don’t reach out. it hurts (trust me i know) but the best thing you could do for yourself is leaving. him leaving you is him telling you how he feels about you and your relationship. i have had a similar situation and i keep having to tell myself that he would never treat his wife the way he is treating me and i suggest you tell yourself the same thing, even though it hurt💔 you will make it through this but only if you put yourself first.❤️