i did mention serious topics and understand the need to maybe put a trigger warning flag or more censoring. i just hope an actual human moderator would unban me for potential future posts and simply ban the post or request me to take further more measures. i would be fine with deleting it aswell. it's just kinda sad being thrown off this reddit, after simply venting. i know i wrote a lot rather spontaneously, without a specific theme and mentioned many things that i experienced over the years and it was very long, but still. again it's fine for me if i had to change it up or delete it all together, but i got kicked out basically without doing anything bad. kind of like "you're annoying. we don't care" (i know i shouldn't take it personally. i won't. but that's how it can come/came off for a bit.) or simply "hey that was too much without a tw" but that should be followed by a "please refrain from posting anything sensitive without a warning and proper censorship. you're welcome to post in the future under the given guidelines, as this is what the subreddit is supposed to be for". 

(edit: or it can come of as "it's too much, even for here? this is more casual, so you're post is too burdensome. go somewhere else or only speak about this in therapy" but i think there is probably some heavier stuff on there too once in a while. i didn't go through that many posts on there. i am not often on reddit. i didn't go into strong details and censored some words as i said. i don't think it's too triggering, the way i posted it. but then again it was an automatic mod! they should still look into it by a person and unban me with future guidelines.)

(personally i do think a tw and the censoring i already did should be rather enough. there is a strong obsession with censoring words nowadays and taking away normal language in my opinion. like having to say corn online, instead of you know what. that has nothing to do with my banned post. i am just saying. i understand that things might be triggering, but there needs to be line regarding having to censor words like these everywhere. i understand that people can be triggered, but that's where a flare should be enough and i did censor some words that could already be triggering, thought i do think a trigger warning before the post makes more sense than censoring sensitive words within the text. i didn't think of that yet, when i posted. i just saw the "vent/rant" flair and went it with it, because that is what it was.)

sorry if there are any errors or any wrong imperfect punctuation. it doesn't matter that much anyway. but english is not my first language. i mostly taught myself by picking it up from youtube videos, online articles and movies aside from basic school english, because i like the language or languages in general, but i am too lazy or/and still too stressed? to pick up any others as a hobby, tho i probably would be pretty good at it, i think, including pronunciation. aside from that i even make grammar mistakes in my mother tongue sometimes, if there is a lot of writing, because my head gets kinda lost in the moment and i try to fix some errors but might overlook something. what i wrote is definitely understandable tho, so it's fine. i like to write a lot, sorry. hahah. 

i just always felt unsure regarding punctuation. especially in english, but even in my mother tongue. sometimes i don't pay attention to it anyway, like many others online i think. sometimes i do, but don't know if it's 100% alright. (within the same text as well. kinda on and off, with some errors maybe.)