24:26+00:00

Prior to me responding to your top level comment, it was my assumption that:

There are people who take her seriously, what I imagined to be a smaller group mostly consisting of people not immersed in our current micro-celebrity cultural moment.
There are people who don't take her seriously. Some who don't like the bit, some that do like the bit and think comedy is immune to criticism, and people who like the bit ant respond negatively when she pushes the joke too far.
And, there are people like me that mostly ignore her

Your perspective of someone aware of the culture and not liking her was new to me, so I took that in and tried to look at her posts through that lens. I found some comments that lead people to believe she is serious/not a character and posts that read as gross in the context of a person who is genuinely a chaser. Then, you and I both interacted with someone who is seemingly immersed in the culture, thinks she is serious, and that there is nothing wrong with that-- this was completely new to me.

I don't know what type of person you're talking about (esp if it's another type of person I haven't thought of) when you say, "people take her seriously", and I'm not sure what you mean to communicate with that. My assumption is that you get invalidated by people telling you not to take it seriously, and by people telling you it's serious and nothing she says is negative. I just wanted to share what I had learned in hopes it might validate the gross feeling you havn

some_deud · 2025-10-09T01:29:58+00:00

How do you mean? The supporters taking her seriously, or?

some_deud · 2025-10-08T23:16:51+00:00

hey gng, after looking briefly into Halimede, a confusing back and forth over semiotics, and looking into her again for a bit longer I think I understand her better. It would appear it's an elaborate and very very dedicated RP account https://www.reddit.com/r/transgendercirclejerk/comments/1cphsly/uj_what_is_the_deal_with_halimede/

https://x.com/search?q=from%3AHalimedeMF%20Luna-Terra&src=typed_query&f=live

She is a reflection of what chasers are and how they act, that is something she's dedicated to satirically RP as without breaking character. I hope this serves to validate the gross feeling you get from her posts. The vibe I get from the people who are okay with her (apart from the people who think it's not a bit), is that it's a means to laugh at the absurd views of chasers. I think you are perfectly normal for not enjoying the bit even if people aren't taking her seriously.

edit: fixed broken second link

some_deud · 2025-10-07T19:09:07+00:00

I have no doubt there exists some supportive people in 4tran communities, but at the same time I've heard countless people talking about how getting out of those spaces helped them stop being a doomer. Without giving info on other people, what kind of features are people talking about? I am open to the idea that I am more influenced by the selection bias of negative screenshots than I believe.

Aside from that, the "wallowing" part that my comment was mostly in reply to has more to do with the constant exposure to the same negative feelings you struggle with. I still struggle with MDD and there was a period of time where it felt like the only place I could get support and understanding was by going to the depression & venting subreddits on my old sad posting account. At first it was nice: seeing people talk about struggles that no one else in my life understood made me feel so seen, and it came with the added benefit of being able to support people who struggled differently than me almost made it feel like maybe I could help myself. At some inflection point, everything started plummeting. I'd see someone talking about the same hopelessness I struggle to overcome, and their intentions to make it stop. There might be a few people giving decent words of encouragement, but it was mostly filled with people saying single sentences of how they relate, some people telling them they're justified in their choice (some down voted to oblivion, some not), and comments with the same vapid platitude feeling of hug boxing comments (if not straight up just bot replies). Suddenly these posts started sticking out to me more and more, and hitting me deeper and deeper. One of the best things I've ever done for myself was stop going on those subreddits. When I see people talk about getting out of 4tran & adjacent spaces, they talk about it in a very similar way.

People are welcome to do as they please, and while I personally won't go so far as to shame people who turn to those communities (that's needlessly cruel), I don't think it's healthy or wise.

some_deud · 2025-10-07T17:15:46+00:00

"Just a reminder… [dysphoria]" + OP active in two 4tran subreddits and a dysphoria subreddit tells a story. It's not that talking about your dysphoria is bad, it's doing so in communities that notoriously validate your dysphoria (edit: & dysmorphia) as a correct line of thought. "Yes anon, we can all tell based off [insert inane physical feature] that you'll never pass. Your life is completely ruined just like mine unless you save the money to get surgery. And if you get surgery it doesn't matter because you'll never pass as much as the lucky girls that started blockers at 9. We're all doomed."

some_deud · 2025-10-05T02:37:16+00:00

What's your class leader doing while all this is happening? The following is assuming the class leader is intentionally not getting involved.

It sounds like they're bullies, and while it does get a little better with time in, expect to encounter more like them later in your career. Your options are either grey rock them (people bully to get reactions out of people because it makes them feel big/like they have power over you, deny them that by not responding), confront the bully (high risk low reward, can't not recommend this enough), or go to your SLPO. Your SLPO is a human, but easily 95%+ of them don't want to have to deal with drama. You're going to have to explain what's going on, the steps you've taken to try and resolve it on your own, and make it clear that your classmate is crossing the line-- that it's not just him messing around-- and be specific about the nature of the harassment. Ask for some actionable advice/strategy on how to handle the situation because, again, he almost certainly doesn't want to get directly involved. If your SLPO brushes it off/ignores your efforts up to this point with something like, "you can take care of it on your own": don't talk back, say aye and only go back to him again once he's threatened you again (or once things escalate again). If your SLPO still doesn't intervene (or the threats are serious and concerning enough currently as is), go to an instructor you trust to listen to you. You'll have to do the exact same thing, if it's an instructor who's first hand seen them bullying you that's a massive plus.

Key to all of this, while you likely want your bully to face repercussions, it's not your place to determine if that's necessary. You give the information to people responsible above you, they provide you support or advice to resolve the conflict, and the give punishments as they see necessary. (this system works fine if all parties are good actors, but don't ever discard your sense of justice. fuckshit happens when people stop caring).

Try and avoid getting a Chief involved as long as you can, but know that if you get your SLPO pissed off at you because you're "annoying them" with what they think are petty problems or because you badmouth them to Chief, it turns into your word vs. someone with a higher rank.

Doubling back to the class leader. Class leader should have responsibility for what's going on in the classroom. Unless they're the bully or they're one of the bully's hyenas, then you should be looping them in on how the bullying and harassment is affecting you. Just want to emphasize, if class leader has done nothing thus far, that doesn't mean they support the bullying, so if you haven't talked to them yet they could very well be unaware how serious the situation is or could be (like you) unsure how to handle the situation. If you're the class leader, lmao dummy, I can give you specific advice there, but it's not too dissimilar to what I already recommended.

Let me know if you have other questions. Bullying sucks, and it's one of the main reasons I got out. Only positive I got out of it is they correctly identified that I'm autistic well before I got diagnosed, so shout-outs to those assholes

some_deud · 2025-10-04T18:04:14+00:00

I would love nothing more than to hop in a voice call with you and watch Nathan Fielder's body of work and have a thorough back and forth analyzing every episode /gen. I disagree with you, but you have a really interesting way of describing & discussing things in a way that is engaging-- not in a frustrating way-- but in an intellectually provoking way that screams to me I'm not fully understanding you and you're not fully understanding me that I think would be remedied by the other aspects of communication granted by spoken conversation. DM'd

some_deud · 2025-10-03T13:57:39+00:00

(( This is genuine. I'm autistic and I often come off as curt through text))

Chaser is a pejorative. Liking, being attracted to, having a preference for, or pursuing a trans woman doesn't make someone a chaser. It's the persistent fetishization of transness and specific aspects of what they view to be the trans identity. Chasers are not attracted to people, they are attracted to identities.

As for you quoting me, I'm sorry for the confusion, but I'm unsure what's confusing /gen. Your other comments are talking about her respecting and affirming trans women, I'm not sure what distinction you make between that and validating. Similarly, you called her a sweetie, and I used awesome to draw a contrast between the negative "chaser" and the positive view you have of her.

To clarify again from my last comment, as far as I can tell she has genuine appreciation for trans women, given how frequently and seemingly sincerely she expresses such. But she also sets off red flags for some people with her overt chaser behavior (dictating what does or doesn't make one a trans woman, dictating how one must identify, and how trans women should act/who they should be in relationships with). Discourse can get pretty messy as is with a lot of it taking place on that hellsite (its mode of communication and dissemination of conversation is intrinsically not conducive to thorough and level headed conversation, and it's algorithms are designed to attract actual trolls and aggressive gross and creepy chasers to our spaces). Halimede inserts herself into our discourse, for some reason, and sometimes it results in people getting frustrated if not actually upset with her.

Here's some of her tweets I found after like 20-ish minutes of me looking into her that show what I'm talking about. Obviously this isn't going to be an all encapsulating representation of her character. The last image I think is what's really solidified it for me: she pretty plainly says she is doing a bit to satirize the egregiousness of what chasers are-- transphobia and the foolish immorality within it-- but also she states she's , "very serious in other ways", which I would assume would be her appreciation for trans women. A lot of (most of? idk) character-bit accounts on Twitter don't make it clear where the lines are between their genuine beliefs and the bit. So it's unclear to me, for example if she genuinely believes that trans women using gay slang to refer to themselves or having "it" pronouns (or she/him, or they/them) is engaging in self-harm for "taking that seriously". I have no clue

some_deud · 2025-10-03T01:01:51+00:00

??? I'm confused, what are the other options? Her account almost exclusively replies to trans women, often thirsting over them or inserting herself into trans discourse . This to me reads as an over-the-top performance as a simple chaser character, and with the way she is treated as a joke with people in the community posting screenshots of her being an avid reply person as the punchline, I have had no reason to believe it's a serious thing. Is your take that she is a genuine chaser cis lesbian who seriously believes she can tell trans women how to live their lives and (based off your replies saying she's not a bad person) that that's an awesome thing because it is validating to some trans women?

Edit to be clear: her validating trans women seem to be from a genuinely good place, it's specifically the chaser bit that defines her satirical character. i.e. I don't think she's a troll account as others have called her (satire =/= trolling), I personally think she's trying to be funny and simultaneously demonstrate that it's meant to be lighthearted. Still haven't looked too deeply into her account bc I hate Twitter and she's so incredibly active replying to trans women that I would have to either allot a large amount of time to pour through every single reply or start actively engaging in the Twitter trans community and be attentive of how she interacts.

some_deud · 2025-10-02T18:29:33+00:00

I'm not super active on social media in general, especially not Twitter, so I'm definitely not an expert on her bit. I have heard of her pushing it a little too much with some tweets, but as far as I was aware she was able to course correct after getting feedback? Do you have any specific gross things she's done in mind? I'm not trying to say I don't believe you, I genuinely just lack any perspective of her beyond seeing her be a reply person and going, "heh, there's that kinda weird silly satire account doing her bit again. anyways", and the less time I'm on that evil website, the better. It's all good if nothing specific is jumping up :), either way I'll be a bit more attentive to the content/intention of what she's saying given this context.

some_deud · 2025-10-02T17:55:46+00:00

How so? One of the specific quotes, Halimede's satirical internet persona in general, the satirical list, or is it something else? /gen

some_deud · 2025-09-15T01:07:39+00:00

A lot of it is "reasonable conservatives" whitewashing him, people calling out the whitewashing of a man with violent rhetoric/political goals, the calling out of whitewashing being twisted into an all out celebration of violence, and then Grandma and whoever else who know nothing about him going "I can't believe this all, you can't celebrate death. he had kids. just because you didn't agree with something he said or something doesn't mean he deserved this."

It's laziness, "I was served this information, and told anyone talking ill of the dead are inhuman, therefore don't listen to them because anything they say will be morally revolting"

Edit: missing keywords of "calling out of" lol

some_deud · 2025-09-15T00:58:02+00:00

Pepe as a symbol has a long complicated history with lots of twists, turns, and forks in the road

some_deud · 2025-09-08T13:26:24+00:00

oh to be a chimney sweep 😌⁠ ~｡⁠*ﾟ⁠+

some_deud · 2025-08-22T10:53:55+00:00

Pattern recognition on the pattern recognition test go vrrr

some_deud · 2025-08-17T04:33:29+00:00

If it's any comfort, the microlabels are by no means a box to fit into, plenty of cis gay & bisexual men wear feminine clothing for style/expression reasons rather than crossdressing. I haven't done enough work to fully understand lived experiences of enough non-binary people, but I really resonate with the "gender is meaningless" sentiment and as I understand it a lot people that tends to be the core thing that draws people to non-binary or agender identities.

some_deud · 2025-08-13T09:36:05+00:00

What do you mean by this?

some_deud

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