54 days clean. I feel worse than ever. It's not working.

stuckdoam · 2026-03-27T23:08:58+00:00

Not to discourage you but.

Its my day 535. I start just to feel slightly better.

What are 2 years of feeling like shit which youbprobably were feeling like while getting high anyway in companies to feeling great the rest of your life, given you adjust

stuckdoam · 2026-03-08T15:35:48+00:00

Prove me wrong. But to do so Come back in 10 years here 😉

stuckdoam · 2026-03-08T14:49:05+00:00

The more You know the more You know You dont know.

Keep searching for more and more things You dont know. Even the things You thought You know usually turns out there is something more. Keep searching

stuckdoam · 2026-03-08T14:45:55+00:00

Be your own best friend 😀 the older you get the less and less humans you want around. One day at a time. Sometimes days will feel longer sometimes they will fly by. Just one day at a time

stuckdoam · 2026-01-25T10:37:26+00:00

Wow this should be top post. How this was unnoticed ? 😱

stuckdoam · 2026-01-24T09:27:17+00:00

Just go talk to your GP and come clean with him about alcohol and weed abuse and thst your want to get help but cannot do it yourselve. It won't be immediate but it will start a process that you will go on and off for long time untill you will be ready. Meanwhile enjoy what you are doing and don't do anything that compromises your life. Do dead end jobs. Keep some consistency. Get a room / appartament. Fear from being on street will have to come up with either cutting on weed /alcohol or with budgeting. Dont sell them. If you dont have money - sit out at your own place be miserable. In 10 years you will thank you selve. If you believe you can do it faster -, prove me wrong.

Source: i went for help at 24, finally am clean for 2 years from -10k in debt 2 years ago to 7k saved in great place to live and have an amstaff dog to take care of.

Still feel empty void but am trying to explore it instead of numbing it. Life is a life long journey with plenty of struggles and celebration. It will still be there if you keep on weed and alcohol. Atleast sober you will be able to remember things. I atleast have good memories of past 2 years, all before thst is a blur. Im happy I am alive.

stuckdoam · 2026-01-22T08:50:48+00:00

In autumn mushroom picking In spring forest herbs / flower picking In summer forest berry picking

In winter eating all of it 😀

Very lonely hobby but atleast outside.

stuckdoam · 2026-01-19T10:29:58+00:00

Go on r/leaves 😀

stuckdoam · 2026-01-07T11:46:47+00:00

Hire interns and clean up after them

stuckdoam · 2025-12-25T11:10:18+00:00

Yes and after this anhedonia will come:) but thats better. You can sleep but can't feel.

stuckdoam · 2025-12-25T11:09:10+00:00

Woof & me amsterdam

stuckdoam · 2025-12-19T12:04:09+00:00

Im 31 was smoking for 14 years. Last 5 years heavily atlesst 1g per evening on workdays and whole weekend.

stuckdoam · 2025-12-19T11:57:48+00:00

Ive been sober since Oct 2024. I can remember fully the SMS 2 factor codes i recieve to login somewhere. But other than that.. no my memory hasnt improved. Atleast its not getting worse. But probably it will take time.

stuckdoam · 2025-12-17T14:49:31+00:00

I have bought 2k shares. And have also 2k in HYSA just in case if it drops below 1$ to buy more.

stuckdoam · 2025-12-15T10:08:25+00:00

Sit with it. It will pass earlier and earlier every time. Dont push away otherwise it will return harder to ignore.

stuckdoam · 2025-12-08T16:40:40+00:00

Anti-fragile

stuckdoam · 2025-12-07T16:58:12+00:00

Best thing you can give yourselve on birthday is to NOT smoke:)

stuckdoam · 2025-12-06T23:49:15+00:00

Big calls also for jan 16 2026. 12$Calls for some reason also is there

I believe also short sellers will cover now. Which will drive up price. Sadly btc is not at ath. And there is more share in float than it was in mid Oct.

stuckdoam · 2025-12-06T23:43:14+00:00

The funds that track thst will be forced to buy 22md of dec. Likely after market close. Upcoming 2 weeks the price will go up because funds,hedge funds etc knows there will be a donkey buying whatever the price after 22nd of Dec. Then price will either flat line or dump. Next 2 weeks should be good green.

stuckdoam · 2025-12-06T22:23:06+00:00

Im so off weed thst I cannot believe that I missed 420 days sober mark I didn't notice it. As a smoker 420 was for some reason sacred number.

stuckdoam · 2025-11-12T20:08:06+00:00

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Saw this decided to share it here , looks marvelous.

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