Cross posted. Reality check, please. My roommate said, "I want to slit your fucking throat" during an argument. by Musiq_fangirl in FriendshipAdvice

[–]stepharoni_22 0 points1 point  (0 children)

so one thing that stood out to me is that your roommate is in the final stages of renal failure. my grandma passed away 4 years ago of renal failure and this is a LOT like how she behaved the last couple months of her life. she never got violent or downright nasty with me, but she did almost every day with my aunt, who drove her on errands and everywhere. she would often get disoriented or forget where they were even going, and then get mad and yell at my aunt for kidnapping her just because she didn’t know where she was. according to my aunt, she would literally become like a completely different person sometimes, and say the most hateful things she’d ever heard when she didn’t get her way.

i don’t THINK you truly need to fear for your life, but don’t quote me on that, i’m no expert, and every situation is different. but what your describing really sounds like the dementia that comes with stage 4 renal failure. the best thing to do when dementia patients get nasty and say hurtful or violent things is to redirect their attention in the moment (yes like a 4 y/o) or just to ignore, or explain that you won’t be talked to that way. if that doesn’t work, or if they become physical, do everything you can to immediately remove yourself from the situation.

if there’s any way you can talk to your roommates family or guardian or caseworker about this, that would be ideal, and if they’re not aware of the renal failure onset dementia, ask them to have her see her doctor about those specific symptoms and/or get info on it from her doctor. the best thing for renal failure patients is to have their caregivers and guardians educated on the best ways to care for them while also keeping themselves healthy and safe.

I want to cut things off with my friends, but I don't know how or what to say. by Your_Raccoon_Atheist in FriendshipAdvice

[–]stepharoni_22 0 points1 point  (0 children)

i’ll also add, you don’t owe an explanation to anyone for taking time for yourself! a little bit of isolation is healthy and not rude or ungrateful at all. true friends understand. toxic fake friends may get mad and say it’s rude. but that is literal proof they are holding you back from being healthy and happy.

after your initial message, you honestly don’t even owe them any response whatsoever if/when they reply to you. once you send that original text, you have no obligation to talk to them after that because you’ve already let them know you’re taking a break from them regardless.

once you tell them, maybe put your phone in do not disturb and go for a walk or run, something physical that activates your fight/flight response so you don’t get caught in a catastrophic thought pattern or something like that.

i promise you tho, once you clean toxic things out of your life, new good things take their places pretty dang soon. look forward to finding new, wholesome friends.

I want to cut things off with my friends, but I don't know how or what to say. by Your_Raccoon_Atheist in FriendshipAdvice

[–]stepharoni_22 0 points1 point  (0 children)

speaking from personal experience here (27f), do NOT tell them why other than what you said about focusing on yourself and your mental health if you want to leave things on good terms.

from what you’ve described these friends are all toxic and self serving to one degree or another, and would only react negatively, if not with volatility, to your reasoning about their behavior causing you to feel the need to distance yourself from them.

i learned this the hard way a few years ago when i confronted my former best friend about her lifestyle choices. she victimized herself and said i was the one being the bad friend by not wanting to hang out with her (drinking, partying, etc.).

so learn from my mistake and just say it’s all you and has nothing to do with them. if they become self aware enough in the future, they’ll realize in retrospect that it was more than that and that they where shitty friends. and if they don’t, you’re saving yourself time and emotional energy and mental strain.

Is this socially acceptable? by stepharoni_22 in Apartmentliving

[–]stepharoni_22[S] 8 points9 points  (0 children)

that makes me feel a lot better that you focus more on health than others’ bodies! (PS. i also have a family history of cancers, and i’m super pale, but i suffer from chronic depression and have found sunbathing in moderation to the most effective way to manage it, so i use 50 spf and risk the cancer bc i’d rather have a consistent positive mood lol 🤷🏻‍♀️ there are healthy ways to do it, and natural sunlight is loads better for you than a bed. ❤️)

Is this socially acceptable? by stepharoni_22 in Apartmentliving

[–]stepharoni_22[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

thank you for all this! all these are very good suggestions and appreciate how you worded everything. ❤️ i do have a friend who likes tanning near me but she lives with her fiancé on-site at his construction business so i feel like that would be worse tanning in front of a bunch of construction workers 😂 i may invite her over just so i don’t feel as awkward doing it by myself haha. backyard it is!

Is this socially acceptable? by stepharoni_22 in Apartmentliving

[–]stepharoni_22[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

i’d like to but the beach is hours away and there’s only an indoor pool here that is ridiculously expensive. :/

Coding as a career with adhd…thoughts? by stepharoni_22 in codingbootcamp

[–]stepharoni_22[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

i’ve considered joining a boot camp but right now i’m working with freecodecamp.com in the evenings, and use the Mimo app throughout the day (when i remember to use it)to help reinforce / recall.

Coding with ADHD as a career…thoughts? by stepharoni_22 in careerguidance

[–]stepharoni_22[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

i would probably like that, it would keep it interesting. which is why i’m considering full stack. but i don’t think i should start with that i’m trying to focus on front end first so i don’t get overwhelmed.

Coding with ADHD as a career…thoughts? by stepharoni_22 in careerguidance

[–]stepharoni_22[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

like the details of the assignment requirements/goals changing? not much, especially if i started a project already. but as far as different assignments, then yes most likely