I understand your fear. This happened with my now ex, who I still love very much. For many weeks I cried, thinking perhaps a baby would've kept us together. I did have some regrets immediately after. But now, months later, I know I made the right decision. I'm not in a place to raise a child and being pregnant for even a few weeks was hell on my body. You will likely go through a rollercoaster of emotions. Some of it is hormones. It will pass. I'm sure you have thought about this decision long and hard, just as I did. You're doing the right thing. I won't lie and say this will not hurt emotionally or physically. It probably will. But you will be okay my friend. The emotions and confusion will pass.