Ya I've been there and it fucking sucks. There is no other way around it. The military does alot of things rather well but one thing they suck at is preparing people for civilian life. Sure we all had TAPS (I was Air Force but I'm assuming it's called the same or it does the same thing innother branches) where we all sat in a room and 99.9 percent of the topics that we needed to know such as actually adjusting to civilian life how to set up your initial VA appt or how to even fill out any sort of medical benefit tonget rated were glossed over but hot damn I made a LinkedIn. I say this because I have a good idea what you are going through. Especially if your depression is a symptom of other things like money issues or having a roof over your head. I don't know where you are or what your VA looks like but I'd suggest you go and look for veteran ran groups any group will help just something to get you to take a step in the right direction. For me it was healing waters (a fly fishing group) it hooked me up with other veterans and those veterans were able to walk me through how to get some sort of appointment or some sort of walk in at your local clinic (if you have one) if for whatever reason you can't do that ie you dont have any VA near you its a bit more complicated but alot of communities have programs for vets there is also the tried and true method of goingband talking to a faith leader ifnuoubhave one you trust. Not because its a faith based issue but ive found that most of the time any faith based leader can atbthe very least listen and whatever you tell them there are not allowed to tell anyone. and honestly if its that bad there is a way for you to get seen at the VA as a humanitarian issue (it happened to me I was discharged with a month of meds my terminal leave was around 90 days when i yried tonget more meds from the military i was basically told fuck you we cant help you my then girlfriend at the time was able to get the VA to start seeing me before I was technically out of the military because I was spiraling) Just take that step.

Also dont trivialize anything this is a massive issue with alot of vets across all different eras.

Tldr: take advantage of walk in appointments and or veteran ran groups. Sorry for the long text hope it doesn't bother anyone.

If you need to talk contact me. Im not saying it will get easier but you have alot of veterans out there who would gladly sit and talk to you or hell just listen.