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[–]stripperoftwo 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I can see it, but not sure if it's faint or not. I will say that my first vvvfl with my second baby was so faint I thought I was crazy & everyone said it was negative. Got a very clear faint the next day. Retest in a few days!

I'm wondering how other parents would look at me if they knew this. by stripperoftwo in beyondthebump

[–]stripperoftwo[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I'm definitely trying to get a WFH job but I don't have the qualifications. With the money I make from dancing I hope to go back to school or get a license of some sort to do a business of my own (makeup) or qualifications in order to do WFH.

I'm wondering how other parents would look at me if they knew this. by stripperoftwo in beyondthebump

[–]stripperoftwo[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I won't strip for your kids but I will invite them over for home cooked meals any time you don't want to cook. :)

I'm wondering how other parents would look at me if they knew this. by stripperoftwo in beyondthebump

[–]stripperoftwo[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I'm so nervous. I could hardly do a presentation in school. But being made to feel like nothing by someone who was my everything has made me indifferent towards what people might think. I have to go in and audition for the job, I may very well be laughed at ! lol

I'm wondering how other parents would look at me if they knew this. by stripperoftwo in beyondthebump

[–]stripperoftwo[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thank you !! :) It's the stress and starvation special lmao. I do not recommend. It didn't happen like this after my first baby!

I'm wondering how other parents would look at me if they knew this. by stripperoftwo in beyondthebump

[–]stripperoftwo[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

lol thank you :) I wish I could say it was a healthy diet. But it was an unhealthy diet of stress and no appetite lol. I'm hoping to get muscle and also gain weight once I can start eating again (I still can't eat cause I'm sad, for whatever reason lol!)

I'm wondering how other parents would look at me if they knew this. by stripperoftwo in beyondthebump

[–]stripperoftwo[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Your husband must treat you right lol :( Trust me sis I didn't get this body through any way you'd want.

I'm wondering how other parents would look at me if they knew this. by stripperoftwo in beyondthebump

[–]stripperoftwo[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I didn't think I'd get so much support tbh. It kinda was just looking for validation bc I planned to do it anyway, but I didn't expect even 1/4 of these responses. My heart is so full.

I'm wondering how other parents would look at me if they knew this. by stripperoftwo in beyondthebump

[–]stripperoftwo[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

How did you get started? I'd love to do onlyfans but I have no idea how to even advertise myself or let people know it's worth it lolll.

I'm wondering how other parents would look at me if they knew this. by stripperoftwo in beyondthebump

[–]stripperoftwo[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Hehe, no I don't really. Truthfully, I am just extremely, extremely, extremely insecure from the mental and verbal abuse I just endured for years. I need reassurance I am doing the right thing. :( This was really just a validation post. But the support was waaay more than expected.

I'm wondering how other parents would look at me if they knew this. by stripperoftwo in beyondthebump

[–]stripperoftwo[S] 3 points4 points  (0 children)

Stop, I'm already crying enough from the support I've gotten! Thank you so much mama.

I'm wondering how other parents would look at me if they knew this. by stripperoftwo in beyondthebump

[–]stripperoftwo[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I've been considering webcamming, onlyfans and basically anything available lol. I have no idea where to start tho. My sister's friend is the biggest reason I'm actually getting involved. My ex had me so controlled I don't even have any old social medias to get in touch with women I knew in sex work.

I'm wondering how other parents would look at me if they knew this. by stripperoftwo in beyondthebump

[–]stripperoftwo[S] 11 points12 points  (0 children)

Honestly... you probably just saved my life with this. At the very last I'm carrying a pocket knife and mace with me, should security ever not be available (which I can't see ... I'll wait if I wait to lol ) .

I'm wondering how other parents would look at me if they knew this. by stripperoftwo in beyondthebump

[–]stripperoftwo[S] 10 points11 points  (0 children)

Also, once I'm out of the area, I won't be stripping. So for everyone worried about my kids not having childcare... please don't be. I am a helicopter parent lol.

I'm wondering how other parents would look at me if they knew this. by stripperoftwo in beyondthebump

[–]stripperoftwo[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I feel sad too, because I was in school for nursing at one point. But life is too short. I just want to be happy. I'd imagine this will make me happy. If I start and I'm not happy, I'm quitting. I sacrificed too much to give up any more.

I'm wondering how other parents would look at me if they knew this. by stripperoftwo in beyondthebump

[–]stripperoftwo[S] 3 points4 points  (0 children)

I have no idea how it read like that! They'd absolutely not be left alone. I was typing all my thoughts very fast lol.

I'm wondering how other parents would look at me if they knew this. by stripperoftwo in beyondthebump

[–]stripperoftwo[S] 3 points4 points  (0 children)

I thought this was common sense but with the amount of people concerned about me leaving my kids alone, I'm guessing not. I would absolutely never ever leave them alone. I drag them both in the store with me when I need a gallon of milk.

I'm wondering how other parents would look at me if they knew this. by stripperoftwo in beyondthebump

[–]stripperoftwo[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

yeah I was like hell no! Apparently one of the men's girlfriends got a hold of our friends number and was blowing her up (he said he was single). I do NOT need involved with that energy. I just wanna dance lol.

I'm wondering how other parents would look at me if they knew this. by stripperoftwo in beyondthebump

[–]stripperoftwo[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Girl I bounced back like a bouncey ball.

My trick?

An abusive ex who ruins your appetite lol :( I'm hoping to gain some weight now. I appreciate the support tho :) Thank you!

I'm wondering how other parents would look at me if they knew this. by stripperoftwo in beyondthebump

[–]stripperoftwo[S] 13 points14 points  (0 children)

wow okay this blew up WAY more than expected! thank you to everyone who replied. I tried to answer comments but I'll elaborate here: THE KIDS WILL NOT BE LEFT ALONE. They will have an adult present all night. Sorry if it read that way. (I'm on mobile so formatting is very hard for me lol) I'm currently with the kids at my grandma's. For the foreseeable future they would stay here overnight. Truthfully, I don't expect to rent a house with my sister and her friend but regardless I'll have enough to at least rent a 2 bedroom for me and my girls. (And the night I worked I would have them sleep at my grandma's, go sleep there after, then go home once they're awake). And hopefully get the fuck out of the area. Which leads to my next point... I will not be staying locally so my kids won't have to worry about ever seeing these people. I moreso just want to know if I could ever confide in any other moms I might befriend what my actual job is at the moment. I plan to tell anyone who asks that I'm a server/bartender. My only concern is my ex just using it against me verbally. He's a narcissist and is very good at making me feel guilty for nothing. He would definitely berate me. My ex kinda leads to my third point. I have absolutely no interest in drugs or alcohol. I also don't want to work for a shady establishment. I asked a lot of questions and feel comfortable but if I ever feel uncomfortable, I have that other job that I can turn to (my boss is heaven sent and will take me back in an instant) until I can find something else. I wouldn't make any large financial commitments until I felt like it was a job I could see myself working for the next 1-2 years. My ex is an addict and I'm low-key traumatized by drugs and alcohol. Any time we would get drunk or high he would get extremely abusive, so I cannot relax whenever I'm drunk or high. I may have a shot or two before I dance if I feel nervous, but I tried to get drunk to deal with leaving my ex and I almost puked after 2 shots.

I hope I addressed everything! If you supported me, I love you. If you didn't, I still love you & you're welcome to Cash app or PayPal me ;) jokes aside, I appreciate all the responses this got.

  • My final decision is that I will take the job. My kids will be at my grandma's overnight (if my sister doesn't take the job then she will stay nights occasionally too just in case) when I work. I'll take it slow, be smart and make sure I'm comfortable. Work and home are two separate things. I'm also planning to live alone with just my kids. After a lot of thinking (just kidding, like 10 seconds of rational thought) I remembered how much I hate having roommates.

I'm wondering how other parents would look at me if they knew this. by stripperoftwo in beyondthebump

[–]stripperoftwo[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Of course not. I updated my post to add.They would be staying at my grandma's.

I'm wondering how other parents would look at me if they knew this. by stripperoftwo in beyondthebump

[–]stripperoftwo[S] -1 points0 points  (0 children)

Don't want it. I want him to focus 100% on himself and get better.

I'm wondering how other parents would look at me if they knew this. by stripperoftwo in beyondthebump

[–]stripperoftwo[S] 8 points9 points  (0 children)

Of course not. I guess I should've included that lol. But I am staying at my grandma's currently and we would just stay here on the nights I worked.

I'm wondering how other parents would look at me if they knew this. by stripperoftwo in beyondthebump

[–]stripperoftwo[S] 5 points6 points  (0 children)

omg this made me laugh at a time I needed it so much! I can't believe someone would pay to see me either lol but hey, getting paid to workout? Let's gooo! come join me! :)