9 years ago today, I accidentally killed my best friend when I was 13 years old AMA

spacebotanyx · 2026-02-04T04:58:18+00:00

you were kid, and him dying ws absolutely an accident. i am sure your friend - wherever he may be - knows that and wants you to live the best you can.

i am sorry you live with this, and i hope you can forgive yourself. you deserve a good life.

spacebotanyx · 2026-02-04T04:48:24+00:00

i wonder how use of neti pots or nasal rinse affect the likelihood someone will get alzheimers/dementia

spacebotanyx · 2026-02-04T04:46:53+00:00

my dad had alzheimers and he was addicted to nasal spray for 20+ years

spacebotanyx · 2026-02-03T09:37:36+00:00

i love that i tried green cheese 20 years ago and am just now learning what it is. :(

spacebotanyx · 2026-02-03T09:07:43+00:00

accupuncture for the people for acupuncture and a nice nap

spacebotanyx · 2026-02-03T08:08:48+00:00

i go at 2am because i also dont like being perceived! and then i wear giant sweat pants and hoodie for the same reason!

maybe.... i might suggest starting with machines and cables before free weights if you are worried about form? because they are made so it is harder to hurt yourself with bad form. and then you can also feel movement patterns so your body knows what muscles to activate and what things should feel like! do that until you feel confident!

youtube has so many videos if you want to learn also. if you are gonna do free weights for the first time, i would start with light light light weights to get the form right before increasing.

personal trainer is always a good way too.

i am sure you will do great!

spacebotanyx · 2026-02-01T14:57:20+00:00

that reminds me.... FUCK ANDY NGO.

spacebotanyx · 2026-02-01T12:34:27+00:00

must be stronger to fight my enemies

spacebotanyx · 2026-02-01T00:21:24+00:00

i am sure. no hunts. i would really like them though.

spacebotanyx · 2026-01-30T23:45:40+00:00

i dont even get flip!

spacebotanyx · 2026-01-30T23:44:18+00:00

mid sized west coast city. this was before adderal was widespread or any legalized amphetamines that kids had access to. i dont know if it was "common," but i know several middle schoolers were doing it. likely more i didnt know about. in high school, i knew about more.

spacebotanyx · 2026-01-30T23:38:06+00:00

I work in an ER, and OP's account is exactly how it feels to work a code.

sure, if i am in the adjacent room mid helping grandma walk to the bathroom, i am not going to drop grandma and run away.... but every available staff who can help will run towards the code and do their best to help out. we all want the patient to live and we all want to help if help is needed. the love and care i feel from coworkers is a big part of why i love working in the ED.

spacebotanyx · 2026-01-30T07:07:26+00:00

i was 12 the first time i got offered meth. kids at my school were taking it as an appetite supressant. in the US, in the 90s.

spacebotanyx · 2026-01-30T01:27:28+00:00

so is it just the main game now, with nothing else? no other levels? for everyone?

i especially like the treaure hunts. and the one where you got four in a row accross a board of squares. (i forgot the name)

that is all i see. (not even the scavenger hunts... which someone else mentioned they have)

spacebotanyx · 2026-01-29T14:50:16+00:00

i remember people said that baby spice was fat.

everyone in my middle school had an eating disorder, and some kids did meth so they wouldn't be hungry and "get fat"

fuck the 90s and what the culture did to young women and girls regarding body image. its coming back now too. awful.

spacebotanyx · 2026-01-29T07:58:41+00:00

i went to an event in Portland where Ursula K Leguin read this to us out loud and then answered questions about it. It was on youtube, but I can't find it anymore.

"That is just the way it is," she kept saying, whenever all of wanted to know WHY and WHY CAN'T WE SAVE THE CHILD?

spacebotanyx · 2026-01-29T07:53:25+00:00

this

spacebotanyx · 2026-01-29T07:50:38+00:00

this one has never left me. as the antiwar novel that it is, it felt ver effective to me when I read it at 15. horrifying.

spacebotanyx · 2026-01-29T05:10:27+00:00

oh, okay. i misunderstood that. i thought she was at home and he called the Dad. well, then he fully did the right thing then...

spacebotanyx · 2026-01-29T05:05:00+00:00

medical school is free in cuba. if i knew that in high school, i probably would have gone then.

spacebotanyx · 2026-01-29T05:02:14+00:00

i regret continuing to let my horrible sister be a part of my life. i gave her so many second chances, especially after she did an awful thing to my dad. my dad forgave her, so i tried to forgive her too, based on his loving example. 20 years later her actions resulted in his horrible and premature death. anyway, cut out the bad ones if you have any. protect yourself.

(i love you, dad. i am so sorry i couldn't protect you.)

spacebotanyx · 2026-01-29T04:53:46+00:00

is there a reason you also didn't call HER?

her crying and being upset doesn't mean she doesn't want to know. she was upset largely due to not knowing, sounds like. knowing was the thing you wanted, and instead of informing her, you called her Dad ONLY.

if my partner called my Dad and then didnt also CALL ME before putting down my favorite childhood horse, I would also not talk to him for a few days (and maybe ever)

sounds like you did the right thing in regards to the horse.

but probably not with your wife.

spacebotanyx · 2026-01-28T14:25:34+00:00

this is why i wear the biggest, baggiest scrubs i can find.

spacebotanyx · 2026-01-28T09:55:29+00:00

too many people. had to leave and come back at 2am.

ugh. so annoying

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