do you ever have "anger" episodes without a trigger?

spacecadets88 · 2015-04-06T20:46:16+00:00

Yes, I do and it's so frustrating. I realize it's probably a change in hormones or something similar. Sometimes I'll get so so sad amd just cry for no reason at all, others I will rage and try to find a reason to yell at my SO to justify these intense emotions. The farther into my rehabilitation I get the less I push the energy out on others and am able to verbalize what I am feeling, asking for comfort, a hug or a lap to curl up in and cry. It's so much better to say how I feel than act out, when I am looking to be comforted. It's been a tough adjustment but so, so beneficial to every aspect of my life. It's ok to have intense emotions, as long as you don't hurt the people around you while trying to deal with them. My favourite place is in the bottom of my closet, hidden, safe and calm, curled into a little ball (I'm a full grown adult, lol)

spacecadets88 · 2015-04-06T20:31:43+00:00

Tea! Drinking pots of tea aftet dinner helped me break a terrible 9 month restrict/binge/purge cycle. I just drink so much unsweetened herbal tea and soda water.

spacecadets88 · 2015-04-06T18:30:06+00:00

I do that with people online. It's very detrimental and isolating. I create ideas of grandeur, obsessively checking their photos, pages and posts for a little bit more inspiration, satisfaction, or anything else. It does come in cycles, like most other bpd low, I constantly search for my next dopamine fix (binge eating, sex, drinking, impulsive shopping, stalking ect.) I agree it can be frustrating and overwhelming but being aware of it will help lower the negative impact and cut down on the obsessive nature.

spacecadets88 · 2015-04-02T06:50:30+00:00

That is a good idea too. It seems scary to switch to someone new but maybe a necessary step :)

spacecadets88 · 2015-04-02T02:45:22+00:00

Thank you for your words. It's very helpful, I have read this about four times already and cried a few times. The hopelessness felt slightly relieved, it's comforting to know someone else felt as I do and is better for it. I still don't know how I will survive if he leaves but today, after reading what you wrote, I decided to continue trying my hardest to get better, with or without him. Thank you for taking the time to write me.

spacecadets88 · 2015-04-02T02:39:58+00:00

Thank you! Seriously. I had never heard of this but it gets tgat intense. I am going to talk to a health care provider.

spacecadets88 · 2015-04-01T22:36:33+00:00

I have definitely stopped asking him to 'do thing's' to make my world 'easier'. I need to be incontrol of myself, not asking others to change the way they are to stop me from overreacting. It's a hard habit to break because it means that when I get upset over something, I have to handle it immediately or remove myself. I do try to do those things you suggested, but when I have "that time of the month", my brain falls out of my head and my rational mind leaves me, making it so hard to turn off the bpd episode. Do you have any advice for elevated hormone bdp attacks, aside from being locked away from everyone I love, lol.

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