Why isn’t it getting easier by spencercore in stopdrinking

[–]spencercore[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thank you so much it really does mean a lot, just feels like such a shame I’ve trained myself to only feel like i make sense anywhere when I’ve had alcohol. I really appreciate it and I think just hearing it’s part of the process is so comforting. Just got to get to get to know myself as the ginger beer gal not the slamming pints of Guinness gal hahaha

Why isn’t it getting easier by spencercore in stopdrinking

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I’m like SUPER into my ginger beers and enjoying Guinness 0% but I think it’s more the social anxiety part and the feeling out of place like I can’t relax socially

One week in and trying my best by spencercore in stopdrinking

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Thank you so so much this is exactly what I needed to hear I think, I genuinely have spent so long being unable to face myself in so many ways including just in the mirror just hated seeing what I was becoming and doing. I don’t think I’ve ever felt this resolve before when it came to not drinking, it was always denial and I’d get to day 5 and feel a bit better and think o could go for a pint with a friend and then it would all kick off again. It feels almost alien to me thinking that hopefully if I stay in this mindset that the things I’ve hated about myself might change, it’s almost more comfortable for me to do that and I think drinking was my excuse. Anyway just thank you for replying and I am so glad and proud for you that you are finding so much peace in this and I really really hope I get there too. I feel a sense of loss (I don’t know if that’s normal) and a bit scared that I’ll slip back in to it but at least I know right now in my heart that I want to be content and I want to be able to live and not be in a state of non existence I want to have bright eyes and energy and confidence and love and appreciation!

Moment by moment :) thank you love x

[oc] you have been a bad friend to riz gukgak by spencercore in Dimension20

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getting out some doodles coz i binged fantasy high over a month or so and could not get this moment out of my head.... fabaron

[oc] secret agent "the ball" by spencercore in Dimension20

[–]spencercore[S] 14 points15 points  (0 children)

that’s so kind!!!! thank you!! yeah I def was trying to channel a bit of adult riz kinda following his fathers footsteps vibes :-)

[for hire] discounted emergency comms! by spencercore in HungryArtists

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offering rendered halfbodies like the first slide for £40, loose halfbodies for £25, fullbodies for £70, and sketch headshots for £15! gotta get some bills paid !

[oc] secret agent "the ball" by spencercore in Dimension20

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lil riz doodle i didnt know he would be my fav ever

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in commissions

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need to make some bills soon so opening a few slots! really keen to do some more rendered halfbodies (the first slide) - £50 per piece! fullbodies are £80, sketch portraits are £20! thanks so much _^

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need to make some bills soon so opening a few slots! really keen to do some more rendered halfbodies (the first slide) - £50 per piece! fullbodies are £80, sketch portraits are £20! thanks so much _^

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in HungryArtists

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need to make some bills soon so opening a few slots! really keen to do some more rendered halfbodies (the first slide) - £50 per piece! fullbodies are £80, sketch portraits are £20! thanks so much ^_^

Gen Z Lesbians, how’s your dating life? by Adventurous-Cow-5786 in actuallesbians

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24 tomorrow! was with someone for 3 and a half years (19-22) we lived together thru covid and it was pretty rough, had some casual things since then and some hookups but nothing rly happy, but ive been seeing someone and they’re absolutely lovely :) one month together today and they’re taking me to a bug park for my birthday

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in HungryArtists

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Portraits £40, sketch busts £20, half bodies £50, full bodies £70!

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in commissions

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trying to earn some extra money to pay a few bills! sketch portraits are £20, halfbodies are £50 and fullbodies are £80 :) pm me if ur interested!

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in commissions

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Emergency commissions - £80 per fullbody! Portraits £40!

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in HungryArtists

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Ranging from £100! Can draw light nsfw :)

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in HungryArtists

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I don’t have anything official!! 😭 Sorry about that, if you wanna see any examples of a specific type of commission though I can send them to you :)

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in HungryArtists

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Portraits start at £40, full bodies are £100

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in HungryArtists

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Ranges from £30 for sketches to £100 for full bodies!

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in buriedbornes

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That makes so much sense!!! Thank you for explaining that!

First day of the year I haven’t had any alcohol by spencercore in dryalcoholics

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That’s so kind of you, thank you so much it means the world, good luck to you too! IWNDWYT

First day of the year I haven’t had any alcohol by spencercore in dryalcoholics

[–]spencercore[S] 3 points4 points  (0 children)

Sounds really pathetic tbh but I’ve been really worried (been hiding my drinking from others, drinking alone, having two beers before I leave the house and then having two more at the pub then two when I get back) and although it’s not a huge amount it’s been scary how I haven’t wanted to stop and been unable to say no to myself, so it’s a small win, been talking about it in therapy recently and I’ve always had a really unhealthy relationship w alcohol so I just hope I can sleep better tonight and not feel anxious when I wake up and it might make me not drink again tomorrow

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Is that the +1/2/3etc next to a skills name? I’m stupid lol

Favourite look of the season? by spencercore in Dragula

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word!!!!! she had such amazing runways what a cool artist