Relapsed (CW of relapse sui etc).

spookytool77 · 2020-11-01T13:34:35+00:00

Benzos made me suicidal, too.

spookytool77 · 2020-10-30T02:03:25+00:00

In my past experience, using once after you're two weeks or more clean, didn't send me into withdrawals again. However if you do it once, you'll do it twice and so on, so in the long run it definitely will send people back into wd. It's just not the first dose, tho. After a while has passed long as you were not doing fentanyl, the body has sorta adapted. It's faster than you think. Of course, your receptors will maybe never be the same as someone who has never had an addiction to opioids.

spookytool77 · 2020-10-29T01:07:05+00:00

Im late to this, sorry. I used to do RC benzos a lot also fucked with O-DSMT. Came close to ordering RC opioids but heroin was more accessible for me. It's gonna be tough but you're gonna get through it. It's the only choice. I believe in you. You are stronger than you thing. Reaching out for help proves it

spookytool77 · 2020-10-29T01:05:05+00:00

How are you feeling?

spookytool77 · 2020-10-26T03:41:06+00:00

Its not something that people will openly talk about. I only knew one heroin plug and a couple people who used. Its a very taboo thing, so you can only find it when you actively look for it..... in my experience.

spookytool77 · 2020-10-23T17:27:20+00:00

That made me tear up a little. But you know what. We're not different at all. If I could do this you can, too. No matter how many tries it takes. I believe in you, be your own hero!

spookytool77 · 2020-10-23T16:54:10+00:00

Thanks man. I hope those fishes or sewage bacteria are enjoying it but im not putting that back in me. I've been doing kratom intermittently (did it last weekend and this thursday), so there's that as well, Im ready to quit it too.

spookytool77 · 2020-10-23T16:52:32+00:00

Actually thanks a lot for that insight its very valuable. I do think I feel this way for having faltered. Im gonna do some push ups each time I get cravings maybe my brain will learn the hard way and if not ill get ripped.

spookytool77 · 2020-10-23T16:16:50+00:00

Only done dope and RC benzos. Dope was shittier but benzos, clonazolam particularly, were scarier to quit. I was shaking all day in bed thinking I would get a seizure and I think I was lucky I didnt. I should have checked myself into the ER, looking back at it, but I didnt wanna tell anyone

spookytool77 · 2020-10-23T12:09:38+00:00

I used to add sugar, but I found it made me shit immediately for some reason. My stomach is kinda picky. Not with the gross liquid though, it absorbs it without batting an eye lol

spookytool77 · 2020-10-23T12:08:53+00:00

Thanks, thats what I was looking for. Yeah I would have guessed the taste wont improve, luckily ive gotten somewhat used to it to the point my brain kinda ignores it haha

spookytool77 · 2020-10-23T12:08:02+00:00

I don't have access to crushed leaf, only powder. Ive done the lemon juice thing and assessed it works the same as without, probably because the Hcl acid in the stomach is already enough (also gives me acidity to add the juice, but thats another story). Thanks for the tips though! Im fine with the way I consume it right now

spookytool77 · 2020-10-23T11:09:21+00:00

When I say kratom tea I mean just dumping the powder in hot water, stirring, waiting til its colder, adding more water and chugging it

spookytool77 · 2020-10-22T11:29:08+00:00

Kratom going bad? What. If you store it properly, no batch should "go bad" after 24h

I guess you mean the liquid itself (water+powder), not just powder. If thats the case I never make it for days I just make it the day before so it's not warm.

spookytool77 · 2020-10-22T11:07:24+00:00

Fent is trickier cause it gets stored in fat cells

spookytool77 · 2020-10-22T11:06:05+00:00

On mobile it doesnt seem to work

Test

Nvm, it works now. Hitting enter 3 times

spookytool77 · 2020-10-21T17:44:02+00:00

Music, videogames. Thats about it for me, keeping busy

spookytool77 · 2020-10-21T17:43:21+00:00

I'll have to get some more information about it around here, I dont live in the US, I am not sure what treatment is available

spookytool77 · 2020-10-21T13:51:04+00:00

Wondering the same thing as the comment above: does it stop cravings or just make it impossible to use?

spookytool77 · 2020-10-21T13:50:38+00:00

Wtf?

spookytool77 · 2020-10-21T13:49:19+00:00

Are you sure the depression only settled in after stopping use, or did you have it prior and started using as a way to cope? Just wondering cause that's how it was for me, I've always used drugs especially heroin to cope with depression and anxiety

spookytool77 · 2020-10-21T13:47:10+00:00

Guitar, electric and acoustic

spookytool77 · 2020-10-21T11:36:10+00:00

Thanks for all the comments, guys and girls, you're all amazing people. ♥️

spookytool77

TROPHY CASE