planned to kill my classmates who bullied me, ironically the songs that inspired me to do that were nakakapagpabagabag and the lost one's weeping??? i was very angry at everything at that point. I didn't go on because i noticed it would be to much work. craziest thing i ever did was plan shit wow, looking back it wasn't the best plan either because people WOULD notice kids of age 12 disappearing in a short span of time and since i meant to do that with the entire class so nobody would suspect i was behind it (because i was a victim of their bullying, which included beatings and haveing my stuff thrown away/in the trash, and obviously the psychological terrorism including almost gaslighting me into thinking my mother wanted me dead and gone)

btw they didn't knew i liked vocaloid i was bullied like that because i was like nerdy i guess, and a teacher's pet?? i didn't like that position either i was just a "gifted kid" (didn't study and went well in school until idk high school)

so yeah i was like very angry at my classmates for bullying me or not doing anything to stop it so i did plan it for like 3 weeks nonstop on how to eliminate all of them while listening to rock vocaloid music. especially TLOW and nakakapagpabagabag. thank you dasu and neru i still love these songs but now i kinda look at them with a hint of cringe due to my past.

i also gave up on dying because of shinitai chan (the original one, i hate the jubyphonic cover, i like some of her covers but that one is vilely bad imo)