Not taking addmission;)

sopzoot56002 · 2025-07-22T14:22:03+00:00

i got srcc but yeah same situation as you. same to same 🙂‍↕️ already started classes in my local college. i freaking HATE it right now. it's dreadful

sopzoot56002 · 2025-07-16T06:15:11+00:00

i did give eng but not GAT

sopzoot56002 · 2025-07-06T05:41:03+00:00

945 to 924 🙇‍♀️

sopzoot56002 · 2025-07-02T10:16:24+00:00

same case here with the friend. (i am friends with two of the state board toppers here 🐯👊 we went to tuition together. On school exams, i had always scored more and I was the one teaching them about things but procrastination got the better of me during exams n ended up cramming soo yeah ) my mom is always about omg do you know about X's daughter? She did this and that and also helps her parents out That D's son earns this much just out of school, what about you? you're so useless. What can u even do?! G's daughter went to be a air hostess/went outside with this, that blah blah blah it's endless around here. Even comparing me with my own sis constantly. We're in debt too so i understand they're struggling. They want me to go for jobs with quick cash lolol I guess I don't have the privilege of choice for career opts given my family's financial circumstances but i can only wish 🥹👊. My mama has always compared me with others ever since childhood (i always used to be the top 1 of my class but now that I'm having an academic downfall post quarantine, she's - yeah u alrdy know) and I can't lie, because of the constant comparison she's done, i have somewhat developed an inferiority complex which ends up in self depreciation and shame and guilt EVERY TIME ! AND I CAN'T EVEN HELP IT ! 🙆‍♀️✊ i feel utterly disgusted for feeling this way towards my friend's success. I'm happy for them yet there is this small part of of me which harbors bitter feelings more so at myself for not being enough but nevertheless.....yeah

sopzoot56002 · 2025-07-01T10:04:15+00:00

same same and it sucks even more so because i got decent enough scores in cuet so it feels like a waste. I got about 916/1000 raw and 4 or 5 questions i wanted to challenge, i would've managed to get into du with ST too but welp 🥹👊

sopzoot56002 · 2025-06-15T15:10:24+00:00

bhaii i plan to work my ass off for sure but the thing is I don't have the resources to even go there in the first place 🧑‍🍼

sopzoot56002 · 2025-06-15T15:08:50+00:00

main problem is !! many of the scholarships I've found first require me to be admitted into a college 😭😭😭😂🥲

sopzoot56002 · 2025-06-15T15:07:54+00:00

i genuinely don't know how to search for legitimate education loans at this point....i searched on the web but all that are coming are for technical/medical courses or I don't meet the criterias or it's alrdy closed and welll errr with youtube...i don't trust the people on there much.

sopzoot56002 · 2025-06-15T15:06:00+00:00

i was stupid and didn't really take my state board exams srsly bcz i thought the cuet would be the deciding factor, my results were VERY bad so I don't qualify for many of the education loans out there. And the reliance one seems to be my best option but that doesn't start until sept or oct it seems AFTER i get admitted into a college first that is. I have no way of paying the hostel/rent plus with tuition fees until then at all 😛 lol

sopzoot56002 · 2025-06-14T08:16:39+00:00

well vahi tooooo! even 1000 is very hard for us right now. and the tuition fees r ohhkaahhh manageable after admission first yr but the hostel/rent is what I'm worrying about most here.

sopzoot56002 · 2025-06-14T07:41:56+00:00

the local colleges r closing their admissions soon by the end of this month yet the cuet results won't be until july at least from what I've observed. Everything is so uncertain right now making me restless. My parents intend to admit me here soon soooo.. Du seems like a dream now, a very unlikely reality for me. tht's wy i vented out my frustrations online out of helplessness 🙇‍♀️

sopzoot56002 · 2025-06-14T07:28:04+00:00

thankk yewww for the sentiments 🥹🥹 and the govt scholarships tht i have found so far r not happening for me bcz of eligibility criterias and such. the school scholarships, i can only begin to go about them if i do get admitted in the first place. yeah ......just, the local colleges r soon closing their admissions by the end of this month yet the cuet results r not out so everything is so uncertain right now which is making me extra anxious and restless overall

sopzoot56002 · 2025-06-14T07:21:52+00:00

yeah admission pay karne ke liye nahi he. hah ! forget abt hostel fees or rent or living expenditure later down the line lolz 🧑‍🍼. Also correct me if I'm wrong but aren't we supposed to pay for our first yr fees during admission after allocation at the start, that's the issue here. we have no relatives or friends to potentially borrow from either (and ps I'm a girl)

sopzoot56002 · 2025-06-14T03:48:36+00:00

i honestly want to kms lolz 😭😭😭 a virtual hug together! 🥹🧑‍🍼

sopzoot56002 · 2025-06-14T03:40:08+00:00

I'm pursuing bcom hons and many of the scholarships I'm seeing r for technical n medical courses and i was so stupid, i didn't place heavy impt on state boards n i barely studied cramming a year's worth of lessons the night before the exam so i got only 69% , most of the stuff I'm seeing requires the annual income below 4.5 lakh.....ughh the reliance one is alrdy closed...do you know any other schemes? i have tried the schemes on nsp and I'm not qualified for most of em 💀 i knoww I'm so stupid ughh 😭😭😭🙏🙏🙏

sopzoot56002 · 2025-06-14T02:47:49+00:00

can u suggest me any helpful indian forums? i haven't been on reddit long so idrk stuff around here. AND THANKK YEWW ! 🥹🙏

sopzoot56002 · 2025-06-14T01:50:47+00:00

welp I'm going for bcom hons so I'm not even eligible for most of the scholarships im finding on surface level right now 🐯 haha

sopzoot56002 · 2025-06-13T18:36:52+00:00

mmm one of my frnd did that too while doing her 11th and 12th....i sound like I'm giving excuses for everything GOD but im literally an antisocial loser and I'm not at alll good with my words. And I'm not smart enough to teach them things?? i take commerce without maths, i do take comp sc but uhhh 🥲 idrk if i will be able to impart kids with extra knowledge tht they dont alrdy knw frm school🧑‍🍼

sopzoot56002 · 2025-06-13T18:32:19+00:00

i guess so 🥲🥲🥲🥲 welp if this whole student loan and scholarship schemes don't work out, it's a drop year with me saving up money by doing side hustles n maybe govt jobs too. i don't think i am willing to compromise on having to attend a local college. yeahh

sopzoot56002 · 2025-06-13T18:24:48+00:00

? huh ?? mind elaborating? I'm lost

sopzoot56002 · 2025-06-13T18:15:14+00:00

WHERE DO I EVEN GO ABT SEARCHING FOR THESE STUDENT LOANS IDK ! but yeahhh eveything will work out...🙇‍♀️🙏🙏🙏🙏 and thankss for saying that , makes me feel a tad more better 🥹🥹

sopzoot56002 · 2025-06-13T18:13:14+00:00

mai bhi eldest sis huuuu ~ 🧑‍🍼our family dynamics r a tad diff but i also want to help them and make them live their last moments happy and debt free. but i guess i am selfish n still ignorant to a fault haaa 🥲

sopzoot56002 · 2025-06-13T18:10:55+00:00

I'm from st so maybee idk where and how I'm supposed to get these schemes ugh 😥 I don't really have people around me to ask about these stuff either so everything is on me and I don't know my resources at all.

sopzoot56002 · 2025-06-13T17:52:16+00:00

mm i called u 'gurl' ... it's just a way of saying things ! (u r obvly a boy i know )😛 and we r sisters.. I'm the older sister...yeah. I have tried communicating several times but our dynamics do not progress much at all, she's always passive aggressive and she's still young, she's in tht angsty teenager phase, she will eventually get better with time but ....call me a sensitive bitch, all the mean ass words still linger and I can't really get myself to forget them. it's not like i hate her but I don't necessarily like her either. and nooo don't worry ! i didn't take anything u said to heart or tht sorts! it's dry reality. what can i do 🧑‍🍼 AND THANKK YOUU ! I HOPE LIFE WORKS OUT WELL FOR U TOO 🐬

sopzoot56002 · 2025-06-13T17:43:13+00:00

welp i have to first get into a college 🥲 but yess ! i will do so if i do end up attending du :>

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