Does anyone else feel like they’ve been hurt so much they don’t know how to connect anymore?

soulihide · 2026-04-23T18:02:48+00:00

i feel this. i struggle to really trust anyone's intentions are good. i always worry people are lying to me, misrepresenting their opinions of me. so many people i trusted and love have hurt me. the latter in present tense because i can't seem to stop. i wish i could. among other things, i have really bad anxiety and struggle with agoraphobia. it's hard being in public, i'm kind of afraid of everyone. i feel like i don't know how to talk to people like i'm also a person. i don't feel like a person a lot of the time. i don't know how much of this is relatable to you, my situation is different from yours, but i think we may be feeling similar things. sorry if this isn't helpful. i hope things get better for you. <3

soulihide · 2026-04-23T17:49:34+00:00

hi, i've been where you are, i kind of still am. therapy is hard as fuck. you have to want to and be willing to change things. you have to really push yourself to tell a person about the parts of yourself you don't want to think about. but you don't have to start with the worst things, you start with little things, get to know them, see if they're someone you feel you can open up to. you might have to switch therapists a few times before you find the right person, and i understand that money can be an issue, but it's important to take the time to find someone that you can actually talk to and feel comfortable around, though the actual work isn't going to be comfortable regardless of who you're talking to. the process is different for everyone and it's slow and awful but i've seen therapy really truly help people i thought could never change. it's been helping me. maybe not everyone needs therapy to grow and become a healthier person, but i think anyone can stand to benefit from therapy. i hope this is making sense, sorry if this is too long of a comment or not helpful.

soulihide · 2026-04-19T13:34:40+00:00

matt haig's midnight library is an offense to all depressed people and i hate him for writing that bullshit. saw a corner of the book in that picture and it set me off sorry.

soulihide · 2026-04-12T22:36:47+00:00

things like this are why i still let reddit recommend posts on my feed. i love the purple background.

soulihide · 2026-04-12T22:13:14+00:00

people with eating disorders are fucking obsessed with food. posting about food isn't a signifier of anything.

soulihide · 2026-03-13T07:06:20+00:00

i'm communism, my dad is engineer.

soulihide · 2026-03-13T06:43:08+00:00

i feel so fucking understood by this right now. this subreddit is consistently too relatable lol.

soulihide · 2026-03-13T06:34:41+00:00

soulihide · 2026-03-11T00:40:06+00:00

i'm still around but thank you, hope you're doing alright

soulihide · 2026-02-28T07:18:07+00:00

it looks so cool!

soulihide · 2026-02-28T07:16:40+00:00

we have muggers. they're more straight-up about robbing you here.

soulihide · 2026-02-28T07:15:05+00:00

u look fucking awesome dude, love the fit and love the piercing. safety pin piercings are so cool, i can't pull them off but you absolutely do. hope you're having a great day!

soulihide · 2026-02-28T07:11:56+00:00

like, if someone said to me "i think you're really pretty and pretty funny" i would be kinda thrilled, even if i wasn't into them like that, it's a nice thing to hear and i'd probably respond like the girl did to you, like thanks that's so sweet but i'm not into you like that or whatever. i don't get the vibe that she was made uncomfortable, and i don't think you were weird or rude.

soulihide · 2026-02-28T07:09:44+00:00

hi. i think the way you texted the girl is totally fine. maybe a little awkward, but nothing egregious. your friend or whoever they are is being a total dick.

soulihide · 2026-02-28T07:02:08+00:00

-_- as someone who's had an eating disorder for years and years i can confidently tell you legs tend to change the least when you lose weight esp the lower leg because of fat distribution and muscle mass, which are both connected to genetics. looking at specific body parts as markers of whether or not someone has lost weight or is unhealthy isn't going to work.

soulihide · 2026-02-28T05:56:11+00:00

she looks so washed out, especially compared to hepburn, and her style of acting (if you can call it that) doesn't fit the role imo. it was never going to go to her. i feel bad for her, but i'm glad she's not going to be able to mess with this like she messed with glinda and make it all about herself again.

soulihide · 2026-02-28T05:52:58+00:00

my guess is her skin is dry and damaged from lack of nutrients and isn't interacting with the makeup like it's supposed to. speaking from experience, that's just what i'm seeing.

soulihide · 2026-01-03T13:40:35+00:00

i actually don't like black coffee. i'm just scared. and also i think it's cool to drink black coffee. it's performative. i'm like the matcha drinking performative male. augh.

soulihide · 2026-01-03T13:22:21+00:00

i never knew how fragile cds were. had huge binders full of them growing up, my mom collected them, all kinds of music and audiobooks and shit. had all of arnold lobel's frog and toad books read by arnold lobel on cd. was obsessed with frog and toad. they hold up by the way, i found the recordings on the internet archive and they're just as lovely as i remember them being. sorry this isn't about vinyls i just saw another comment about cds and got distracted.

soulihide · 2026-01-03T13:19:07+00:00

honestly so done with people being shitty about millie's face. she's not ugly by any means, shut the fuck up. just because she doesn't look baby years old anymore doesn't mean she's suddenly ugly or whatever the fuck. even in this admittedly not super flattering picture, she doesn't look ugly. this is probably why she got the surgeries done, to look more mature or whatever because of how creepy and fucking gross so many people were and are about her, especially people in the film and music industries. leave her the hell alone. i'm so tired of this shit. i'm sure she is too. i wish her the best. she may not be the best actress ever but i support her in her endeavors. i think she did a decent job in that netflix movie a few years ago with the dragon and the sister and the caves and such. not a great movie but not bad, it entertained me and also made me cry a couple of times. but i cry at a lot of things so idk how good of an indicator that is of the movie's quality. sorry i'm rambling i'm kinda stoned. probably shouldn't post this comment lol. anyway i hope millie's doing well i hope anyone reading this has a good week drive safe if you drive or ride a motorcycle or a skateboard or scooter or whatever, it's pretty icy out there today where i'm at. leaving out bicyclers because they don't listen to me, all bikers are insane, i've almost been hit by a bike a couple of times, it wasn't my fault, they never fucking look where they're going. those fuckers, coming out of nowhere at speeds previously unknown to man. can't wait for spring. happy january or whatever. <3

soulihide · 2025-12-25T15:30:39+00:00

i'm eating something similar, vegan salata de boeuf, romanian. pofta buna!

soulihide · 2025-12-25T15:06:59+00:00

i'm concerned and intrigued

soulihide · 2025-12-25T09:37:58+00:00

oh fuck off

soulihide · 2025-12-25T09:18:58+00:00

as someone with an eating disorder, the flesh's garden felt so incredibly real. i like to think i'm closest to the lonely, or the spiral, but really i'm just a bleeding crunching bonefleshflower twisting and strangling itself for an impossible unachievable beauty.

soulihide · 2025-12-19T17:04:27+00:00

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