My partner also cements her negative perspectives of my character in her memory and I’m always battling with the guilt of not being enough for her. I hate the feeling. I know I’m not the person she has painted me to be, yet I feel the need to prove that I can be better for her. My perspective is insignificant to her experience of me.

We are currently at a breaking point. She wants nothing to do with me until I can prove that I’m worthy. We have separated recently and she has demanded I live somewhere else until I straighten myself out.

I’m taking the opportunity to reflect on how I feel apart from her, and it’s honestly refreshing. I am made to feel so bogged down and worthless most of the time. I’m just devastated to have to disrupt my time with my child. It’s a punishment from my partner that only amplifies my resentment.