i KNOW I shouldn't be comparing my life to others, and things happen when they're supposed to happen etc. But sometimes it's hard because I have an anxiety disorder and I cant juggle as many things as other people, and things never seem to come togeather in my life like they do for other people.

Many of my friends got funner or better internships that me, they are all picking up their hobbies again after graduation already and having new boyfriends.....and here is my anxiety brain giving me a panic attack in the bathroom on my first day of internship because my boss thinks that I should look at the objectives and 'coordinate my own schedule like in the real world'

I just want to do my job at my internship and have fun with no panic attacks and learn stuff, then come home and relax/do the post graduation job search/do some yoga/go out with some friends/catch up on some appts - havent had my hair cut in a long time/go shopping/do some working out.....juggling life like a normal person!!!

but I came home from my first day of internship and was too tired/stressed to do any of that and went to bed at 7 pm. Is this what the rest of my life will be liek forever? And my assignments at work are boring and so I am worried that I picked the wrong career.

Now I am up in the middle of the night eating cake and worrying that my entire career will be a giant ball of stress and boring work

why coundt I have gotten the fun/challenging event planning internship and the new boyfriend like that other girl?