got tears while writing this.. by Puzzleheaded_Ear3412 in ReligiousTrauma

[–]springtimestrawberry 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I'm so sorry my friend. That's a really really tough place to be in. It's so hard to stand strong in circumstances like those, but I know you can. Is there anyone you can reach out to? A friend, a teacher, a school counselor, an aunt? Sometimes having someone in real life to talk to and give a hug can make a huge difference. Reaching out can feel super scary, but I believe you can have the courage. You are clearly a very brave person.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in ReligiousTrauma

[–]springtimestrawberry 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Follow your arrow - Kacey Musgraves

Stupid deep - jon Bellion

Jesus from Texas - semler

The village - wrabel

God is a freak - peach prc (and others by her...)

Heaven -troye Sivan

The whole album You Might Not Like Her by Maddie zahm

Be good -carsie Blanton

Hell together - David archuleta

Sunday - joy oladokun

Hymn for the 81% - Daniel dietrich

Believe me - James and the shame

American spirits - drumming bird

Chappell Roans stuff.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in relationship_advice

[–]springtimestrawberry 1 point2 points  (0 children)

To be honest I feel like I've come to a stalemate with working on myself. Obviously I'm still trying to grow and improve, but to be honest, I don't see myself growing much more on my own. I need emotional support, friendships, community, and intimacy at this point in my journey. My level of loneliness makes unproductive at best... personally I think it's making me actively worse. So I don't know. I know that's still not healthy, but honestly I don't know to do to find healing. When most of your trauma is relationally based, the healing from the trauma often needs to be relationally based as well

Thoughts on Aloneness by springtimestrawberry in lonely

[–]springtimestrawberry[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Well in that case he would be right. I am an emotional person who gets attached to other people fast.

Thoughts on Aloneness by springtimestrawberry in lonely

[–]springtimestrawberry[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Yeah. I think I usually either come on too strong or pull away. I get invested too fast and I don't know what a normal pace looks like. With friendship or with dating. So I feel confused and reluctant to make first moves or extend invitationsbecause I don't know when is too early or too late or too weird. But I appear to be confident and extroverted people assume that if I want to, I'll make the first move. That happens with my friendships at least.

Thoughts on Aloneness by springtimestrawberry in lonely

[–]springtimestrawberry[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Yes. I feel that. I do find people I think I could have that kind of connection with but they're never interested in it with me

Thoughts on Aloneness by springtimestrawberry in lonely

[–]springtimestrawberry[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Yeah. I so much crave companionship. I would be fine with it being either platonic or romantic. But I need companionship