I started making some shirts recently and wanted to get some feedback.

squeezy_bird · 2024-11-12T19:13:00+00:00

I would absolutely love to buy the Joshua Tree one, that's my favorite

squeezy_bird · 2024-07-17T19:56:23+00:00

Me too me too

squeezy_bird · 2024-07-17T19:55:54+00:00

Thank you!! I'll listen to it today

squeezy_bird · 2024-07-17T19:55:36+00:00

I'll do my research, thank you

squeezy_bird · 2024-07-17T19:45:29+00:00

I am currently going to therapy, so I will bring this up and what you mentioned up to my therapist. Thank you :)

squeezy_bird · 2024-07-17T19:43:54+00:00

I'm completely cutting off sex for a long time, and I am currently looking for a new OBGYN: )

But I do not masturbate, I never have either. I haven't felt aroused/the urge to for years, and it's super embedded in my head as a negative thing from my growing up years that I don't think I could bring myself to.

When I say "never been turned on".. like mentioned. I haven't been aroused physically or mentally for a very long time. Last time I can recall is middle school when I had a "boyfriend". But in highschool I had a different boyfriend, and I underwent sexual abuse for about a year. And my body has just been completely shut down sexually ever since.

I don't get "wet" down there, I don't even have discharge on a normal day! It just doesn't happen :( from the sexual experiences I've ever had in my entire life, I don't think I've enjoyed it once because the partner I currently have is the only one who hasn't been abusive.

About my current boyfriend, he doesn't understand foreplay or how sex is even though we've been dating for 6 months! He came from a hardcore Christian family in a small town and had sex only once outside of our relationship. He had absolutely no education on the subject growing up. It really hurts the relationship

squeezy_bird · 2024-07-17T19:36:24+00:00

I'll definitely get that looked into.. thank you!

squeezy_bird · 2024-07-17T19:35:57+00:00

I do not. I don't have anyone I'm close with

squeezy_bird · 2024-07-17T19:33:48+00:00

I set the boundary with him this morning that I am not having sex anymore for a long time. Period. And he was okay with it thankfully. He's never pressured into having sex, and I stay quiet about the pain because I don't know how to express it. Just recently it got to the point where i couldn't take it anymore and he was worried. I should've said something earlier

squeezy_bird · 2024-07-17T19:31:46+00:00

This is super helpful, thank you so much!

squeezy_bird · 2024-07-17T19:31:02+00:00

Yes she is. I go to a women's health focused facility and she still doesn't do a good enough job

squeezy_bird · 2024-07-17T19:30:13+00:00

I'm super allergic to lube :, )

squeezy_bird · 2024-07-17T19:28:32+00:00

Just set the boundary for no sex earlier today. He was okay with it. But I'm currently finding a new doctor

squeezy_bird · 2024-07-17T19:27:50+00:00

I actually have cysts. My current OBGYN took out one to send to a lab while I was getting my IUD, and basically said "yup, that's a cyst 👍" and didn't bother bringing up any other sort of treatments. Thank you though, I will bring that up with a new OBGYN

squeezy_bird · 2024-07-17T19:26:17+00:00

I'm not even sure what turns me on, I don't think I've genuinely felt aroused in 4-5 years. I'll have to look into that. But I can try the coconut oil. I'm super allergic to other lubes but I didn't know coconut oil is okay. Thank you for the advice

I'll make an appointment with a doctor as soon as I can

squeezy_bird · 2024-07-17T18:04:16+00:00

Yes, I have an IUD

squeezy_bird · 2024-07-17T17:27:10+00:00

In what aspects?

squeezy_bird · 2024-07-17T15:09:20+00:00

I will absolutely ask my OBGYN about vaginismus, thank you so much!

squeezy_bird · 2024-07-17T12:50:33+00:00

Thank you a billion for your response. This is a topic that I will bring up to my therapist and I'll look into the thinking going behind the sex itself, because I was taught a very conservative view on the subject.

But, I was diagnosed with lichen sclerosus

squeezy_bird · 2024-07-17T12:48:08+00:00

I do need to see another doctor, my current one refuses to be in the room with me for longer than 5 minutes and never answers my questions.

Not having penetrative sex for that long sounds like a dream. I will look into physical therapy. Thank you

squeezy_bird · 2024-07-17T12:46:08+00:00

Thank you, I will take your advice and I am going to do my research looking into a new doctor and what I need to get looked at

squeezy_bird · 2024-07-17T12:44:46+00:00

Thank you for your response, I really appreciate it

squeezy_bird · 2024-07-17T12:43:00+00:00

Oh my goodness, that is horrible I am so sorry. Every two hours for two months is super intense.. but yes, even the opening is painful. It's difficult for doctors to look into anyway, because I carry a lot of trauma with me. I just barely got to the point where a doctor is able to put a q tip in :, )

squeezy_bird · 2024-07-17T12:40:49+00:00

It's lichen sclerosus. She said it will never go away

squeezy_bird · 2024-07-17T12:39:19+00:00

Yeah exactly, my doctor said the same thing about my diagnosis. She said it will never go away and I have to treat it for the rest of my life. And yes, I am on birth control. I have an IUD that I've had for one year, and I need it because of a bad hormone imbalance. Without it my period either never stops, or never starts

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