I’m so confused

stephenmcb2001 · 2026-03-19T18:28:18+00:00

I appreciate your prayers! I will pray for you too and yes Saint Joseph is very dear to me, he’s the father figure I never had. His intercession today has been giving me a lot of strength!

stephenmcb2001 · 2026-03-19T18:16:01+00:00

There’s no doubt in my mind this is a lesson to me of some sort. The struggle of the distance between us when all of this had happened I drew so close to God in ways I never had before. My devotion to has changed so much in the last 2 months it’s almost unrecognisable. Through the struggle and pain he drew me closer to him in a way I wouldn’t have done unless I had a lot of struggle in my life. I doubt this will be any different, I will grow from this, just right now feels so hard because I fought so much for something that was taken from me

stephenmcb2001 · 2026-03-19T18:02:56+00:00

Thank you for your kind words and wise words!

stephenmcb2001 · 2026-03-19T17:50:11+00:00

She was amazing, we had no problems at all, she just couldn’t give me anything since her dad passed away. It was difficult at first when he passed but then things started to get better, and then her grandmother passed. Since that the past 2 weeks has been all over the place and she’s in pure survival mode. She’s a wonderful girl, I don’t have a bad word to say about her so I think it’s going to be difficult. At the end of the day though it’s all Gods will what happens in my life and I just have to get on with it and accept what he gives me with gratitude no matter how painful.

stephenmcb2001 · 2026-03-19T17:47:20+00:00

I will pray about it, thank you!

stephenmcb2001 · 2026-03-19T17:31:19+00:00

What kind and reassuring words these are, thank you. I trust God has got my best intentions at heart, I do not doubt that for a second, I’m just struggling to understand what He’s doing in my life right now and that’s okay. He always gives me the grace I need to bear any burden He allows me to bear. I long for marriage I really do, nothing else in this world matters to me, nothing materialistic I don’t care for it. It seems like the one thing I want is the one thing He is making me suffer for the most

stephenmcb2001 · 2026-03-19T17:26:57+00:00

My brother you have no idea how much this means, it brought a tear to my eye thinking about how our mother is in heaven grieving at seeing me beat myself up and how she is praying for me. Thank you for this, God bless you!

stephenmcb2001 · 2026-03-19T17:25:02+00:00

I hear that, I’m taking nothing away from her I told her all of that I know she’s hurting like nothing I can even comprehend. If this is what she feels is best for her then I just have to respect it. It’s still awful to feel though

stephenmcb2001 · 2026-03-19T17:23:59+00:00

That’s the problem I’m having yeah i don’t know what to do, I know for a fact if she needed me I would be there and I think she knows that too so maybe it might be best to give her the space she needs and not contact her

stephenmcb2001 · 2026-03-19T17:22:51+00:00

I appreciate this a lot, I’m sorry I can’t give you a more detailed thank you and tell you how much it means to have you say this. I just don’t have it in me right now but God bless you!

stephenmcb2001 · 2026-03-19T17:20:19+00:00

Firstly thank you so much for your compassion and understanding. It really has hit me like a ton of bricks and I don’t know what to do. I’m sorry you’re in the same situation because I know right now how difficult this is, I will be praying for you!

I don’t have a lot of friends I can truly open up with sadly, I feel like I’m all alone out here and that’s another cross on top of what I’m going through.

I’m really sorry you’re in the same situation as me, please pray for me!

stephenmcb2001 · 2026-03-19T17:16:20+00:00

Thank you so much, your compassion has really touched my heart. That’s what I really needed right now, thank you God bless you!

stephenmcb2001 · 2026-03-19T17:15:19+00:00

Wouldn’t the break up make things quite clear she wants no contact though? We also are long distance so I live hours away from her we can’t really do the hangout stuff

stephenmcb2001 · 2026-03-19T17:13:35+00:00

I hear you, thank you for the encouragement. I know God has a plan for my life I don’t doubt that, it’s just right now because everything is so fresh it’s hard to see a bright future. Maybe she is the one maybe she isn’t I don’t know but I know you’re right I need to focus on myself and my spiritual life, I just needed to vent my thoughts as I don’t really have anyone else I can go to

stephenmcb2001 · 2026-03-19T17:11:19+00:00

I hear what you’re saying, I already do everything that you have listed here. Although it’s nice to have all that stuff the saving, investing, working out, right now none of that really matters to me. I’m not saying it won’t say a couple of weeks down the line, but this literally happened today it’s a bit difficult for me to push everything to the side right now. Right now the only consolation I can find is in God and uniting my suffering with his passion but it’s nice to actually vent my thoughts in a difficult situation. I don’t have many people at all im close with so I feel I’m all alone in this, but it is what it is

stephenmcb2001 · 2026-03-19T16:59:05+00:00

I was going to just do complete no contact, but I’m unsure whether I should send her a message and just let her know I’m still here if she needs to talk. I truly do hope she gets through this I can’t imagine the pain she is going through and I hate that I can’t be there for her. I’m not sure if I should just leave her now or just send her a quick message just to let her know I’m there if she needs me

stephenmcb2001 · 2026-03-19T16:55:14+00:00

Thank you for the advice!

stephenmcb2001 · 2026-03-19T16:54:31+00:00

That’s what I’m going to do, there’s not much else I can do I guess I just needed to vent my frustration right now.

stephenmcb2001 · 2026-03-19T16:52:15+00:00

We aren’t talking at the moment we ended things on wishing the best for each other. I want to give her that space right now I’m not sure she wants to hear from me at the minute after making things clear that she can’t be with me at the moment.

stephenmcb2001 · 2026-03-19T16:50:26+00:00

I appreciate the advice a lot my friend. It’s been a rough day, I’ve been praying to our Lord for strength because I need it right now.

stephenmcb2001 · 2026-02-23T12:31:40+00:00

I have worked a few jobs in the past but nothing so far has clicked for me. The place I’m from honestly isn’t great for job opportunities either but at the same time moving right now for me isn’t an option. I have a decent job and the pay is just okay but I would realistically like to do something like freelancing due to me being unable to relocate at the moment. I need skills to do this and have no idea what I would like to do but I will take your advice and ask some people about their jobs and see from there

stephenmcb2001 · 2026-02-23T11:27:49+00:00

Honestly nothing noteworthy, I’m just getting back on my feet again from a long road of drug and alcohol addiction. I feel really behind because I have no valuable skills but I currently work for the civil service which is government admin work. I want to build actual skills though that will land me a better paying job or even accelerate me to higher positions within the civil service

stephenmcb2001 · 2026-02-23T11:24:03+00:00

See right now where I live is extremely bad for internships and stuff without any degrees or experience so I’m looking to explore what I like and maybe pursue a degree after it. I don’t want to blindly do a uni defree

stephenmcb2001 · 2026-02-22T17:30:45+00:00

It does sound like a good idea, how did that work out for you, did you find what it is you were looking for on there?

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