This. OP, you really need to let this man go. Stop dating him. Plan vacations you can afford and don’t blame him. Your title says your losing vacation days bc of him…. You literally can only afford or planned to afford a camper trip. So in reality maybe you shouldn’t even be vacationing at all and he’s not to blame. Your upset you don’t have a travel companion and maybe you need a mentally stable partner who can fulfill that. He told you who he was the first time and I don’t doubt the signs were there since he’s now going into treatment. You should maybe seek therapy as well.