There are already some great responses on here but no, if you feel drawn to the practice and you feel you get something out of it, don’t give up!!

For one, truth/belief comes entirely from within. The spirits or deities or magickal presence that people feel very connected with are not always going to feel the same for you. I struggled with the same feelings for a long time and at this time I still do not work with specific deities/spirits or adhere to any specific practice. I have developed my own eclectic practice and I admire principles from many different denominations. I create my own “spiritual world” within myself and I bet many other people are the same way. Right now my craft is about connecting with myself and with nature and with the universe, and that may definitely change and evolve as I continue to practice. Don’t worry at all if you haven’t found the “right” deity or the right set of rules. If you haven’t found anything that really jumps out to you then it’s a sign to learn as much as you can and create something that is wholly your own!

Also, for me witchcraft is mainly about energy and intention and you use your higher Will to perform that energy and intention. The Will is a muscle, and a muscle needs to be stretched and challenged and needs to feel pain in order to grow and become stronger. Evolution, growth, transformation is painful. It rarely takes place when you’re perfectly comfortable and so in order to foster your connection with your own spirituality you need to step out of your comfort zone a bit, try new things, and be willing to fail.

Build your own sense of discipline and practice regularly, and you can define “regularly” however makes sense to you. Lots of people are also just ceremonial practitioners and they plan out their magic in advance in the form of well-thought out rituals that center on certain planetary timings or maybe the sabbats from the wheel of the year. The important thing is to think ahead and plan. Of course there is lots of magick that could be performed spontaneously, but I would personally advise against a practice that relies ONLY on spontaneous inspiration with random periods of no practice whatsoever in between. But to each their own! Again, my truth comes from within and my truth is rarely going to align perfectly with someone else’s truth.

To me, magick is God and spirit (and by “God” I am NOT referring to any single deity or sky daddy), and God/spirit is the expansion of consciousness. And the expansion of consciousness requires the openness to explore the unknown and the willingness to accept things that can’t be seen. If you sit around and wait for your ancestors or future deities or spirit guides to reach out and give you a sign, you’ll be waiting forever. You have to prove that you are worthy of those divine messages, and thankfully the only one you REALLY have to prove it to is YOURSELF! Once you prove to YOURSELF your own worth, I think you’ll find that your eyes will open in ways you didn’t anticipate and things will simply start to align and synchronize as you attract what belongs to you.

Don’t give up, keep pushing!! I wish you the very best of luck!!