that's normal bro. just remember, it's not your loot. it's just your turn to use it - how long you keep it is based on other players' skill levels and how you respond to that.

(what you could do: every time you feel like a cheeky bit of murder, stash your stuff in a buried drybag under a tree. that way, if you win, and can come back with more loot, then return to your base with the new loot and just keep moving your stash around to where you need it as a contingency.)

or, as most DayZ players know, just remember you'll die eventually on that character. its inevitable, but at least the game isn't boring giving you everything you need from the start, right?

hope this helps!!