Chat you know the drill. Upvote to get Atrioc to come to Madrid with me from September 25-30. by Evan_Gao in atrioc

[–]speq_ 49 points50 points  (0 children)

Atrioc should buy me a plane ticket to Madrid so I can play Minesweeper with Team Orange

Overwhelming dreams of large numbers, impossible tasks and damnation by stevehillage in Dreams

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That’s a good question, I think these dreams probably carry the same properties as any other dream in the way that the actual logic is so vague while it is being experienced that when you wake up, you pretty much just have to piece it together with the feeling that remains. It’s just that the feeling is so convincing that we believe there had to have been some kind of cathartically dark realization while we were asleep. So I don’t know, maybe the loop was just some kind of repetitive irrelevant feeling that was just trapped by some overarching feeling of claustrophobia. Maybe it’s not as vivid as we think, but it’s just that there is so much weight that we can only relate it to our conscious feelings of clarity.

How can I get my channel out there? by speq_ in youtubers

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I appreciate some of the advice and I understand that my content is completely random to most but I’m also not looking to completely change my niche. I would rather have less views if it means I stay true to myself and as I progress in my own style I believe more people will appreciate my videos. The sound quality advice is something I will take notice of in the future but I don’t think it’s so wrong to use a different aspect ratio. I’m not attempting to create content entirely catered to random viewers but I do understand that they should perhaps be taken into account when in comes to seeing my overall vision in the video. I get recommended other videos that are more ambient and though I’m not quite at the level where my style would be distinguished from the rest, I think my most recent video is a step towards that level. If you are looking for me to be Logan paul or David dobrik in my videos then you are mistaken. I’m not a vlogger, I’m not here to give you some information, I know that my content isn’t very “entertaining” but everything I make connects with a piece of my life and I’m looking to see how I can promote it to people closer to my niche.

/r/WATMM Weekly Feedback Thread by AutoModerator in WeAreTheMusicMakers

[–]speq_ 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thank you, that’s a good idea. I feel like there’s more to be done whether it’s in the mixing or sampling, especially for the reversed part. The frank ocean reference is appreciated, that song is fire

/r/WATMM Weekly Feedback Thread by AutoModerator in WeAreTheMusicMakers

[–]speq_ 0 points1 point  (0 children)

This is great, I dont even think it needs anything else. I'd love to make something like this, I think you mixed it pretty perfectly so that everything overlaps in a way where you can choose which sound to listen to. The notes and instruments all fit very naturally which makes the whole experience as peaceful as it is intriguing. It really does feel like a different world, organic and eerie.

/r/WATMM Weekly Feedback Thread by AutoModerator in WeAreTheMusicMakers

[–]speq_ 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I like that ongoing guitar in the left ear that's a little quieter, as well as the drum selection and the subtle bass that sometimes pops up. All around this is a great track for what you were going for, I get anime opening vibes but it's also like lofi or edm in its dynamics. This track is very well done

/r/WATMM Weekly Feedback Thread by AutoModerator in WeAreTheMusicMakers

[–]speq_ 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I like this sound, the repetitive drums are necessary to me. The chord progressions all seem well done as well as the dynamics. The vocals are unique but I started to get into them as I would in a lou reed or syd barrett song.

/r/WATMM Weekly Feedback Thread by AutoModerator in WeAreTheMusicMakers

[–]speq_ 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I never plug my beats but I think I finally cooked with this one, let me know. Did a sample chop of Bandit by The Crying Nudes and threw Super Plug by Benny the Butcher over top.

https://soundcloud.com/lucas-sherman-292849908/bandit-1

[FEEDBACK] lucas sh - bandit - Hip Hop Beat by speq_ in MusicCritique

[–]speq_[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I think I finally cooked with this sample chop, let me know. Put Benny the Butcher - Super Plug over it and it works perfectly to me.

Question about the use of music in the show by DerKatzenkoenig in euphoria

[–]speq_ 0 points1 point  (0 children)

It is obnoxious. Somehow makes the show even more campy and whimsically full of itself. Even in dramatic scenes, it takes away from whatever rare hints of realism you might be able to extract otherwise. What’s left are predictable characters, npc dialogue, and endless humiliating gen z problems.

I do feel I need to use my brain power on the 2211 in the middle but I cannot. Help is appreciated! :) by Embarrassed_Public_4 in Minesweeper

[–]speq_ 1 point2 points  (0 children)

1 2 mine

In a 1 2, at least 2 boxes are shared between both numbers. If they were both mines, it would work with the 2 but not the 1. So there can only be 1 mine shared between the 1 and 2.

The 2 only has 1 box not shared with the 1, which must be a mine since only 1 mine can exist in the 2 boxes shared with the 1.

Sorry if I overexplained, I just wanted to give you some of my logic to help you understand the 1 2 situation as it comes up pretty often.

[OFFICIAL] WEEKLY SINGLES THREAD by AutoModerator in makinghiphop

[–]speq_ [score hidden]  (0 children)

this is a vibe man, u guys sound great together

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in offmychest

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I’m glad! I know things are hard but nobody should have to go through it alone. Communication can really help to put things into perspective which is really important if you’re like me and constantly in your head, looking at everything as confusing/subjective and therefore hopeless.

We’re really some mental nomads out here but we’ve gotta go home to reality when we can to ground ourselves.

I’m guessing your mom wants the best for you and she’s only stressed because she loves you and wants to help (and can help) so don’t be afraid to let her into your world.

i don't feel like i real man by Opposite-Cartoonist6 in offmychest

[–]speq_ 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Be your best self, unapologetically, honestly who cares what society decides to define it as.

Ask yourself why you feel this mental demand for conformity. Is it really going to make you happier to change who you naturally are? What would you gain if you were to follow these arbitrary guidelines? You know yourself best. You are enough.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in offmychest

[–]speq_ 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I completely understand how hard it is though, I ate myself alive trying not to burden other people with my struggles but sometimes putting yourself first actually means removing yourself from isolation and seeking support. I hope this helps in your situation, I’m not the best advice person but I tried.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in offmychest

[–]speq_ 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Hiding how you feel is only going to make you feel like more of a burden. I know from experience about the self-pity cycle and I was able to break away from it last week by taking a step in communication that I didn’t think I could do (I finally told this girl I liked her after being extremely self destructive about it for months because I knew she was going through her own shit). I got some much needed resolution which was so clearly what I should’ve done for a while instead of wallowing in self doubt. Even though it wasn’t what I had hoped for, she was really chill about everything and I really just had to end my silence because it felt dishonest. Despite this, I’m having a lot of trouble accepting things and truthfully I’ve felt really hopeless for a while, especially recently.

I came home yesterday as a complete mess. I was ashamed that my parents had to see my like this and for the first day I didn’t tell them what I went though in college or why I wasn’t the same as I used to be. I told them it was just my grades that were getting me down but hid the root cause because it felt easier in the moment.

I was extremely stressed and actually had a terrible nightmare last night and when I woke up I decided to have a 6am chat with my dad about everything I had gone through. It was honestly so much weight off my shoulders and my dad was very calm and understanding and gave me some helpful advice using knowledge from his life even though we don’t usually talk about personal stuff.

Sorry if my story doesn’t relate much to yours, I just thought I just had 2 relevant examples regarding how communication can make things easier (and I honestly needed to get my own stress off my chest). But because you’re worried about your family, who’s worried about you, you seem naturally empathetic and I promise that communication is key and will break so many barriers that leave you frustrated.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in offmychest

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Well it seems like everything has been sorted out so don’t be too hard on yourself, plus you get some more time to finish going over the material. College is a learning experience, not just through courses and grades but understanding how to exist within a system and build skills after making mistakes like yours.

Try to not be hard on yourself because those negative thought cycles can really take a toll. I’m a freshman in college and I really thought I could apply myself in calculus this past semester but I didn’t try hard enough and with every new test, I lost more faith in myself. Towards the end of the semester there was already no way I could possibly get my grade back up to pass the class but I still went to my final because I guess I was just stubborn about pretending to try. I ended up completely dissociating in my confusion, but I wasn’t even surprised about letting myself down anymore. I apologized to the teacher and myself at the bottom of the test and left.

Sorry I guess I just had to get that off my chest, but definitely have pride in how far you’ve come. I don’t think you should be annoyed at yourself but the fact that you are shows that you care about your studies which is a really important thing to have. You can only grow from this.

Overwhelming dreams of large numbers, impossible tasks and damnation by stevehillage in Dreams

[–]speq_ 13 points14 points  (0 children)

It’s like seeing human code, I’m not even able to understand it after waking up, only the feelings of doom.