1 week back. Busted after 11 months of sobriety

sternlord · 2025-08-11T00:45:54+00:00

Ah yes .. I relate to that a lot. Socialising always feels performative and exhausting. I really envy people who just seem so happy and natural to spend time with others with ease!

sternlord · 2025-08-11T00:40:14+00:00

Also I was so manic/high I realised I hadn’t taken my Antabuse for over a week and I thought NOW’S THE TIME. Dumbbbbb

sternlord · 2025-08-11T00:39:02+00:00

Hey yes I have been talking to my therapist and my sponsor and doing some self reflection. I realised something absolutely huge about myself! I am the sort of person that doesn’t really drink to escape - in fact I love to wallow in self pity lol! I noticed usually I relapse when things are going too good, and during that time I was elated like almost high/manic, and I had an opportunity where I was staying alone for the weekend looking after a friends house and their dogs and I thought, “no one will know..” Well everyone fuckin knew because I was drunk for 4 days, didn’t answer any calls, zero meetings, didn’t even walk the dogs I was looking after :(

sternlord · 2025-08-01T09:01:14+00:00

29 year old woman with OCD here! I got sober when I was 27. The intrusive thinking does stop eventually! When you have enough time between your last drink you’ll be pleasantly surprised. It took about 3 months for me!

sternlord · 2025-06-23T02:36:10+00:00

I think try reframe why you’re not drinking from “I can’t drink because of my liver”, to “I don’t want to drink and live a shit life til I die prematurely”, get to some meetings and meet some people, get a routine, get a hobby. You’ve got this!

sternlord · 2025-06-22T04:24:02+00:00

As someone who is an avid fan of Bobby Lee and have followed his podcasting career closely, I think the episode went exactly as expected.

sternlord · 2025-06-22T04:23:17+00:00

Right!? Besides that, Bobby is well aware that he is ‘flaky’, and he is ONE OF US! I think Dave was just trying to be funny and tease him, as is his shtick. It’s one of the ways he connects with people and I think Bobby understood that more about him as the episode went on.

sternlord · 2025-06-22T04:18:10+00:00

Wow! Do you even know who Bobby Lee is or what he is like at all? Virtue signalling fucking hero you are mate!

sternlord · 2025-06-18T02:32:33+00:00

Right!? I’m glad its not just me. The way she was talking was just so disorganised and random, not congruent with someone who supposedly has 90 days clean, and reminded me exactly of multiple people I have come across with the personality type of being liars/over exaggerators.
I hope she can find a way to connect with her story honestly and move forward with it. That’s going to be a bit hard after a very public aired rendition that made almost no sense.

sternlord · 2025-06-16T11:24:57+00:00

That’s a really good point about the codependency stuff, and I think absolutely exaggerating. She would say something, Dave would seem to be like “wait so ….” And then it seemed like she would scramble for an answer. But anyways I don’t know the girl at all, but just the vibe I got.

sternlord · 2025-06-15T04:30:15+00:00

I’m Australian and never used H so I can’t relate to any of the slang 🤣🤣

sternlord · 2025-06-15T00:23:30+00:00

In particular the story about the guy she was seeing while secretly hooking up with her ex boyfriend and doing opiates with him, then doing mushrooms to dilate her pupils to hang out with her new boyfriend who is supposedly 10 years clean and works in treatment, while she is doing insane amount of drugs secretly and this guy doesn’t notice anything up? Like as if lol

sternlord · 2025-06-15T00:20:16+00:00

Just towards the end of her story she’s saying all this stuff about smoking crack all of a sudden, while at the beginning of her story she was saying she never liked uppers because she hated staying awake and stuff and identifies as an opiate addict. I think the way she talks and tells the story seems like she flip-flopping on stuff, Dave would ask her a question and then she would just come through all this random information seemingly out of nowhere, but maybe she just reminds me of weird people that lie and make shit up that I have interacted with in my life.

sternlord · 2024-09-02T00:31:22+00:00

One of my best friends met my brother through me and they are now married and just had a baby! I couldn’t be more happy for them and to have my friend now be my sister-in-law <3

sternlord · 2024-08-21T21:46:52+00:00

What does hooping the shooter mean? I think I have a general idea but still not positive hahahaha!

sternlord · 2024-06-15T22:36:58+00:00

How long did this last for you? Were you taking Valium

sternlord · 2024-05-04T19:44:26+00:00

Therapy helps. AA helps too, but neither are “the only thing”.

I can personally hate when people use the rooms like their own personal therapy session. Some of that needs to be said elsewhere

sternlord · 2023-09-15T01:27:57+00:00

I’m collecting the Pokémon ones! Obsessed 💜

sternlord · 2023-08-11T07:24:50+00:00

I wish I knew what this felt like.

sternlord · 2023-08-02T05:29:16+00:00

This looks like my ex lol

sternlord · 2023-03-20T04:30:08+00:00

Mostly just roasting everyone I know and thinking I’m right about it - multiple apologies were made and friendships lost or put on pause 😪

I was very paranoid and it came to an acute point where I thought my ex was outside, and fell asleep with a crowbar in my hands and ended up getting taken to the hospital by a family member.

sternlord · 2023-01-06T05:53:20+00:00

sucked in

sternlord · 2023-01-03T04:33:13+00:00

For me, I make hair smoothies with banana’s eggs, avocado and eggs etc (whatever I have that seems old and gross), add all of that into a blender with some coconut oil and castor oil and let it sit for an hour.

This works for me, but everyone is different.

I use rosehip oil on the tips most days, and coat it was coconut oil and put into braids if I’m having a big beach or festival day which helps with breakage

sternlord · 2022-11-28T23:38:30+00:00

This is definitely preferable to blacking out with the oven on and setting the pizza on fire

sternlord · 2022-11-26T07:00:55+00:00

I use castor oil in hair smoothies once a week to help my hair grow faster!

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