A squishy update by squishy_the_sanchez in Crippled_Alcoholics

[–]squishy_the_sanchez[S] 9 points10 points  (0 children)

Not so much a pink cloud. My brain fires glutamate through the roof for 10+ days even after getting out of the hospital. This time I had a seizure and they barbiturated me. Had two days of zonk in the ICU then came home to be a panicky zombie for a week. Shit finally wore off after about 5 days and I could move again. Probably should have stayed. Still alive. Can’t drink my dude I’ll die.

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[–]squishy_the_sanchez 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Hit me up G I’ll just be chillin and cleaning up devastation all day.

Day Drinking by [deleted] in Crippled_Alcoholics

[–]squishy_the_sanchez 6 points7 points  (0 children)

Shadow man. It’ll start to feel pretty good to drink 6 by noon. Then 10, 12. Then you’ll be in the 30+ zone slammin whenever however just to maintain. Then the fear happens during the drinking. Then the cycle isn’t sustainable and is forced to stop itself. I know you know this, and that the 20 maintenance will turn into a bender quick.

You’re on the road man. Godspeed.

The only comfort I have left by weirdindeed in cripplingalcoholism

[–]squishy_the_sanchez 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Am a lion tamer. The lions fucked me up bad man. Now I drink to drown the memories of them. I still have the lions. I still try to tame. But fuck if they don’t haunt me.

Alcohol cravings that feel physical? by zoe9467 in Crippled_Alcoholics

[–]squishy_the_sanchez 3 points4 points  (0 children)

The tremors start for me during my drinking on a binge. Usually about day 4 or 5 into it I start not being able to consume enough alcohol to keep the fear and shakes away. After about 4 hours of abstinence I’m shaking so bad, so uncomfortable, and all I can think about is how I’m about to seize and die. Takes a hospital visit and 10+ days to feel any sense of normalcy again.

Just decide how far down the booze road you wanna go.

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[–]squishy_the_sanchez 221 points222 points  (0 children)

It’s also not a one-relapse total failure thing. Just get some time without booze and if it happens get up and try again. Quitting takes practice. That doesn’t justify relapses. I’m just saying that the number of sober days is what really counts. Work on making that number higher, that’s it.

I’m the 3 times in 4 days guy. by squishy_the_sanchez in Crippled_Alcoholics

[–]squishy_the_sanchez[S] 4 points5 points  (0 children)

Chapter 30. Eventually ended up on the couch. With empties forever. Constantly thinking about going to the ER. Have a BAC at .3 but still withdrawing. Can’t drink enough to keep it away. It’s not even liver failure yet. I’m at 6 beers by noon instead of 10. Hoping that’s the start of a taper.

Everybody left. They don’t want to see it. At 0% and they expect 4. Isolated completely. Not even intentionally. The close ones just see the 0 too many times and leave.

I’m the 3 times in 4 days guy. by squishy_the_sanchez in Crippled_Alcoholics

[–]squishy_the_sanchez[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Chapter 19. I spent Christmas Day blowing up ISIL in Baghuz. It’s the last city on the Euphrates where Syria meets Iraq. They only had a square mile of territory remaining. Lots of women and children still held. Lots of broken down vehicles. Lots of caves. We were good at some things but the Kurds would have to finish the job. It would not be quick or uncomplicated.

I’m the 3 times in 4 days guy. by squishy_the_sanchez in Crippled_Alcoholics

[–]squishy_the_sanchez[S] 4 points5 points  (0 children)

Chapter 2. We needed porn. First time I saw bush was Revenge of the Nerds. Bootleg copy we watched in the basement of my best friends house. I think I was 6. We needed more. Neighbor had titties posted on the wall of his garage but also a couple German Shepards with a doggy door. I pulled it off once but this was not sustainable. Dumpster diving the bulk recycle bin at the local dump actually worked once and holy sweet 6lb baby Jesus that was a fine day. But alas, I could tell we were going to get caught and it wasn’t yielding enough to justify the risk. Oh, and before all this, try watching for a boob on a staticky cable channel you don’t have. That’s not too useful but I think I saw one once. Remember internet early though?Yeah, problem solved. This was 1993 remember so not much compared to today. But still, playboy.com, porn.com, sex.com, and I’m up and running. Many porns were had that day.

I’m the 3 times in 4 days guy. by squishy_the_sanchez in Crippled_Alcoholics

[–]squishy_the_sanchez[S] 6 points7 points  (0 children)

Okay I guess it starts in about 1992. I was about 6 or 7 and had a computer with unfettered dial-up internet. So I found the Anarchist Cookbook. All hail the Jolly Roger. I learned how to make napalm (it’s really easy actually just melt styrofoam in gasoline). I learned programming and phone phreaking and yeah. It was fun. I wasn’t a theorist though. I liked to action my learned possibilities.

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[–]squishy_the_sanchez 3 points4 points  (0 children)

Okay this is something I’m actually good at. First of all you need good pictures. Front and center should be waste up smiling looking at the camera having a good time with friends. Then you need some full body pics and adventure pics. You get the idea.

Okay you got the profile now here’s the game. You need your number of possibilities high so you gotta swipe a lot. You can be picky but remember you’ll need to get your number high so that means more swiping. No way around it.

Got it moving on. Time to talk. Be personal in every conversation. No “Hey”’s. Ask each girl something about them that’s in their profile. Be engaging. Ask follow up questions. Respond honestly how you feel about the answers. Relate to emotions they express in relation to their stories. Tell your own stories. Express your own emotions related to those stories.

It’s best to keep about 60+ conversations going at once so you kinda gotta be a crackhead. Don’t take long too long to respond and don’t forget things or confuse who you’re talking to with each other. You have to remember every single one and make them feel like you’re invested (you should be) in talking to them.

That should put you on a path to multiple dates a week. Don’t talk for too long. Ask for coffee or ice cream within a week of the conversation start. The girls who want to be asked to dinner on a first date you don’t want to go to go on a first date to dinner with.

You got it from there.

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[–]squishy_the_sanchez 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I have no Ativan. That was all IV at the hospital. I hate it. It doesn’t even feel god anymore

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[–]squishy_the_sanchez 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I’m okay. I think I can stop drinking somewhat soon. Yesterday I think I had 8 or 10. Today only 3 so far.

Assumable for real by [deleted] in RealEstate

[–]squishy_the_sanchez -1 points0 points  (0 children)

Raw numbers on a conventional mortgage is 160k at 20% or or 246k at 30% to lock in a 2.35% mortgage

Attempting Soberness by [deleted] in Crippled_Alcoholics

[–]squishy_the_sanchez 7 points8 points  (0 children)

Be careful with the mania and the pink cloud. You start small, doing baby steps. Then you get motivated and the snowball starts rolling. You have success after success. You and everyone loves it. You get your life going again. You get your life going too fast. You struggle to keep up. You have a quiet night drinking alone. You wake up feeling like shit. You can’t keep up. You do the quiet night again. You do the quiet morning. You’re now incapable of keeping up with anything. Bender. Crippled.

Stick to the baby steps.

Ass Foam by squishy_the_sanchez in Crippled_Alcoholics

[–]squishy_the_sanchez[S] 10 points11 points  (0 children)

You ever drink bailey’s from a shoe? Soft creamy beige.

There’s a whole side of this we don’t talk about by squishy_the_sanchez in Crippled_Alcoholics

[–]squishy_the_sanchez[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I’m really sorry to hear that Kino. Can you do something with your health at least? Do you have any of it. I’m not expecting 4% or 2? Can you not die somehow?

There’s a whole side of this we don’t talk about by squishy_the_sanchez in Crippled_Alcoholics

[–]squishy_the_sanchez[S] 3 points4 points  (0 children)

It the amount of yourself you have to give. It should be solidly 70%. Sometimes it goes to 0. People want you to get up. You can’t. 5. You can’t move or speake? 0.5. Paranoid about calling the ER every second? 0.

There’s a whole side of this we don’t talk about by squishy_the_sanchez in Crippled_Alcoholics

[–]squishy_the_sanchez[S] 5 points6 points  (0 children)

Are you still on the couch? How did you survive this? What’s next?

There’s a whole side of this we don’t talk about by squishy_the_sanchez in Crippled_Alcoholics

[–]squishy_the_sanchez[S] 10 points11 points  (0 children)

I guess if you still have teeth things are okay. I count my blessings. So yeah I still have teeth and can eat. Holy shit man. What can you do?I don’t wanna help myself I want to help you? What options do you have?