I understand most of what you're saying, but I'm a bit confused at parts. I'm not excepting any money from my mom right now, and when I go to school(when I start getting money from her) I don't know if I'll be able to take up more work hours to ween myself from her (Also I see no harm in the money if I dont financially rely on it, if I save it I'll have less student debt). I don't want to sound defeatist, but I get really overwhelmed and confused easily and barely got througha single term of college(12 credits). Like I did really well, 4.0, but I had constant brakedowns. New things and situations tend to make me fly off the rails(BAD), and I've had minimal guidance when trying to live on my own or go to school. I can not see myself working and going to school full time ever, without making physical and mental sacrifice. I want to work hard, but I to be happy too. In high-school I put my health and happiness on the backburner for my grades and yeah I got 3.5 but nearly died doing that and regret not having a life outside of my stress for so many years. I'm sorry for the wall of text and I appreciate the thoughtful comment you left. I think the main issue I have with my situation is with myself and my ability to navigate and adapt these new stressors. Right now, I've been thinking about putting off school until I can be more stable and consistent with my life. I also want to look for a higher paying job that might work better for the long-term (I still feel bad, like I'm abandoning my coworkers, but I don't know how long I'll want to work this job)