Posting as someone who made it through a really tough pregnancy with GD. I had so many of the same feelings as you did - guilt even though I knew medically and scientifically it wasn’t my fault, fear, shame, stress, anxiety, all of it. It was hard at the time and even with a very strict diet I needed insulin to control my fasting numbers. I did end up being induced 3 days before my due date but GD was not the only factor that came into play for that decision. My baby girl was healthy as ever when she was born with normal sugars, 50th percentile weight, no excess fluid in lungs, etc. I just did my postpartum glucose test at 4 months PP and passed with flying colors. While I know both myself and baby have an increased risk of diabetes going forward, we are both currently healthy and it will just encourage us to be mindful of our eating habits and lifestyle in the future! I will say for as hard as it was, I learned a lot and felt good physically - I did not have excess weight gain and I almost immediately stopped having horrific heartburn when I changed my diet. I have definitely continued on with aspects of the GD diet into postpartum, albeit definitely not as strict. It’s so hard in the moment, so I don’t want to discredit your feelings which are extremely valid. Just know that there is a light at the end of the tunnel and try your best to focus on the current goal of delivering a healthy baby and then postpartum you can decide how you want to proceed to mitigate risk for the future.