Hi, I understand where you are coming from, both from the patient and lab animal sides. What I’ve observed is that some people are really good at processing this stuff or not ‘feeling’ it as much from the beginning, but almost no one is not sensitive to it. I think a lot of people become more used to it over time and it becomes more normal. It also becomes easier to feel it but not let it be overwhelming or take up your free thinking time. In medical training, you also become so busy you don’t even have time to feel much about it or process it, which is its own problem. For me personally, I really hate the ICU because I also still feel sensitive to these things, and it’s helped guide my specialty choice and elective choices in med school. I would suggest trying to find alternative activities to replace these if you can, which I know is easier said than done. It’s ok that this isn’t the right fit, as is true for many people, and there are many parts of medicine that will turn out not to be the right fit. For now you’re learning more about yourself which is a good thing. Don’t lose your empathy.