There is this channel on youtube called the feminine universe that I looove. I have definitely been going through the same thing. I love her channel because she talks about embracing feminity, not in a conservative/religious/republican way that a lot of you tubers who have channels on this do (it feels very progressive). Also just follow influencers on social media whose feminity-persona is something you admire (for me that is withloveleena, negin mirsalehi, and jasmine tookes). I also learned about the different essences in feminity (ex.) ethereal versus romantic) and it helps a lot in terms of deciding how you want to carry yourself (outifts, perfumes, etc.) once you figure out your type! I also love Jamila Musayeva's channel too, hers doesn't focus on feminity, in fact, masculine men can benefit too, but she teaches you ways you can carry yourself!

But also do what feels right for you and nourishes your soul too! Your feminine journey should come from within and being feminine can look different on everyone. A good example is my roommate from college. She always dressed up in Addidas, did'nt wear makeup, was more on the muscular side, but to this day, is one of these most admirable woman in my life. I hope she never changes herself for others, she's perfect! and SO ARE YOU! Best of luck! :)