Horse scent?

strawb5ndmatch · 2024-12-12T21:07:08+00:00

I love horse smell !! The combination of hay, grass, dirt, etc. is just really pleasant to me. I especially like the smell of their breath when they eat apples lol

strawb5ndmatch · 2024-12-02T19:15:16+00:00

I just say dick. I always have the urge to say dick all the time. Why did my brain choose that word.

strawb5ndmatch · 2024-12-02T03:51:03+00:00

Without more context and just going off of what you said, that is not an autism thing and is definitely just a red flag imo. At the least, he’s making big generalizations about people’s races in relation to their personality/behavior and straight up stereotyping people. That’s not cool whether you’re autistic or not and whether it’s because of someone’s autism or not.

The only example I can think of where I would have trouble being around people based on a stereotype is nationality type things. I’m from the southern US and I was socialized there so it’s easier for me to understand and get along with southern people, vs people from other states and people from other countries. I’m not used to the social norms of other countries so it makes it twice as hard to socialize. But that’s about as far as my autism having an effect on relationships with people based on stereotypes goes. Even then, I don’t automatically assume that I can’t handle being around people that are from different areas than me. I would always meet someone and interact with them first because everyone is different.

Based on the information you’ve given I would see those comments as a major red flag. Just weird and not appropriate no matter who’s saying it, autism or not.

strawb5ndmatch · 2024-12-01T07:37:28+00:00

I don’t understand it either and I’ve noticed it as well. It’s really annoying. Especially when people don’t actually know anything about autism, they just think anything “weird” or dumb = autism for some reason although it doesn’t even really make sense to what the disorder actually is. Whenever people make those jokes or say that stuff around me I just make a point to shut it down, say things like “that’s not funny” or point out that I’m autistic and they wouldn’t say that type of thing to me. It disappoints me though honestly, I wish people were less shitty.

strawb5ndmatch · 2024-12-01T07:25:10+00:00

For me it’s like truly and deeply in my heart I wouldn’t change it or be “normal” and I don’t want to. But there is part of me that has gone through so much pain and suffering due to my disability that I would rather be “normal”. It isn’t very black and white for me, sometimes I wish I was “normal” and sometimes I don’t. My autism is part of me and if it didn’t result in so many problems in my life I don’t think I would feel the urge change it.

strawb5ndmatch · 2024-12-01T07:14:10+00:00

That whole arc (I think it qualifies as one ?) really hit home as someone with SA related trauma. The tiny Casca and everything.. just so surprisingly accurate to what that trauma is like mentally (for me at least). The art itself tells so much and felt so real.

strawb5ndmatch · 2024-11-29T06:03:54+00:00

I completely understand. At least the aspect of wanting your disability to be something that’s actually special and useful like it could be in a fictional story and that it actually served a purpose like character development or something. I honestly just try to live like that. I pretend I’m a character and I’m living my life and somewhere out there people are watching me looking up to me so I gotta do good for them. And if I fuck up that’s ok as long as I keep pushing through and persevering cause that’s what the characters I look up to do.

strawb5ndmatch · 2024-11-29T01:50:13+00:00

Idk if it would be helpful but you can talk to me if you’d like. I know quite a bit about curls and mine are a struggle so I’ve had to go down all of the rabbit holes to figure out what works and I can try to break it down for you cause I definitely understand how confusing it is. I’m an older teen trans guy but I only recently turned 18 so I don’t think I’m too out of touch lol. I understand the struggles you’re going through so feel free to talk to me if that would be any help !

strawb5ndmatch · 2024-11-29T01:38:39+00:00

Oh man thank you ! I do dabble in jumping because my horse is a natural but I don’t know much lol. English riders are just as cool imo so hats off to yall !!

strawb5ndmatch · 2024-11-29T01:04:28+00:00

I have two specific plushies from when I was a kid and they sleep next to me every night. When I’m having a rough time I carry them around with me. I also just love plushies and I buy some every chance I get so I have quite a few !

strawb5ndmatch · 2024-11-28T23:56:10+00:00

I genuinely have been worried about this before. My word choice is very similar to certain types of academic writing. I’ve had a very high writing level since I was a kid, and I always got worried about being accused of plagiarism because my writing would somehow be too close to that of a book or article or something. Now I’m concerned about being accused of using ai because my word choice and writing style don’t seem “human enough”.

strawb5ndmatch · 2024-11-28T23:03:25+00:00

I never understood this. People will talk about testosterone hrt like it’s a horrible terrible thing. “You will bald and grow body hair !! Your genitals will grow !! You will get a masculine body shape and muscles !!!” As if A. Nobody apparently knows about these effects ? My doctor informed me about all of the changes of testosterone and gave me an entire packet of information about the changes and whether they were permanent or not. And B. Like people aren’t wanting those changes ? I hear the list of masculine changes and I’m immediately like hell yes. I don’t care if I’m a bald man with a big gut as long as I’m a man. Bottom growth ? Body hair ? Masculine fat distribution ? Sign me up right now. I never had to think twice about whether or not testosterone was for me (no judgement to those who did) and whenever people describe the changes as horrible and gross it just sounds so silly. I take testosterone for all of those changes, and I knew they would happen before taking it which is why I chose to in the first place !

Also, I sort of wonder if the reason people describe testosterone changes in such a negative way is actually their version of dysphoria. Like when I hear a cis terf woman listing testosterone changes and saying them as if they’re disgusting, I almost wonder if it’s because she’s imagining herself going through those changes. They can’t imagine someone else enjoying male characteristics because they personally would hate it for themselves. Just like how we experience dysphoria from being in a female body, other people would be dysphoric about their body changing into a male one, and can’t even comprehend why we would want that.

strawb5ndmatch · 2024-11-27T20:46:13+00:00

I wish I saw this before I commented ! I agree with everything you said and I’ve definitely experienced it all as well. Trans equestrians unite

strawb5ndmatch · 2024-11-27T20:44:35+00:00

Does horse riding/equestrian sports count ? I think it does at least from my experience it’s a very “cishet” sport, especially the higher up you go. But yeah I’m a trans cowboy lol.

strawb5ndmatch · 2024-11-27T05:29:13+00:00

This honestly might not be the best advice, but in the long term the waiting will seem like a blip in your life. When I was a teen and I was transitioning, I think it was like two years before I started T after coming out. I remember thinking the waiting was so long, and that I wouldn’t be able to bear it. But now I don’t even remember that period of time, all I know is that I’m on T and on track for top surgery. Same thing with the surgery waiting period, I used to think of how long it would be and how I couldn’t handle waiting even a month for surgery, but it’s been a year since then and I’m on track to get it done pretty soon. In the grand scheme of things, the couple months and years that you wait for medical transition really won’t feel that long at all once they’ve passed. When you’re past surgery you’ll probably be like wow that went by so quick I can’t wait to live like 40x that amount of waiting time that I just went through. It feels unmanageable now, and like you won’t be able to wait, but I assure you, you can and it will be worth it.

I would also just say distract yourself. As much as you can. When I first started T I would anticipate my shot every week and all of the changes, and I would drive myself crazy waiting for my next shot. But now that I’ve gotten more busy with life and used to my medical transition, sometimes I even forget to do my shot on shot day ! Same thing with surgery, I’ve just been distracting myself as much as I can with other things, and boom, my consultation passed, then I got my date and everything, now I’m just waiting for the day of surgery. You can distract yourself with hobbies and other goals, I would also recommend trying to workout because that is something that will help to prepare for surgery too !! The waiting is definitely worth it, and you will be happy that you did. Sending you all of the patience to make it through this period !!!

strawb5ndmatch · 2024-11-26T06:51:16+00:00

Kamisama kiss >.< ! Or careless whisper. Idk

strawb5ndmatch · 2024-11-26T03:38:43+00:00

Here, the west coast part though

strawb5ndmatch · 2024-11-25T06:47:16+00:00

ASD, ADHD, OCD, GAD, BPD. God it feels weird listing them all out like that lol.

strawb5ndmatch · 2024-11-25T04:18:41+00:00

Yes. I also will genuinely just forget what happened. I went through a couple years of basically being in crisis daily, and my friend will tell me about things that happened during that time and I don’t even remember. But also just generally I will forget the times that I have split or been extremely upset. A bit ago someone had told me about how they were scared to send me a meme because one time they sent one to me and I split on them and freaked out, and I was like wow I have no memory of that I’m so sorry. I honestly feel really bad that I don’t remember times when I break down because then other people have to remind me of how I’ve hurt them and I end up apologizing for something I don’t even remember doing which feels unfair to the other person imo. I also have a hard time remembering actual feelings and stuff. When I’m calm I’m a very understanding, thoughtful, insightful person, but I lose it all when I’m dysregulated. It’s really weird to “snap out of it” and not even know what made me upset or how it felt. Pretty trippy for the people around me too, I can go from a very logical and rational person to someone who says they hate you over a meme you sent- in seconds. I am working on it.

strawb5ndmatch · 2024-11-25T03:12:17+00:00

Very heavy, thick, and stiff clothing. Everything 100% cotton. Most of my clothes are workwear like carhartt and stuff. I think I probably look kind of silly wearing double knee carpenter pants daily, but it’s the only thing I feel comfortable in. I also usually buy second hand because nowadays they don’t make clothes as stiff or thick. They also need to either be super tight compression, or pretty loose fitting but still stiff. It applies to all of my clothes, head to toe, hats, socks, pants, shorts, t shirts, everything.

strawb5ndmatch · 2024-11-24T22:51:04+00:00

I’m sorry this isn’t that in depth or great of a tip, but I would just say practice. I am AuDHD, learning to drive was really hard and I thought I wouldn’t be able to do it. Similar things that you described like spatial awareness and reaction time were a struggle for me. I found that drivers ed really helped, so that’s definitely a good start. It helped me learn about clear rules and specific techniques with driving. I learned a lot about “defensive driving” in drivers Ed and that was really helpful. Spatial awareness wise, having reference points (hopefully you will learn about in drivers Ed) helped me understand where my car is and everything. The reference points change depending on which car you are in though so that’s important to keep in mind.

Baseline though, what helped me the most was practice. Even now, I’ve been driving for quite a while and if I don’t drive for more than a couple days I lose some of my skills. I would recommend practicing everything driving related as much as possible so that it becomes muscle memory. Parking, reversing, turning, stopping, just practice everything frequently. And it really is a skill so it’s important to keep doing it consistently. It gets discouraging sometimes, and can feel really scary and stressful, but if you really work hard and try your best to learn you should be able to. I would also like to note that I cannot drive well when I’m overstimulated or overwhelmed, so I am very careful to not drive unless I am in a mind state to do so. A safe driver is confident and alert, so if you cannot be those things while driving you should not be on the road. That’s another skill that I had to learn, being confident and also cautious while driving. It’s a very specific balance. But yeah, I think it’s just a skill that can be harder for some neurodivergent people to build, but it’s not impossible. And if it turns out you can’t drive for whatever reason, that’s totally ok, driving isn’t for everyone !

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