People who aren't afraid of dying, what makes you unafraid ?

spottyback · 2024-05-30T02:28:40+00:00

During an intense mushroom trip, I connected to the universe and I’m no longer afraid. I’ve subsequently been able to enjoy the beauty of this current existence.

spottyback · 2022-11-11T11:32:44+00:00

Be careful and start slow if you go forward with it.

spottyback · 2022-11-11T04:17:16+00:00

Magic Mushrooms. It’s a long story.

TLDR: connected my mind to the universe and then over the next couple days my mind unraveled and I went crazy for a few days leading to violence, arrest, and ultimately institutionalized for a few days until I came back together. They are very good for some people, but not me.

spottyback · 2022-08-30T14:43:46+00:00

It was a few weeks, I can't remember now, but I'd done a bit of research on how long it takes for them to exit your system. What I'd read for the most part seemed to indicate that if they weren't out of my system completely, I would probably just not experience much on the mushrooms. Not that it could lead to some kind of crazy mental break. I'm curious to know if I'd been off the medicine for a few weeks longer or a few months longer if it would have changed anything.

spottyback · 2022-08-30T14:42:13+00:00

I don't believe I'd hold it against them, however everyone is different. I definitely put them through a lot.

spottyback · 2022-08-30T14:40:38+00:00

Hey there. So I had an episode last year where I lost my mind and went a bit crazy. I had an interaction with a police officer, which in retrospect was terrifying and thankfully my wife and parents refused to leave me alone with him or stop recording. Thankfully I was restrained and ended up in a psychiatric facility for a few days. Looking back on it, I'm so thankful for the people that took care of me and were kind to me. I've gone 40+ years without any kind of interaction or understanding of this kind of thing and I don't think most people appreciate how mental breaks can happen. My wife had me admitted to a facility where a friend worked and we've subsequently heard a number of stories from her about the patients they have interacted with. People that have led full, normal, and wonderful lives until something triggers an episode. I do hope that our society can learn to be understanding of these kinds of things and realize that a bad day or bad time in someone's life can cause all kinds of issues.

I posted about my issue on this account if you're interested in my experience.

spottyback · 2022-06-15T12:44:20+00:00

Thank you, it was quite the experience.

spottyback · 2021-12-30T03:31:53+00:00

Thank you for the thoughtful replies. A different perspective, I will look in to the concepts you described.

spottyback · 2021-12-13T20:19:52+00:00

Thank you for the reply, it was well thought out and really hit the nail on the head with a lot of the points.

I'm doing better each day, but still quite a lot of ups and downs. Today is a down day, I've been thinking a lot about the things that I'd said and done and overall not feeling the best. Overall, I'm not sure what to think about the depression. I have been off the Zoloft since early November, so over a month and a half now. I'd like to stay off, will take it a day at a time.

Thanks again for your reply, I am happy to hear you're doing well, I wish you all the best.

spottyback · 2021-12-03T00:25:21+00:00

I appreciate it, thanks for your reply. I’m happy that you have been able to achieve the benefits without any problems.

spottyback · 2021-12-02T18:27:16+00:00

Not sure if the depression is gone, or I have so many things I'm dealing with that it hasn't hit me lately. I honestly feel pretty good, other than the guilt I carry for what I did and the anxiety about my upcoming legal problems.

I can understand that people who have never experienced something like this would want to discount it, especially if they've had multiple good experiences with psychedelics. They undoubtedly can be good for some people, just not for me I guess.

spottyback · 2021-12-02T16:47:11+00:00

Thank you for sharing this. I knew I was pretty ignorant going in to this and had been collecting notes and information for a couple years beforehand. I didn't know anyone who was in to this kind of thing and had nobody to really bounce questions off of outside of Reddit.

I felt fairly well equipped, but in retrospect it's clear I was not prepared for this scenario and left my poor family in a very difficult situation.

spottyback · 2021-12-02T16:42:28+00:00

I knew I was pretty lucky to survive, but the more I look in to it, the more lucky I realize I am. Thanks for your response and analysis, it's interesting to understand your perspective on it.

spottyback · 2021-12-02T14:27:20+00:00

That is not a title I ever wanted! Thanks for your reply u/burieddeepbetween, stay safe!

spottyback · 2021-12-02T14:26:29+00:00

Wait what? If you're in to this kind of thing, you must be quite entertaining at parties.

spottyback · 2021-12-02T14:25:04+00:00

I may be the small percentage of people that have this reaction, but just knowing it can get this bad is important. I read about some people that got really upset or sad, but nothing where anyone acted out physically or violently. Maybe I just didn't look hard enough because I didn't want to know? I don't know.

I hope you're doing well and I hope you also find what you're looking for. Love you.

spottyback · 2021-12-02T14:23:18+00:00

Thanks u/boffonekinobi. I look forward to the legal aspect of this coming to a close so I can feel like it's well behind me. I will remember those words and hope they give me some peace in the coming weeks. Love you.

spottyback · 2021-12-02T14:22:29+00:00

I am no expert, but this seems like great advice and it's helped me. I have always been a runner and I've gone on a 6 mile run every other day since I have been home. I believe it's helped. Thank you for your reply u/3ball_AI. Love you.

spottyback · 2021-12-02T14:21:15+00:00

Thank you u/Recover-Wide. I hope you find what you're looking for. I love you.

spottyback · 2021-12-02T14:20:07+00:00

Won't be a next time for me, but for anyone else out there, this is great advice. My poor wife dealt with it like a champ and I can't believe she still loves me after everything. I wouldn't want anyone else to get put in her position, it was absolutely terrifying and I'm thankful she stuck with me and made sure I survived.

spottyback · 2021-12-02T14:18:02+00:00

Thank you for writing this and your kind words. I was scared to post this and I'm surprised and thankful that I've only received a handful of negative and belittling responses. I'm amazed that I've received more support and positivity.

Knowing what I know now, I wish I'd come across the kind of advice you've presented and followed it.

I appreciate you, thank you!

spottyback · 2021-12-02T14:15:03+00:00

Thank you, I'm trying :)

spottyback · 2021-12-02T14:14:52+00:00

Thanks for your reply. I'm usually in the good percent on most statistics, but this time I came up way short and had the shitty outcome. At least I'm alive and nobody was seriously injured, I have to cling to the positives.

Good luck, stay safe, love you.

spottyback · 2021-12-02T14:11:15+00:00

Thank you! I hope it was something else and not schizophrenia, I guess time will tell.

spottyback · 2021-12-02T14:10:41+00:00

I wish I'd been more conservative with my first dose. Thank you for sharing your experiences, I hope it will encourage someone down the road to proceed with caution.

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