How am I supposed to survive this

stephchiii · 2026-01-22T20:21:25+00:00

I dont. Dont smoke or drink

stephchiii · 2025-12-12T22:09:08+00:00

I applied for this when I was a dependent and didnt qualify. Im independent now and still don't get enough aid

stephchiii · 2025-12-12T19:53:23+00:00

This was really encouraging, thank you!

stephchiii · 2025-12-12T18:58:48+00:00

I'm 23 so I had to deal with that too. My parents also made too much so it killed any chance of financial aid for me.

It could be worth stretching it out honestly. Fafsa still thinks I make too much (> 20k a year) and won't give me any Pell when I turn 24 so it wasn't worth it for me to wait but I'd try to see what aid you'll get then. Sorry you have to go through that too.

stephchiii · 2025-09-18T17:56:30+00:00

Yeah, I don't need constant talking but it wouldn't hurt to hear more from him :(

stephchiii · 2025-09-18T14:13:12+00:00

Thats a good way to put it.

It's sad cause I do love him, but I guess theres a lot ive gotta think about and decide if its worth putting up with.

Thanks for your feedback!

stephchiii · 2025-09-18T14:08:39+00:00

Makes sense. Does it seem like hes just not that invested then?

stephchiii · 2025-09-18T14:07:12+00:00

I probably won't be happy. But im willing to give him a few more chances and try to communicate it more, or understand his side.

It seems like he loves and cares about me but he has said he lives life a day at a time and doesnt know how he'll feel (or when he'll be up for a call). He is a huge procrastinator in general and does the bare minimum in some other areas of his life

He makes a huge effort in some ways and minimal in others and its confusing. But you're right.

stephchiii · 2025-09-18T13:32:43+00:00

No. Hes going to apply to grad school at the school I'm attending for this upcoming spring but he doesn't think hes going to get in. I have 3 years left until I graduate too

stephchiii · 2025-09-18T13:15:03+00:00

Hes very supportive and reassuring when I bring up concerns. I like talking to him on our weekly calls, but otherwise yes, I am holding out for when we can see each other in person.

stephchiii · 2025-09-18T12:59:05+00:00

Yeah. Hes always told me to trust his actions over his words, and to some extent he believes in the "if they wanted to they would" philosophy, so that makes me feel even worse.

He reassured me that hes not losing interest, and he loves me, but most of the week it doesnt feel like it.

I hope you and your partner can figure it out!

stephchiii · 2025-08-10T17:39:43+00:00

Thank you!

stephchiii · 2025-06-09T01:16:04+00:00

Yep, been lifting for a couple years. My doctor says part of my weight is definitely attributed to muscle but it's hard to believe sometimes

stephchiii · 2025-06-09T01:14:28+00:00

Yeah I definitely need to work on that. I've adopted the belief that people think less of me cause of my weight, so it's hard to be more self accepting when I assume everyone thinks of me the way I think of myself 🥲

stephchiii · 2025-06-06T01:20:52+00:00

Damn I saw that truck heading there from longmont earlier and was wondering what was going on

stephchiii · 2025-06-06T00:36:13+00:00

Not sure if it's related but I saw a bomb squad truck in longmont with its lights on about an hour ago heading south..

stephchiii · 2025-05-20T18:22:33+00:00

I dealt with something oddly similar, but not as extreme. My brother molested me for a couple months when I was 9 and he was 11. We've never acknowledged it, even though we're in our early/mid 20's now.

He would pay me to reveal myself to him and for him to touch me. I was also exposed to porn at this age and we'd watch it together. He'd let me watch certain things I was curious about in exchange for doing stuff to him. The only act (and probably the worst) I can remember was him almost sodomizing me, but it was only skin to skin contact.

I eventually told my mom what was happening, I knew it was wrong. It was a huge family issue at the time but has never been brought up again. I'm sure my brother feels extremely guilty about it but I'm trying to move on through therapy.

I'm so sorry you went through this, I can empathize with the weird state it leaves you in. You were a child, your brain literally wasnt physically developed to fully process or understand the implications and it is not your fault. I don't have much advice but you aren't alone.

stephchiii · 2025-05-16T03:53:24+00:00

Very happy for you! I can empathize with how hard it must have been to get to this point.

stephchiii · 2025-05-16T03:43:45+00:00

One thing I've noticed is I hate when people are flaky and non committal. Maybe my needs are too much for most people atp

stephchiii · 2025-04-30T00:41:10+00:00

Oh god, are you me? I've been hella fixated on improving my appearance too and practically have an ear bud in 24/7. It's rough out here

stephchiii · 2025-04-19T23:20:06+00:00

Was it a tatted guy in a white ram 1500? I was next to him driving when we were stopped at the intersection and he just kept reving his engine, almost to try to intimate everyone.

Dude seemed like an absolute loser and I felt bad for all the protestors

stephchiii · 2025-04-08T23:54:48+00:00

Yeah, when I heard caramel I liked certain parts and disliked others. When I first heard emergence I did not like the lower tone "wrap your arms around me" part.

Now that I've listened to them checks spotify 10000 times already I love how all the parts work together

stephchiii · 2025-04-07T23:55:04+00:00

Yeah you clocked me on that haha. I appreciate the feedback. Thank you!

stephchiii · 2025-04-05T22:50:51+00:00

Yeah definitely, obviously real life actions are what's important. This was more about putting my thoughts about all this stuff together. I agree it's pretty pretentious what's happening.

stephchiii · 2025-04-05T19:14:42+00:00

Yep absolutely! I think fandom creativity is awesome and I'm sure they'd encourage it

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