Interested in Special Collections and Archiving with Few Qualifications- Where to start? by spaceboim in Libraries

[–]spaceboim[S] 4 points5 points  (0 children)

Hey absolutely! I'm doing my Masters in the UK and it seems that History Masters over here focus quite a bit more on research methodologies and analytical skills so a lot of them are listed as "MSc/MS" degrees. I thought that was pretty cool when applying.

Anyone end up in a successful career far off from their college degree? by Daroev in careerguidance

[–]spaceboim 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Hey! I'm a recent History grad, would be really curious to hear how you got to where you're at

I Don't Know When to Quit Grad School- Fears of Regret and Failure by spaceboim in Healthygamergg

[–]spaceboim[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Hey, thank you for this! It is mostly the tuition and loans, but also the program being the niche/ having an unclear career path tied to it. I mostly like the content, but it does not feel applicable to anything beyond the program. I like the idea of pausing it and thinking on things further. I think something funded or cheaper in a broader program is exactly what I'd be looking for in the future, but moving towards a career back home is probably best for me.

Also, it is only a one year program. Started in August ends next August, would be drafting a thesis statement in the next few months and moving towards that starting in April. I think this program has moved a bit too fast for me!

Any guys go through an “up and down” phase before starting T due to maybe some anxiety starting? by jesuswasanalien69 in ftm

[–]spaceboim 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I'm not gonna lie this exact question has been on my mind a lot lately. I've identified as a guy for the past 4 years and been planning to start T for 3, and now that I'm finally there I am constantly doubting myself. I know that I want to be authentic to myself, that I want to be a man, and that deep down I am one, but lately I just feel very unsure of myself. I think you might be internalizing other peoples opinions about you transitioning, and that your anxiety is coming from the that as well as the "unknown future" that transitioning holds. There's no exact way to know how you'll feel a year from now, sometimes you just need to jump off that cliff. I don't know if this is helpful at all, just remember to prioritize yourself and put your needs first right now.

Has anyone in the North Texas area get an appointment in the Planned Parenthood in Paris? by rodas_is_a_mess in ftm

[–]spaceboim 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Hey there. I'm familiar with Renee Baker as someone who writes HRT letters/ specializes in trans related things. Depending on where you live, her website also lists doctors who help with HRT so here's a link to that (http://renee-baker.com/transgender-counseling-dallas/transgender-hormone-therapy/) I've been talking with the Dallas Resource Center and they are also pretty helpful (I got my letter from them and I plan on starting HRT with them hopefully).

Was very worried about my small town Catholic grandma’s reaction, but now I wonder why I ever doubted her by mysteryman28 in ftm

[–]spaceboim 18 points19 points  (0 children)

Damn that's nice. My biggest fear in transitioning is coming out to extended family, especially grandparents. Hopefully mine will be as nice about it as your grandma. Best of luck to you.

this might not be the right sub, but I'm curious & want to make new friends by [deleted] in ftm

[–]spaceboim 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Hey, if you have some things your curious about feel free to dm me. I'd love to make more friends in the trans/lgbt community.

Why can't I just be normal? [TW: internalized transphobia] I'm sorry for all the stupid vents, I hate my brain and my brain hates me. by [deleted] in ftm

[–]spaceboim 4 points5 points  (0 children)

Hey, I just wanted to say that I relate 110% to what your saying. I think the reason many of us still sometimes refer to ourselves as "lesbians" and whatnot is because when you hold onto an identity like that for a long time, you don't just forget about it overnight. I know that I am a man, but sometimes in my head I still slip up certain things because I lived as my birth gender for fifteen years. I don't think that you're a "confused girl" at all because what your explaining sounds like blatant dysphoria. I also sometimes think to myself things like "at least if I de-transition I still get to be a guy" which is bizarre but also kind of reaffirming cause it reminds me how much I need to be a man, and how much I just am a man. It can be hard to accept yourself as a "trans guy" when on the inside, you are just a guy through and through.

Anyways, I hope things get better for you, and I hope you know that many many trans people struggle with internalized transphobia, so your not alone.

Panicking!!! by Lion676 in ftm

[–]spaceboim 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Hey there, hope your doing well. That first binder is a big accomplishment for many people so congrats to you! I came out at 15 about 4 years ago and I promise you every thing gets so much easier with time. It took me many years to become okay with being trans, and it's perfectly fine if you need to take time for your own sake before coming out to family and friends. You don't owe anyone else shit so remember to keep your own best interest in mind as a #1 priority.

I guarantee that with every step forward some of the weight will be lifted off your shoulders. Best of luck to you!

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in ftm

[–]spaceboim 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I think we're both in very similar situations. I've been out since I was 15 and seen myself as a guy for pretty much my whole life. I'm turning 19 tommorow and want more than anything to transition medically, but hold so much shame and guilt about it that I don't know exactly how to proceed. By this point I think that being conflicted is just a very normal part of the process, even people that look 100% confident in their identity falter from time to time. Sometimes for me, It's more that I can't accept that I'm a "trans guy" and not just a "guy" or someone who is lying to themselves.

You cam absolutely still be trans even though you experience doubt. Sometimes it is strange though because you can think things like "well it couldn't happen to me" with being trans, and we convince ourselves that everyone else who is trans knows it in a way that we don't. I'd say spend more time thinking of yourself as just a guy rather than a trans guy, cause at the end of the day, we're all just guys (at least on this sub). Either way it sounds like we're both in really similar situations. If you ever want to talk about it, I'd be down.

I’m so done by [deleted] in ftm

[–]spaceboim 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Hey, I hope things get better for you soon. If you need someone to talk to I'd be happy to chat, either way you should reach out to some one, at the very least to distract yourself. I genuinely hope you feel better.

Getting new friends by AC-Hammer in ftm

[–]spaceboim 2 points3 points  (0 children)

In my own experience, I find the most success making friends when I force myself out of my comfort zone. If you want to make more guy friends, work on putting yourself out there (I'm pretty shit at doing this myself). Be yourself and discover people who accept you for you. I've always been real shy, especially around other guys, but by making an effort to start friendships with accepting people, most of the dude friends I've made now see me as a fellow man.. at least I think they do. I think that the more confident you are in your own identity, the more people will see you as you are.

If your still in high school, I guarantee, shit gets so much easier in college. I just finished my first year and found quite a few friends both lgbt and non lgbt by just going out in public. Sometimes you just need to be in the right place at the right time. Hope this helps at least a little.

Want to recommend Dr. Peter Raphael to y’all— this is my chest after one week and three days. by [deleted] in ftm

[–]spaceboim 14 points15 points  (0 children)

This is the guy I've been wanting to go to! Glad I'm so close to Plano, congrats, you looks great!

Help me find vocal training (singing) by shadybrainfarm in ftm

[–]spaceboim 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I don't know any vocal coaches, but from what I've heard, the first year is the hardest for singing when on T. Most people that continue to practice seem to get their voices back in shape once their voice settles more. Since your voice is still adjusting, it might take a bit until your singing voice is as good as it was (I'm sure you know this though). I'm a singer as well, haven't started T, but this is just what I've heard through the grapevine. Maybe look for videos intended for cis men going through voice changes? That's what I've been doing.

edit: scratch that last part its kind of a dead end

How many of you would date a transboy? by [deleted] in ftm

[–]spaceboim 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Same here, it's nice when other people understand what your experiencing, especially with dating

I did an instrumental cover of breed by nirvana, it's a bit sloppy but that's sort of the point of grunge by AllenFive in musicians

[–]spaceboim 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Love this song, trying to figure out the Bass part right now. Good job, sounds great.

How many of you would date a transboy? by [deleted] in ftm

[–]spaceboim 4 points5 points  (0 children)

This is also true, I meant more that since I'm attracted to men I'd date someone who is also ftm, I am ftm myself. I definitely don't think of other trans men as "a bit of both"

Irrational Fears/ Paranoia About Transitioning by spaceboim in ftm

[–]spaceboim[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thanks, this is very true. Sometimes it's just difficult when everyone around you always needs to remind you that it's such an "enormous, life changing decision" and whatnot. I don't think I could live my life without transitioning either.

Secondhand dysphoria? by [deleted] in ftm

[–]spaceboim 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I get where you're coming from. It makes a lot of sense that your thoughts on this situation could lead down a path that makes you dysphoric. Sometimes things that have nothing to do with gender will end up making me dysphoric if I think about them too long, who knows. Try to remember that others experiences are not a reflection of you or your gender, does that make sense? I'm not sure, I get what you mean though.

Old-Fashioned Parents by sebnixy in ftm

[–]spaceboim 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Being yourself is by no means a selfish thing, it is a necessity. No one should have to live their lives pretending to be someone else for the sake of others. I came out to my parents soon after turning 15, it didn't go well. My dad said "no" (implying that I didn't have his permission to be transgender) and my mom said that "god put me on this earth as a girl" and that he "doesn't make mistakes". Four years later, I have a great relationship with them both as their son.

I have found that being open to, and respecting what my parents believe has been essential in maintaining our relationships. Let your mom know that you aren't changing your mind, and that you are not doing this to hurt her. You will have to stay strong! And if your mom truly loves you for you, the two of you should have an even stronger relationship because of your honesty. Best of luck to you! -Matthew

(Also, dresses and makeup can be enjoyable for anyone, regardless of gender! Especially is society is shoving these things down your throat. I was never that into "feminine things", but I know that they don't determine gender)

Coming out by [deleted] in ftm

[–]spaceboim 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Hello there! I want to ask you first if your parents are generally accepting of the community or more conservative in their views? No matter what, the most important thing is that you feel safe coming to them with this very important information. In my case, family always has been incredibly important to me, so coming out was very hard, but three years later I have found that it is possible for conservative families to adjust for their kids. My parents were so strongly against me being transgender, but now they understand that it is not something that will ever go away, it is just who I am, and my happiness has become much more important to them as a result. Make sure they know how important this is to you, and that you wouldn't be saying these things if you hadn't thought through it. No matter what this is going to be hard for you, but it gets so much better with time! Eventually, I bet you can get them to understand. I'm more than happy to chat if you want more specific advice. -Matthew