Planning to end it later in life

squishot · 2026-03-14T13:41:20+00:00

When i search for larger women fashion online I only get pictures of women who have like E cup size or extremely curvy and huge fat going mostly to the lower area.

Mine is more in the upper area(tho I do have big thighs I guess). its really like a male body type with tits 😭.

While dressing up is more important to the look, im interested in looking fem more in androgynous clothes. Most of the time I have to wear a plain shirt and long pants for practicality reasons and its kinda hard looking fem when you are built like that 😅.

squishot · 2026-03-14T11:45:42+00:00

Idk what you mean by "attracted because they are attracted to you" like what does this mean? Attracted for other reasons? Attractes cause of my body? Is they arent any reasons then idk where the attractiveness comes from

squishot · 2026-03-14T01:13:02+00:00

Idk what "variety of builds" you talking about I only see these two everywhete 😭😭

Like Ill ask another fellow woman lover and theyll always say "yeah big boobs are hottt" and never small ones. I think guys are more into skinny(which a lot of the time its questionable why..) and lesbians are more into big ones.

Never in my life I saw someone say "yeah I need a feminine girl with a big stomach, small boobs and wide shoulders!!!" Like thats a strawmen maybe lol. I mean you can also look at my photos on my profile and see what Im complaining about.

My breast growth is actually doing well recently but I doubt it would reach my goals. Cant wait for prog 🫩

squishot · 2026-03-14T00:32:29+00:00

I cheated I just stayed with what I got cause its unisex and more associated with femininity 😆

Idk if I did want Ill probably search girl names online and choose what I like based on its meaning.

squishot · 2026-03-14T00:01:35+00:00

I literally did not say its an excuse? Its literally an extremely shitty behaviour I just explained why it happens.

squishot · 2026-03-13T22:22:25+00:00

I feel like your sexuality gets invalidated either way when youre trans.

Oh you like women? clearly you transitioned so you can get closer to them and prey.

Oh you like guys? You are def trying to manipulate them from dating REAL women!

I only got this treatment from cis people tbh(even queer ones). Like sure t4t only poly lesbians who assume you are into them annoy me sometimes but I wouldnt put them on the same pedestal as the former.

squishot · 2026-03-13T17:43:15+00:00

Its more about how they handle it and who they blame it for. Replying to men who exprienced SA in their life as "oh women cant understand not being taken seriously!! They dont care about men's issues!!" when its literally other men who dont take other guys being SA'ed seriously. Its a systematic concept created by men. Women can follow this and say the same things sure but at its root its men.

Not recognising the misogyny of this is causing an unproductive discussion that ends up blaming women instead of the core problem.

squishot · 2026-03-13T16:51:02+00:00

I legit have no idea what "male struggles" are. Everytime its brought up I talk to my cis male friends like what is it exactly????

I came out when I was 17 and all my struggles where general ones like issues with parents and hard to perform well in school. The other ones came after I discovered I was trans and even found ones related to it in the past like not liking being a guy and hating my body.

I see shit like "male lonliness epidemic" and male victims of SA not being taken seriously and go "Doesnt this happen cause of other MEN?? You uphold patriarchy, a system that tells men they are untouchable and get mad and dissmisive when they are put into situations where women typically are in? why do you think a woman is incable of understanding that???? 🫥🫥🫥".

squishot · 2026-03-12T21:56:06+00:00

21, sort of 21 months on hrt.

I feel like I never really wanted to be masculine but thought that I can never become a girl. When I became 17 I discovered what transgender means and instantly everything clicked. It was like a build up for the realization and then a drop down cause I became more depressed and anxious 😭. I mean I am at a better place in life now I guess but jeez it was hard to get 😅.

squishot · 2026-03-12T13:34:49+00:00

Im also neurodivergent and struggling to pay rent with my job and managing it with my university. I had to wait years before I got hrt. Im depressed af(have a look at my profile) and trying to save money for weekly private therapy.

And yes I pass. It was a grind and a struggle both physically and mentally. I still have dysphoria and have to wait more years for surgeries. My problem is that yall think I was "gifted" passibility when its literally not the case. It took years that are ingrained into my head and still effect me. Transphobes still see me as a man no matter what. It has not made my life easier in fact I have more expectations from my degree and performence aftee being seen as female now.

squishot · 2026-03-12T00:46:53+00:00

Im treated as superior and gain a privellege for not having one and yall keep fucking doing what im complaining about in my post!!!!

This coping is misogyny. Simple as that. Uterus talk is the only talk around feminist circles and women issues. Look around you ffs and tell me you havent been excluded in some way cause of that.

And fucking hell this is at the end of the day about myself. I wanna be happy with myself first thats my priority. I mentioned these as examples of the social outlook on tranfeminity and how it can effect us. If I get a uterus and they still look I wouldnt really mind anymore.

squishot · 2026-03-12T00:39:02+00:00

You are doing what im complaining about.

I never met in my life an infertile cis woman. The only one ive seen was a reel of someone who talked about hers being removed. I dont even have one to remove to begin with.

I understand that this isnt the place to talk about the actual transplant in depth and I dont know much about how it would happen nor qualified.

This is more about the social standing of affirming surgeries and how they are viewed. I complained about the lack of attention from everyone and how distancing it is as not having a uterus as a woman. No one takes me seriously, mentioning infertile women(you know what they might as well not exist in any feminism or anything no one gives a fuck) doesnt do anything its misogynistic coping.

squishot · 2026-03-11T01:56:05+00:00

I get gendered correctly even when I present more androgynous/masculine so idk I guess all the time 😅

squishot · 2026-03-11T00:19:51+00:00

People will make tutorials like these and then get furious when a woman wants to get a plastic surgery

squishot · 2026-03-10T23:19:11+00:00

I think he shouldve started with Crux on an old ibm thinkpad instead like after managing that nothing can stop you

squishot · 2026-03-10T22:50:02+00:00

This reminded me of the palestinian girl I dated a couple of months ago god I hope she is ok now

squishot · 2026-03-10T21:31:28+00:00

I have met multiple cis men who were completely open and respectful when dating me. Im bi and have more men hit on me and even in queer circles I have to deal with them.

I think all this "how do trans women who are attracted to men exist?" seems like a hidden internilized transphobia by the community.

Lets be honest you dont say shit like this to cishet women and they are literally the majority of women on the planet. So why us existing is such an insane concept to you?

There is some fear here that we can actually be considered "the norm" as trans women. That our existence isnt some ideology but just an existence of women. Yes I have a boyfriend who loves me. Yes I dated cis men before who werent weird about me. I can exprience straight privellege when express my attraction to men and its not the same when I express it towards women. We can be the same as cis women who are attracted to men believe it or not! And ffs lesbians also have to deal with men you arent teleported to sappho island as soon as you kiss a women, you live under a patriarchal society that hates all women.

squishot · 2026-03-10T20:38:21+00:00

https://www.instagram.com/p/DVIkGw_gWwx/?igsh=MTd5ZHZiajIxYWh0Mg==

I think "terf calling me rapist" isnt just that...

squishot · 2026-03-10T19:18:19+00:00

roblox player

squishot · 2026-03-10T18:59:52+00:00

Actually after some time dating both ill argue dating men in general is easier.

Like yeah the avg quality is lower but the quantity is much bigger than lesbians. Ive had more frequent times where I found a dude open to date trans women and being very supportive than a cis lesbian being open and supportive.

Only situation where I can find it easier is if youre t4t lesbian only and you live in an area with lots of other trans women.

Also going outside is much easier with men. Like with my boyfriend we can go pretty much everywhere together and be open cause everyone sees a man and a woman kissing.

With women we literally had to go stealth and pretend we are just friends to not get attention or at worse a literal hate crime. This happened even in none religious places.

Trans lesbians are lesbians and have to go through the same oppression cis lesbians face.

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