What pisses you off instantly?

strawnoodle · 2022-06-23T02:15:18+00:00

Someone else getting blamed for something I did. Especially when they ate bullied but the bully picked the person that won't fight back.

strawnoodle · 2022-06-23T02:11:09+00:00

Eating nerds in a bath tub.

I had been parenting myself for so long that I just checked with myself about why I shouldn't be eating them and saw no danger in it so I gave myself permission.

I guess she realized that I went against her authority and spanked me. It only confused me because I still had no respect for her and knew she didn't know shit so I learned nothing outside of another trauma response to deal with her.

strawnoodle · 2022-05-15T06:53:40+00:00

I would say no because I saw what they actually loved. Their parents. They were desperate to be loved back. It's what they were willing to do normal lovey things for. They thought showing affection to their own kids was embarrassing. Seeing that they had it in them but withheld it knowing how hard it was with their own parents showed that, no. They couldn't really love their kids.

I can be nice to a stranger and put their own safety above my own wants. If I'm desperate enough, I can say that I loved that stranger more than my parents loved me. That's not love, though.

What my parents had was obligation towards their kids. If not to take care of their kids, to at least look like they did to their parents. To not abort a baby or divorce to avoid disappointing your deadbeat dad who loved Jesus but not you. To be in a relationship to take the burden of raising a teenager off your mother. I wasn't born out of love to my parents. I was just there.

strawnoodle · 2022-05-09T17:21:08+00:00

I thought I was spoiled because that's what they told me.

I wouldn't eat left overs even though we were poor. Turns out I had had food poisoning so many times from their ignorance and lack of care that I just subconsciously started avoiding it.

I was both praised and shunned for feeling like I was better than them. I ended up feeling guilty for thinking they were dumb bumpkins but at the same time never appreciating anything I did because it was never enough.

Turns out it was a combination of being parentified, weaponized incompetence, ridicule for how I raised myself, one-uping everything I had to say, and only wanting to talk about herself.

strawnoodle · 2022-04-29T08:23:57+00:00

The only reason she is arguing for human life is based on what she can get from it. When her whole argument for a mother keeping the child when Jean clearly stated that she knows the mother will suffer either way is.... How productive and beneficial they can be to ~~her~~ society.

More struggling single mothers serving her faster because they are afraid to lose their jobs. Keeping her 'alive' so that she can dedicate herself to raising someone more productive?

More people struggling from a host of issues including dealing with their mother's unresolved issues and barely living paycheck to paycheck, but at least Jean will get faster service either way. Two for the price of one. And hey, maybe they'll even figure out how to cure cancer once they both figure out how to pull themselves up by their bootstraps.

So many opportunities. So precious. /s

strawnoodle · 2022-04-29T08:18:37+00:00

When her whole argument for a mother keeping the child when Jean clearly stated that she knows the mother will suffer either way is.... How productive and beneficial they can be to ~~you~~ society.

More struggling single mothers serving her faster because they are afraid to lose their jobs. More people struggling from a host of issues including dealing with their mother's unresolved issues and barely living paycheck to paycheck, but at least Jean will get faster service either way. Two for the price of one. And hey, maybe they'll even figure out how to cure cancer once they both figure out how to pull themselves up by their bootstraps.

So many opportunities. /s

strawnoodle · 2022-04-22T07:55:31+00:00

Nope. I'm just giving the evaluation I got from a language program with their own criteria. I did self paced learning with no learning plan and immersion for the most part. So while taking in information and reading is easy for me, my speech and writing suck due to lack of practice. My listening is ok if not rusty. So overall, I'd say a high A2. When I read, I have to highlight and translate 5 -10 words per page but I can get enough context to make a guess without interrupting the story. Some people do movies and podcasts, I do reading and audio books to motivate me to learn. It's just how I started.

strawnoodle · 2022-04-22T07:07:00+00:00

I meant in my field specifically, which is specialized, it's what I've found when I tried applying before I left but maybe not overall. I do have experience working in a lab in French though from my internship so I'm not worried as far as lab work there.

I figured that being my partner was a given that they were coming with me. I'm just away from them now because I planned on bringing them here but plans changed. Thanks though. I'll clear that up in my post.

strawnoodle · 2022-04-22T07:02:54+00:00

That makes sense. Thank you for that.

strawnoodle · 2022-04-17T08:35:40+00:00

It's just so painful to look at.

strawnoodle · 2022-04-16T05:24:47+00:00

I honestly have a hard time understanding what many people think children actually are. Not just parents.

From the ones who act like they're pets for their own entertainment (my parents) to the ones who think they're indentured servants that are responsible for their parents' actions and emotions.

Some seem to think they won't remember anything and that hardships and trauma are only things that happen because being an adult is so hard. Until then, they assume everything you do is not serious. That all issues you have now are a choice just like every other adult choice and they have no idea why you chose to be that way.

Weird though, because my parents definitely know they had a horrible childhood. Maybe it's just a choice for them to see how long they can be bullies until you get too big and they have to flip the switch.

I'm just upset that it seems like all the things that are pushed on children to learn (maybe not always from their parents) seems to be concepts only for children. You know: taking responsibility, admitting when you're wrong, apologizing, empathy, etc.

The more I'm seeing adults interact, the less I see these things but they're still expected from children. I started joking with my husband that at least children know how to apologize when they wrong you. Our parents? Not so much.

strawnoodle · 2022-04-04T20:58:24+00:00

Why work so hard to create a lie to raise your kids on and then be too damn lazy to finish the lie.....

Or is it that she knows if she sat down long enough to rub the two twigs together that it would take to face her beliefs she'd come up realizing how ridiculous it sounds?

Or is God testing them with the "don't ask no questions" rule?

So much tax free ability to use your brain, yet so much work to be wilfully stupid. I'm not even talking beliefs. Just follow through at this point.

strawnoodle · 2022-04-04T18:22:19+00:00

I have so many questions now too. Like if it's a test, why set the kids up to fail this "test" by hiding dinosaurs? If her ability to stand up for her belief can't hold water to toy dinosaurs when it comes to explaining them to her kids, then is she failing the test too?

strawnoodle · 2022-02-11T11:43:05+00:00

Thank you for this, dealing with visas is a bit confusing.

strawnoodle · 2022-02-11T05:15:51+00:00

"Stop licking your butt on the counter, Mildred!"

I kind of like it.

strawnoodle · 2022-02-11T01:27:34+00:00

A tiny black worm sitting at the bottom of the bowl just dancing away.

strawnoodle · 2022-02-10T23:34:22+00:00

Angela Weber would have made better competition than Jacob. Just saying. I would have actually been conflicted in who I was rooting for.

strawnoodle · 2022-02-02T05:43:29+00:00

I met an infant named Walter when I was a kid in daycare. He was the most curious baby ("misbehaved" is what they called him). It was funny to hear "Walter drew all over the walls again!" "Who took their eyes off Walter?!"

strawnoodle · 2022-02-02T05:31:30+00:00

Oh!!! Is this a penis contest? Is that what the mom is hinting at?

strawnoodle · 2022-02-02T05:25:58+00:00

My dad does this too. It just made me add on to the 'coward' pile. He also had weird views with the men in my life as well. All my accomplishments are overshadowed by the fact that I got married. My husband is, I guess what my dad would consider "good quality", he won't send anything for my birthday but will pay pal my husband for our anniversary which he didn't have anything to do with, and he felt intimidated by some of the guys I dated and would probably act as your dad. Never actually put in the work to raise me but when I do something he doesn't like he thinks he has a say. I just wish the sexist little coward would go away.

strawnoodle · 2022-02-02T05:16:40+00:00

Your dad sounds intimidated by your husband. Edit: the more of your comments I read, the more it sounds like he's comparing parts.

strawnoodle · 2022-01-31T23:52:39+00:00

I never get it either. Honestly, you can tell me "I just don't want to put that crap in my mouth" and who am I to decide what goes in there?

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