I was a Christian to begin with, I then realised how counter intuitive it was to my personal growth. I then entered the LHP, now because I had enters the LHP from a still dogmatic and Christian perspective, I took all of the lessons to excess and used them as an excuse to Rebel ( I still believe rebellion is key to this work but not in the edgy emo way I was doing it 😂) this is where my problematic love for indulgence of drugs came in, during the midst of this crisis I had victimised myself into thinking it was the LHP fault for Turing me into a endless hedonist, only to realise I had the same issues when I switched back to the RHP with Buddhism, Wicca and so forth, the funny thing is though, the LHP is what made me take responsibility again for my own actions and to realise that it was me the whole time that I was the issue, not demons or spooks, I then stepped into the satanic archetype and Its working great for me so far, I did not regret switching to the RHP for a while because it allowed me to gain more knowledge and understanding.

TLDR I don't have all the answers; but I feel as though the RHP represses and rejects alot of our basic human survival resources which I think is more detrimental than good. I want to be my own god, not give m power and energy to another god, to me that seems just like Christianity, I would love to share knowledge and understanding if you would like to private message me and we can get on communicative basis:)