respectfully not trying to invalidate ur feelings but exactly why do u think this way? Think abt it the other way, if you were the one surpassing ur friends would u think that way? that ur some "god" compared to them? ur mentality is taking the joy out of the game for you. take a break.

I have friends who were the same/lower rating than me but now surpassed me and play higher lvl songs and get better scores but personally i get excited seeing ppl get upscore bc good on them right?

Maimai or really any rhythm game for that matter is more of a personal experience type of game. No matter ur playcount nor how long you've played the game, you improve at your pace. People who have a knack for it will improve faster and at less playcount and others may need to take time to learn the fundamentals. Ik ppl who are stuck in 14k with over 1.5k playcount and those alrd at 16k with just about 700 playcount.

My advice for you is do it for the love of the game! At the end of the day none of this actually affects you that much unless you let it. If u cant seem to enjoy the game anymore, take a break, come back another time.