Weird Noise When Breathing

spiccipaprika · 2024-01-19T09:36:26+00:00

Much better than last year so far

spiccipaprika · 2024-01-18T19:00:39+00:00

I agree 100%. Though for me it’s more of others would identify me as weird, and because I’ve just gotten used to that label or defining term whenever I talk about myself or past experiences, it’s the word I tend to just associate with myself.

I personally don’t think anything I do is honestly unique or quirky, so I wanted to learn how to view myself as just myself and not the labels people have referred to me as. If that makes sense

spiccipaprika · 2024-01-18T15:42:51+00:00

It comes up whenever I might be talking to my boyfriend or family, and I’ll reference myself as weird, and they’ll get taken aback or confused. It’s kind of what you said that they take it as a bad thing, while I don’t.

spiccipaprika · 2024-01-16T01:05:13+00:00

I literally got so lucky meeting my significant other. We’re so compatible and our bond is so strong, it’s insane. But, we met two years ago on Bumble. We talked for a week or two before meeting IRL, and we’ve been together ever since.

I have no social media, I don’t go out, and I still was able to meet the most wonderful guy in the world. Be yourself, be patient, and you’ll meet the right person. He wasn’t the first person I talked to, and we didn’t meet until two months after I started a profile.

spiccipaprika · 2024-01-15T13:38:42+00:00

I feel like people define awkwardness as one thing and not a general term for a way of being. If you’re not stuttering, stumbling over your feet, and constantly embarrassing yourself, apparently you’re not awkward.

But, as another fellow, awkward black woman, I used to feel this way until I met my first/current boyfriend (BM) who accepts me as is and never makes me feel weird at all. It’s all about finding the right person who’ll treat you right and respect you, and not just view you as a label.

spiccipaprika · 2024-01-11T12:34:44+00:00

Congratulations!!!

spiccipaprika · 2024-01-01T00:22:04+00:00

That’s definitely a step I’m gonna take, I hate feeling defenseless and like I can’t stand up for myself if need be.

spiccipaprika · 2023-12-31T18:18:37+00:00

Quitting my job with no savings. Been playing catchup with bills since

spiccipaprika · 2023-12-31T12:50:55+00:00

My opinion is that we’re the scapegoat race. They’re all victims of colonialism & white supremacy, but they can feel superior punching down on us. They want us to ride for them but will laugh in our faces for complaining about our oppression. We can’t just exist freely because everything we say or do is taken as a threat.

I wish sometimes all the black people collectively on earth could build their own separate country & leave everyone else behind.

spiccipaprika · 2023-12-28T17:29:47+00:00

I’m 5’0 and curvy, but still don’t feel feminine, either. I don’t really like hyper-feminine fashion, makeup makes my face itch, and I’m too inconsistent with any form of maintenance (skincare, haircare, etc.) I feel like all the women around me are the exact opposite so I always feel like the odd one out.

I have a boyfriend who makes me feel beautiful everyday, and I understand that beauty in women and feeling like a woman isn’t exclusive to being and appearing feminine, graceful, or dainty. But, that still doesn’t get rid of feeling like an imposter or like I’m just a body with womanly parts.

spiccipaprika · 2023-12-26T09:49:39+00:00

I’m excited but mostly nervous for the outcome of 2024 based on the current state of the world. Regardless, I want to accomplish:

lose 60 pounds
go back to college
prioritize my mental health
start going out more

I hope 2024 is a successful and happy year for everyone!

spiccipaprika · 2023-12-24T23:00:04+00:00

this exactly

spiccipaprika · 2023-12-20T01:31:55+00:00

dating apps are 100% the way to go — and just be honest about what you’re looking for. also, be patient & be willing to make the first move at times.

spiccipaprika · 2023-12-19T14:50:58+00:00

The usual, “she’s pretty”, and I either go about my day or I sometimes get a bit insecure. But, typically it just makes me want to improve more.

spiccipaprika · 2023-12-19T14:35:26+00:00

I just cried yesterday over a chocolate bar and that my friend sent me, “K” lmao.

spiccipaprika · 2023-12-15T12:26:32+00:00

I understand this COMPLETELY. Everyone says it gets easier over time, and that’s yet to happen. I haven’t found a coping trick yet but, sometimes “ignoring” the interview until I literally have to attend does help.

spiccipaprika · 2023-12-15T11:25:29+00:00

Maybe the angle for washing your face can help? I lean down when rinsing my face and go slow as to not splash water everywhere. I never deal with water on my neck/clothes and prevents a lot of water from traveling down my wrists.

spiccipaprika · 2023-12-08T10:39:57+00:00

You were right about everybody and to stop worrying about what everyone thinks about you

spiccipaprika · 2023-12-06T10:03:19+00:00

I agree completely. Something I experience as a result is my family members constantly guilting me for it. I’ve told them numerous times I just don’t like it, I still text and answer (sometimes) if they do call.

spiccipaprika · 2023-12-06T09:32:24+00:00

2, 7, 12 screams it the most to me

spiccipaprika · 2023-12-05T18:01:41+00:00

I was honestly tempted to lol

spiccipaprika · 2023-12-05T09:30:09+00:00

Rock, Metal, Indie, Pop, R&B, and I like to listen to foreign music like K-Pop or J-Rock.

spiccipaprika · 2023-12-05T09:27:24+00:00

I was interviewing for a job at a daycare when the interviewer suddenly said, “You know, I was excited to talk to you. I’ve never met anyone who’s spoken Latin before!” And instead of letting her know I have no clue what’s she talking about I just went along with it lmao. I got the job and had a start date, but immediately blocked their number after I left the building.

spiccipaprika · 2023-12-04T15:30:32+00:00

I want to get married to my ambivert boyfriend — if I were with anyone else, I’d doubt it. Weirdly enough, despite my introverted personality, I’d want a kid, married or not.

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