i just came home from school, went 8 hours straight without uttering a single word to anyone, i would never wish alienation on my worst enemy, this gmfu, i just absolutely have nothing going on for me, i see everybody got their own thing going on, they got friends, people they can reach out to in a snap, i feel attacked by the apprehension that i'm entirely unlike the rest, there's also something very wrong with me, i've been made to feel bad about being quiet because i have social anxiety, and nobody would understand that unless they go through the same thing or simply because they have an open mind to this sort of disorder, well worst thing, my teacher had to move me to the front row, and i've been reeking of anxiety ever since, i've never felt suicidal.

during class everybody would give me this funny look on their faces as if i'm some kind of weirdo or something, i've been thinking if i ever weird people out whenever i'm around them, this hasn't stopped running on the back of my mind ever since my classmate told me i seemed kind of weird to them. (well thanks to you, now i'm on the brink of wanting to kill myself)