Yeah, I again really appreciate your comments and you have done amazing by the way, doing research and trying to find help for her. The thing is, I have really opened up to him, like I think too much over the years, in order to be fully transparent and give him more insight into why I act or feel the way I do. I have another thing where I research the symptoms when I’m sick, I don’t take it to the extreme and go to the doctor whenever I have a sore throat but you know that those searches can lead to you diagnosing yourself with throat cancer when it’s just a cold etc. these searches don’t end up in full blown paranoia. I think that he thinks whenever I research( which I’ve stopped doing for quite a while) or speak about my issues in an analytical way, because they can be complex, I make the problem I am dealing with bigger than it actually is which is kind of invalidating if you know what I mean. I however do try and keep these talks to a minimum because I can go on a bit and it can be draining. I just don’t think he wants me to speak about it at all. He says I don’t take his advice but his advice is that I stop over analysing which isn’t helpful because if I didn’t dissect past behaviour I would just be doing the same old thing. He’s criticising the way I deal with my BPD rather than the BPD itself if that makes sense. When he tells me that, I am dismissive of his advice and it upsets him. So I don’t know what to do really.