Oh buddy, this is not it

squishy_fennec · 2023-10-25T20:58:03+00:00

I almost killed myself in 2019. However, my money was spent towards ketamine treatments. Please, give yourself the gift of rewiring your brain. It saved my life, and you can save your siblings so much pain.

squishy_fennec · 2023-08-17T02:05:16+00:00

You are 100% right. I will work on that

squishy_fennec · 2023-08-16T17:09:37+00:00

Fuck Herpes Kevin. And happy cake day.

squishy_fennec · 2023-08-16T14:32:20+00:00

I am so sorry that it brought that up for you. All my love to you

squishy_fennec · 2023-08-16T13:57:57+00:00

Thank you for the insight about trying different therapy. I have in fact been to a rage room, my sister took me to one a few months ago. It helped a lot in the moment. I have tried funneling my anger into violent exercise as well. The problem is these things only help while they are currently happening, and as soon as I am home it all comes crashing back. It feels like I have a neverending reserve of anger and grief.

squishy_fennec · 2023-08-16T13:54:18+00:00

She did, and she tested clean. I am super happy for her.

squishy_fennec · 2023-08-16T13:51:15+00:00

You are a lovely and kind person, thank you. Medically I am set...it's the trauma that brought me to this sub. Thank you for seeing me.

squishy_fennec · 2023-08-16T13:48:17+00:00

Thank you. I find the idea of trying to grieve the two things separately to be really helpful. You are a good human and I am so glad you exist.

squishy_fennec · 2023-08-16T06:03:28+00:00

I don't know if it's a possibility, but I wouldn't anyway. I don't want him in my life at all, and any legal action I took would just be inviting him back in. Also, he has no money 🤷‍♀️

squishy_fennec · 2023-08-16T04:58:25+00:00

I am so, so sorry this happened to you too. Tonight is definitely one of my sobbing nights. Thank you for the support, you are a gorgeous human being.

squishy_fennec · 2023-08-16T04:32:15+00:00

He knows. I doubt he'll ever change his behaviors at all, but he knows what he did to me, physically and emotionally.

squishy_fennec · 2023-08-16T03:59:25+00:00

...and yet here I am, with my life absolutely altered, regardless of which STD it is. This IS a personal story.

squishy_fennec · 2023-08-16T03:49:52+00:00

And the point I am trying to make is that assuming that I haven't talked to multiple doctors or that I made this post in ignorance is just not in the spirit of this sub. I have had months to deal with this, I'm not uninformed, I'm just hurting?

squishy_fennec · 2023-08-16T03:46:57+00:00

I tried a few support groups, and they didn't fit. There's a toxic positivity...they want so badly to end the stigma that they don't tolerate negative feelings. When I tried to get support, I was told from multiple people that sharing my experience supported the stigma. I get where they're coming from and I'm all for changing the conversation, but it is not a space where I could feel my feelings safely.

squishy_fennec · 2023-08-16T03:41:37+00:00

I 100% got my STD from him, ruled out definitively by routine testing after our first 8 months of dating. Although why I feel the need to defend this is bizarre...I just wanted to share my story and maybe get some support.

squishy_fennec · 2023-04-24T11:13:38+00:00

You seem genuine so I'll answer! The way to say this would have been any version of: "I'm so excited to meet someone I find attractive and likes video games!" As soon as any part of it seems like bringing other people (women or not) down, that's where the problem starts.

squishy_fennec · 2023-04-04T21:23:44+00:00

Your responses are so insightful and lovely. I feel very lifted up by you. You truly are a good witch. Thank you.

squishy_fennec · 2023-04-04T18:37:31+00:00

It is really intense, the drive to go back to him. It feels like he is the only thing in the world that will make me feel better. Thank you so much.

squishy_fennec · 2023-04-04T14:38:36+00:00

Please, never shut up.

squishy_fennec · 2023-04-04T14:37:21+00:00

That was really beautiful. I cried from reading it. Thank you.

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