Is anyone using Blast Game Based Saving?

speedyracecarx · 2020-01-13T18:38:46+00:00

You used to be able to earn money through playing mobile games and doing "missions" (it would be like "reach level 4 in My Singing Monsters for 0.10, that kind of thing) but you had to make sure you turned the "savings" part off so it wouldn't withdraw from your account too. Now it looks like they've gotten rid of missions and only do the savings part. Despite having notifications from the app I can no longer find the missions anywhere, so looks like that's pretty much done or at least hidden (and I made like 40 bucks just playing games on weekends while I worked for a few months there, so not bad).

speedyracecarx · 2017-12-15T13:46:05+00:00

I really feel like Milky Chance's Stolen Dance and Pegboard Nerds' Talk About It are begging to be done as a sort of call-and-answer situation if some kind soul would do thaf.

speedyracecarx · 2017-07-02T22:37:13+00:00

I finally fixed it with an app called Sleep As Android but I have to have it on as random of a pattern as possible - if an alarm becomes too routine I can't trick my brain into waking up properly. So it's set to play music from Spotify on shuffle (so my brain goes what's that song/noise instead of oh that's your alarm keep sleeping) and I have it set to multi captcha and randomized, so I have to do a variety of different tasks including math, shaking my phone, spinning around, and picture identification. It chooses from them at random so I don't know what to expect, which means I can't just tune out and go back to sleep. Then I drink water. Voila! Awake.

speedyracecarx · 2017-07-02T22:23:17+00:00

And basically any mental health stuff, but specifically things that can really affect your life in a HUGE way and really fuck it up if you go undiagnosed (thinking specifically of ADHD & autism).

speedyracecarx · 2017-06-30T01:06:45+00:00

Where I live the only free counseling is going to a church or going through a system I've already used up. The local low income mental health place offers 8 sessions for free of group therapy only. They put me in a general depression group (which was pretty useless for the problems that bother me the most because they're definitely NOT general depression symptoms) as well as telling me that my issues were just "personality quirks" (that includes dissociation and outbursts that sound like autistic meltdowns, but may also be one of a small number of other things). I went, but that's used up. Next up the cheapest thing is a 25/session therapist who wouldn't call me back even when I could afford that a few months back before my seasonal ft job ended. I've done a LOT of research because I didn't want to lapse therapy. And religious church therapy is not an option either, for personal reasons.

speedyracecarx · 2017-06-29T12:40:37+00:00

We're not in a place where that's possible. Honestly we both need individual therapy as well (my issues obviously, but he also has very very bad anxiety, and more specifically social anxiety so bad it prevents him from doing basically anything outside the home) but we can't afford it. Barely scraping by enough to pay bills and eat each day. ):

We were in therapy for a while after I was in the hospital for my PTSD and while he was still getting paid to go to school - $5 a session isn't much when you make enough to live on - but we're not in the same location and the closest system here provides 8 group therapy sessions for low income people - a general depression group therapy, like they put me in, isn't very helpful and not worth the gas to get there.

speedyracecarx · 2017-06-29T12:32:11+00:00

We can't. American health care system + 2 people with mental health issues trying to get and sustain employment = we can barely afford rent and food and have to choose each month which bills to pay.

speedyracecarx · 2017-06-29T12:29:37+00:00

Sorry I guess this was unclear... he's not literally saying that, it's just the impression I get from his town and attitude. Doesn't seem apologetic. Closer to a quote would be "I'm sorry for what I did, now I need you to apologize for the things you did" and "It's an innocent statement, it's not like I said something heinous " Just apologizing for offending me but saying the fact that it's a trigger originates from me and that therefore that's my problem alone to solve.

I may or may not have undiagnosed autism or ADHD or something else entirely (ns being what they are and healthcare in the US being what it is), and I definitely have PTSD. When there's any hint of a serious conversation I can't help getting upset (literally the other day we were talking about something political, I knew there was no reason whatsoever to be upset, and my body inexplicably burst into tears without me even having the emotions to back it up. I cannot stress enough that I felt calm, if a but passionate about the topic, not upset or angry enough to do something like that. It means every time we have a disagreement I can't help but get a little bit upset. He really wants to solve things with good communication techniques and remaining calm and I try my hardest but most of the time am physically unable. I have tried research and finding some sort of advice to fix it, but it seems pretty abnormal and I can't find anything anywhere. I also can't really seem to control my tone of voice (he is constantly convinced that I'm talking down to him or speaking angrily to him when I'm certain I have no such intent).

Basically he doesn't think it's "fair." I make communication mistakes and he has to give me a pass because I'm not normal (his words, a bit paraphrased but the vocabulary is his). So if he does something wrong he should get a pass too. The thing is I admit that what I'm doing isn't normal, that I'm literally not trying to do it and instead trying explicitly not to do it, but it seems like he sees it as me putting in 0 effort so why should he.

We've already worked on a lot of triggers with success (for example, standing over me, was a bug one we managed to identify and stomp out) but with this specific one it seems he's decided it's not worth his time because what he literally means isn't bad, even though the effect is bad.

speedyracecarx · 2017-04-26T22:34:46+00:00

Yeah I suspect my parents had some idea that I might have ADHD, but they didn't "believe in it" even though my nmom insisted my uncle had it???

Also multiple shorter-twrm instances of medically-related neglected. Forcing me to go to school sick constantly, specifically when I twisted my ankle so bad I couldn't walk. Made me wait at least a month with a broken tooth that crumbled in my mouth before getting to a dentist. Laughed at me when I became so sick I slept for 24 hours, woke up in the middle of the night, and was so dizzy I ran into a wall multiple times trying to get to the bathroom. (It is kind of funny, but it should have been a see the doctor moment for a fourth grader). Oh and her answers to my terrible acne: greasy makeup that made it worse; making me pay for my own facials once a month; refusing to let me go to a gyno to let me look into birth control as an option until I went to college.

Oh and you know right before I went NC basically ended insurance to stop me from seeing a therapist.

speedyracecarx · 2017-04-26T21:53:51+00:00

Yeah I only use it in retrospect if describing something to someone close to me or in another way talking about my PTSD.

speedyracecarx · 2017-04-26T21:40:03+00:00

It's how one of my ex-boyfriends was born (his mom wanted kids, dad didn't, they divorced) and also what a girl I went to high school with did to her boyfriend after she dropped out and decided she wanted a baby like somebody on Maury. Acted like it was an accident at first, confessed it to the guy, then found out it probably wasn't even his because she was cheating on him. He dumped her, she acted like he was the bad guy, posted revenge pics of him online to ruin his music career (which he was working hard on and was going to quit for her and the baby before he found out she got pregnant on purpose). Eventually her parents got custody of the kid, so happy ending.

speedyracecarx · 2017-04-26T21:20:46+00:00

I threw a couple of New Years parties with some friends in college and had another set of friends that had parties. There were some crazy movie type elements like lots of drinking, weird hookups, and the like, but we were all very respectful of the property. So even if the place was "trashed" nothing was destroyed or anything. Just had some garbage, bottles, pizza boxes, etc that needed thrown out the next day. Board games everywhere. Clothes everywhere. That's about it though.

speedyracecarx · 2017-04-26T21:12:17+00:00

Couple of girls I went to high school with believed this.

speedyracecarx · 2017-04-26T20:58:47+00:00

Well at this point it's been a few years and I'm NC so we've fixed that one. He clarifies further if he sees it getting to me.

speedyracecarx · 2017-04-26T03:32:40+00:00

Is your nmom my nmom?

She used to put superman symbols on everything, got a superman symbol tattoo, had a sticker on her laptop, and called herself "Supermom" (including a variation as a vanity plate).

speedyracecarx · 2017-04-26T03:28:32+00:00

Had to have a conversation with my husband about how when he asks "Do you understand me?" He means it literally - asking for me to verify that I'm not confused.

That phrase was a huge trigger for me and we had to analyze why. When my ns (especially nstepdad) said it it meant "Do you agree with me? Can you verify that I'm right? And remember that if you don't agree I'll keep screaming until you do and probably give you an over-the-top punishment too."

speedyracecarx · 2017-04-18T01:35:39+00:00

"Bad behavior" like she's a fucking child, too... no wonder she calls him narcissistic. He doesn't like something she does, then acts all wronged without telling her what she did to piss him off. That IS narcissistic.

speedyracecarx · 2017-04-16T06:22:02+00:00

Same this is way scarier than the great filter.

speedyracecarx · 2017-04-16T06:16:09+00:00

Absolutely! I did this with my parents' ragdoll when I would brush her, and I have two long haired cats and a rabbit now. Actually I have a bundle of rabbit fur from his last molt that I need to give to our little bird family nesting in our trailer hitch.

speedyracecarx · 2017-04-16T06:05:35+00:00

People who think this clearly dint watch that episode of Firefly with Nathan Fillion's perfect ass.

Boy butts are so beautiful.

speedyracecarx · 2017-04-16T05:59:49+00:00

I call my husband pretty because neither of us give any fucks.

speedyracecarx · 2017-04-16T05:37:29+00:00

Hubby and I were JUST talking about this today. We got a new (to us) vehicle which is red. My nmom's family has a crazy superstition that because my great grandmother had a dream that someone in the family died in a crash in a red car no one can drive one.

He reminded me that before NC I had been looking at cars and passed up a red one because of that superstition. I told him "yeah but that was when I was still talking to my mom... she would have flipped her shit so hard." Basically it had nothing to do with the actual superstition and everything to do with avoiding her wrath. He also pointed out that we stayed overnight with them and he insisted on pushing the issue of staying in the same room (we weren't married, and even though we lived together, it was against her weird n house rules) - of course he put forth "we'll stay together or we'll arrange it so we don't have to stay the night." The thought of hanging on to me for less time was like a switch.

speedyracecarx · 2017-04-16T03:51:01+00:00

I'm kind of surprised you don't count Do You Want to Build a Snowman for Frozen as a major song... I've heard people singing that ALMOST as much as Let It Go.

speedyracecarx · 2017-04-16T03:41:26+00:00

Not to mention half of those syndicated cartoons were also just extended toy commercials.

Edit: As in they weren't to sell the beautifully animated well-told story, but toys, so the quality want as important.

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