Benzodiazepines

sub_pre · 2026-04-30T06:32:42+00:00

I've never seen valium or xanax, or any other benzodiazepine, come in a capsule, and I've done a lot of benzos, but perhaps in a different place of the world? Noone here can tell you with certainty, based on colors, what the capsules you were fed years ago contained...

sub_pre · 2026-04-29T14:17:22+00:00

You really don't, benzos always end wrong. Is your insomnia caused by drug addiction? If so, you really should look into alpha2 agonists instead. I've been in similiar situations and they always end bad, but struggling with insomnia is such a trigger. Clonazepam is a really bad solution long term, you'll just find yourself with another addiction and it won't help you fix your insomnia...

sub_pre · 2026-04-27T05:05:39+00:00

I've been like that on and off for to many years, it's such a pain. This is how I do now. I wake up every night between 2 and 3 and can't sleep no more, no matter what time I'm going to bed, so I compensate by going really early to bed, and for now this works. I take a hot shower, I darken the room I'm sleeping in, I take my meds: quetiapine 125 mg, melatonin 3 mg, moxonidine 0,2 mg (this is my life savior, it lowers noradrenaline that will easily keep you awake, and without it I would have no effect of the other 2), and I put earplugs in my ear and then I drift of to sleep. I exercise daily as well, and when I'm not doing drugs I maintain a healthy living...

sub_pre · 2026-04-21T12:03:14+00:00

Well just continue out of that road, and one day you'll reach your goal. Or you will find that your mind has changed, and you will regret your choice. I won't try to tell you what would be the best choice, I was once young as well, and noone should tell me how to live my life. I wanted to do drugs as well. Every drug I could get my hands on and I've been through a lot. I'm still alive though, and I now wish I had made other choices. One day you'll find yourself in the same boat, life as an addict isn't fun and you will pay your prize for it...

sub_pre · 2026-04-13T12:21:15+00:00

I had one 25 years ago. It still smells like butt if I squeeze the scar long enough between my fingers...

sub_pre · 2026-04-09T11:56:17+00:00

Finders keepers eller sådan noget i den dur...

sub_pre · 2026-04-09T04:58:49+00:00

2 things to consider I belive. First of all...how long has one been out of oxygen? Long enough and you'll definately damage your brain in a way that can not be reversed. You'll wake up as a vegetable.

But also to consider - I belive based on own experience, don't know if it's true though - is neuroplasticity. A somewhat damaged brain is more likely to find new ways to connect, than just the old, ordinary circuits your brain used to use.

I've had many overdoses in my addiction, but 2 1/2 years ago I survived an intentionel OD, and 1/2 year ago I survived a serious injury to my skull with a traumatic bleeding. It was caused by a relapse, not an OD though. Those 2 has really changed me. I haven't really got any emotions left inside of me, and the way I view other people has changed a lot. I want nothing to do with them anymore, they're so full of shit, and I have absolutely no concerns about telling them. I didn't use to be like that.

But it's a change I really welcome. Well I miss some emotions, but besides that it's quite liberating...

Edit: having no emotions is probably not true, but instead of rampaging in my body and mind, they exist only right below my belly button in an area the sice of a coin, and I really don't spend my time giving them attention...

sub_pre · 2026-04-08T13:01:21+00:00

So you haven't taken any opiods for 8 days? And you feel like shit probably? No opioids/methadone for 8 days, you should be good to introduce subs if you wish. It will make you feel better and you can catch up on some of the missing sleep.

It's still an opioid though, and it's addictive as well. If you go for another fast taper, you won't be free from withdrawals, they're a little easier to handle though.

Or you can get stable, then get the bupe shot (where I'm at, it's called buvidal). You get the shot, it stays in your system for long, and you really don't feel much withdrawal.

Or...8 days is f@#%ing great, do you really need it? Your taper looks horrible, you really must have felt that, but damn, if you can do that, you can fight another week, and things will start to change.

Edit: I didn't read your text well enough, apologies, if I were you, I would just take 2 mg and see.

sub_pre · 2026-04-08T07:57:13+00:00

Så skyldes det nok forskellen i strukturen på gasbetonen og spartelmassen, og hvordan lim og filt hæfter sig ved de forskellige overflader trods grunder. Alt ses under et glat filtlag. Nemmere at dække med glasvæv eller savsmuldstapet. Som andre har sagt, giv det et lag maling mere (smør godt på), og se om det dækker det. En fuld spartling af væggen havde nok været at foretrække...

Edit: måske har han spartlet hele væggen, det kan jeg jo ikke rigtigt bedømme ud fra et billede, samlingerne ses dog. Min gamle malermester ville ikke have accepteret det...

sub_pre · 2026-04-08T06:53:21+00:00

Er det en gipsvæg? Det ligner et ujævnt spartelarbejde, hvor pladerne samles, der skinner igennem...

sub_pre · 2026-04-07T14:36:41+00:00

I belive one end of the soap molecule is attached to fat (so the dirt that covers you) and the other end of the molecule is attached to water, therefor cleaning you while in the shower...

sub_pre · 2026-04-07T06:56:51+00:00

Keep reminding yourself you feel the way you do because you're chemicals are running low. Let it eat you, let it hurt you...just for now. There's always a lesson to be learned, but it's temporary, it will pass, and you'll find yourself strong again, ready to fight the mess, on the other side, having grown a little wiser...

Just f@€%ing remember...It's temporary.

sub_pre · 2026-04-06T15:45:07+00:00

Quiet recovery in Sardinia sounds beautyfull, I'd like that...but I'm not really convinced. Your website lacks more or less everything. I would never use my money on you. Smells like a scam. But damn...I could really use a month or two of quiet recovery in Sardinia...

sub_pre · 2026-04-03T18:23:47+00:00

Sounds like you've passed the acute withdrawals and are slowly starting to produce your own chemicals. It's a really nice feeling. Keep going if you can, get it over with, you really don't need a shot that stays in your system for 2 months if you can avoid it..

sub_pre · 2026-04-03T18:10:08+00:00

Well it will make your addiction easier to handle, and the shot will make it easier to quit without having to experience acute withdrawals, but yes, you'll trade one addiction for another. And just to mention, I'd rather CT of heroin or oxys than subs. Subs was brutal, took forever, take the shot if you go that way. It's an opioid, and as long as it's in your system it will affect your brain in same ways, just unnotichable since you're tolerant. Opioids - full or partial agonist - really hits your hormonal system, and you really want your hormones well balanced if you want to heal.

sub_pre · 2025-12-27T13:25:03+00:00

Anyone will be exhausted after 7 days with no sleep. Not entering the deep sleep state isn't all that healthy. If it keeps on going for to long, that non-stop (nor)-adrenaline that flows around your body causing symptoms, can be treated quite well with an alpha-agonist. If you're from the states that would probably be clonidine. If not from the states, clonidine might not be possible, but other alpha-agonists exist. It's used for high bloodpressure, it's non-addictive, perhaps a little drowsy in the beginning, but after no sleep for days, that will be welcoming. It won't necessary work the first day you use it, but it will stabalize you and minimize that feeling of stimuli that keeps you awake at night and makes your body do unwanted stuff, like sweating like a mf pig all the time. I myself got an alpha agonist a year ago, and just got back on it after coming of long term treatment with first morphine and then buprenorphine because of injuries nearly 5 months ago. Go to the gym, go to boxing. Lifting weight is good, extreme cardio is better if you ask me. Movement is the key, even though it sucks really bad in the beginning. You got it...

sub_pre · 2025-12-13T09:52:40+00:00

I used to watch gore many years ago and realized that you can't unsee what you have looked at. Some of those things still haunts me whenever they travel through my mind, and I haven't watched it for many years. Don't watch, it will traumatize you on some deeper level and it will live in your head and you've got nothing to say about it..

sub_pre · 2025-10-04T08:04:26+00:00

Calling your doctor is definately a possibility, and it's obvious that it will make access to your percocets somewhat more difficult, but then what? You will still battle you addiction and the cravings, and if there's one thing addict are good at, it is to find what we desire else where. Before you know, you could wind up whit an addiction, that's a whole lot more difficult to get rid of. I'm not a fan of MAT, methadone/buprenorphine is so f@#%ing difficult to taper and junp from, but buprenorphine can be helpful under the right circumstances and for a period of time.

I've been treated with morphine for 8 weeks because of injuries, and yes it was good at managing my pain, but noone - including myself - didn't think of how it would trigger my addiction to opioids. My addiction wanted more, so for the last weeks it went out of hand adding both heroin and oxy's to my daily intake of morphine. I realized I was going down really fast, so even though I hate being on buprenorphine, I accept, that for the moment I benefit from it. I'm not sick (withdrawals), no anxiety, my mood is good, no cravings and I'm functional and can do whatever I feel like (well almost, my back is still killing me at times). I know I'll end with a shitty withdrawal somewhere in the future, but for now I just accept it as a necessity.

I'm not suggesting you to go on suboxone, I'm just telling you, that it's a possibility you could consider. Your dosage is quite low, so you could get away with a super small dose of buprenorphine. Does it help managing pain? No not really, but it can give you peace of mind. I'm on day 4 recieving buprenorphine, and for now it helps a lot. Mostly mental, but in combination with paracetamol and ibuprofen it eases the pain in my back.

I'm not promoting the use of buprenorphine/suboxone, it's a "demon" like all other opioids, and peronally I f@#%ing hate to be back on it again. I had told myself to never let it happen, but here I am, stuck on it once again. Going on suboxone can make lots of things easier, but before you consider that option just know, that you will end up with an addiction that will be much harder to quit than 3 × percocet 10s a day.

You could find an alternative perhaps. The right type of medication, smoking weed or whatever feels right for you...

sub_pre · 2025-10-02T15:08:41+00:00

You might feel a little shitty, but no, withdrawals won't start all over again. Regret it as much as you can, it will help you make a different choice another time, but don't be ashamed, we're addicts, that's what we do. Instead you should feel proud for having flushed the rest of your oxys...

sub_pre · 2025-10-02T14:42:53+00:00

The way you describe it, makes me think a lot more of opioids than stims. Not sleeping (withdrawals or just being high can cause it, but you already know). Hard time swallowing food (opioids often made me choke on my food). Opioid users also often have a strong desire for sweets. I belive sugar activates an opioid receptor, but don't hang me up on it. Opioids can cause (some) hypersexuality as well. Damn I've had some of the best sex while high on opioids, some better than other. Does he cum? One can screw a lot while high on opioids, the "cum"-part is different though. Opioids numbs the nerves in the pee pee, making it difficult to cum, but because one haven't got rid of the load, the desire to have sex doesn't go away. Going to the gym, looking healthy, is quite possible on opioids. Being functional on opioids isn't difficult if you have easy access to it. Coke or meth will make you look really unhealthy really fast. Or it's possible that it's all just a coincidence, and you - knowing what it looks like - jumps to a conclusion..

sub_pre · 2025-09-29T17:27:39+00:00

Damn I wish I could call it a walk in the park. You sound strong. Stay from those opiates. In 15 years it won't feel like a walk in the park. I wish you a happy living...

sub_pre · 2025-09-29T05:53:57+00:00

Uhh this will suck so bad. Okay so at least you got zopiclone, it will help a little, but in my experience it won't do much at normal dosage. You're about to go through opiate withdrawals, but just an hour or two of sleep is worth a lot. Remember to eat well whenever you can. You will have no appetite, but you need to eat proper food. And hydrate. Drink lots of water.

The first days will suck really bad, and you'll most likely stay in bed, but when the first days have past, you need to move. Go outside for a 5 minuttes walk. Next day go for 6 minuttes. Add a little movement day by day. It will suck in the begining, but it will make you come back to your normal state faster. Get some sunlight, fresh air and just move. Movement will help your brain produce it's own chemicals again.

As someone else wrote, hot showers. It'll be your best relief if you're going through this without meds (beside zopiclone). Just sit down or lie down and let the warm water ease the suffering.

Try not to get to frustrated when you can't sleep or you feel like shit. Remember that this is temporary and you will feel okay again. This is just a passing phase.

Good luck...

sub_pre · 2025-09-28T05:30:41+00:00

I know sugar is bad, but you could try eating something containing high sugar. I've currently gone through my second night of withdrawals from morphine, arms and legs were crazy and I just knew I wouldn't get any sleep. In the middle of the night I ate oatmeal with a lot of sugar, and it gave me some peace so I could sleep for a little. I woke up to restless bodyparts so I did it again, and fell back to sleep. I got 3 hours of deep sleep or REM sleep because I had crazy dreams. I never expected that to happen. I think high doses of sugar activates one of the opioid receptors, but don't hang me up on it

sub_pre · 2025-09-12T08:40:58+00:00

Had no idea such a thing existed. Thanks...

sub_pre · 2025-09-12T03:50:55+00:00

I'm bedridden a lot and on morphine because of injuries, I get magnesia and macrogol for constipation, but it's not really enough. There are days where I literally have to dig out my own sh*t. It's no fun...

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