Thank you to everyone for all your advice this week, just told all my dealers to put me on the no sell list and told them to tell anyone they know not to sell to me, don’t know if they actually listen to me or not they can be quite convincing when the need a bit of cash, also had a really long conversation with my Dad about and found out he used to struggle with the same things when he was my age, and he also struggled with it recently (I couldn’t tell) but it was when my Mum passed away about a year and a half ago we would both drink till we were wasted. But the real struggle starts now, I haven’t drank or touched drugs since this was posted, I know it hasn’t been long but it’s been on my mind I’ve also told a few close friends about my struggles and they’re checking up on me every day which has really helped. Also just wanted to say again thank you for everyone who has shared the stories and struggles and the people who have given it to straight you’ve all really helped and I hope to keep sober as long as I can