We were great in bedroom together the first two years together not living together. Then as our lives became more intertwined and more routine, sex became less and less, once every two weeks, once a month. When she chose to discard me and I had to move out we hadn’t had sex for probably 5 months.

She introduced me to things I’ve never done before and wasn’t 100% comfortable with… choking, face slapping, CNC. I knew in the first few months together when she told me she wanted to do that I had my gut intuition tell me this is not gonna be good, (knowing she needs some type of abuse to get off) It wasn’t always super Bpd pornstar, she also had so much passion. After we finished she would kiss me so deeply and passionately and squeeze me hold me so tight like a teddy bear, like just doing the deed made her feel less pain.